🍄My Sweet Mushrooms Boy🍄

Sapnap x reader

“I’ve always done stuff for you, I’ve cleaned and taken care of you. Your so u grateful”

I sit their feel my chest warm and try to hold back tears keep a straight face while my own mom yells at me, I look around the room seeing my dad just ignoring what is happening, he’s never stood up for me or help me once, he’s not my protector. She finally stops and I leave the room. I close my door locking it, I let tears fall and I open my mouth for nothing to come out. I cry silently and fall to my knees. I want to cry loudly and scream so bad. I move to my bed and let tears freely drop as It becomes hard to breath. My mind faces as I cry, ever thing they have said or done to me floods my mind causing me to city harder. I feel a gentle hand move across my back, I meet my lovers face. He’s face shows sadness, I look away feel ashamed of my face. My parents have always made me feel bad for having emotions so to cry in front of him makes me feel useless and worthless. He wraps his large arms around my chest and under my legs. He lifts me moving more onto the bed, he kisses my forehead and wipes my tears as they fall, my body just relaxes in his arm, he puts my hair behind my ear whispering soft words, his hit breath makes me shiver even when I’m in pain he makes me feel so loved. He’s hands gently touch my body as he kisses my cheeks and neck gently as I cry. Even tho I can’t explain my words. He finds ways to make me feel good. I turn holding his hand “ please take me out of here” he smiles warmly keeping me in his arms, we move to the window, he holds me tightly “ close your eyes” I do as he says feeling him jump, I peek my eye open feel a smile creep onto my face seeing how free he looks. I close my eyes until I feel his grip loosen. He lays me in his room, I look over seeing him take his shoes off. I lay on my back on his beautiful bed, I hum then feel his hands move up my sides as he sits between my legs. I look up as he lends over.him being taller makes me look extremely small. He smiles warmly cupping my cheeks. “I’ve always protected you y/n” I look up smiling letting tears run down not out of sadness but of happiness.I owed him the world. Many times I wanted to take my own life. And die slowly or painful or just anyway, he always showed up when my thoughts became dark, he pulled me out so quickly, he always looked panicked as if my thought were sitting next to me with a knife or chains or rope encouraging me to end it. I get pulled from my thoughts when I feel his warm hands hold my eyes and he places small kisses around my tummy, his hair rests over his brows making his beautiful eyes disappear. I close my eyes and relax under his touch. He looks up moving his arms under me, he gets closer to my face places small kisses on my lips holding the back of my neck, the kisses became deeper and more desperate. He moves to my neck and hums “ you know I love you right” I look at him nodding, he looks me in the eyes “ please don’t leave me “ I look at him confused “ I wouldn’t leave you “ he looks almost sad “ I know you don’t want to live but please don’t go please “ his voice cracked and he looks away, my heart breaks. I wrap myself around him and kiss him deeply “ I love you” he kisses me back and rubs his fingers through my hair “promise me please y/n promise “ I look at him “ I promise “ he kisses me more as the night goes on, I feel peace again I feel like the evil that ran through my mind has gone away, I love him with all my heart if only he was real.

The will

(Angst, fluff. Really really sad)

I turn my back to him sobbing lightly, that stupid book rests on the table. His will. I just wanted to help him recover and get through it all. I have hope I have so much hope for him to get better. I feel as if I was slapped. He gets up wrapping his arms around me but I move forward pushing him away “ no, you don’t get to do that” I glare at him with tears in my eyes, my chest rises and falls rapidly and I shake slightly“ you can’t write a will then talk about technoblade never dies” I cry more backing up resting my hand on my chest “ you said have faith techno, that thing just seals the fact you have accepted death” his head drops, his face is painted with guilt he hated making you cry“ I’m just trying to be prepared “ i feel a rush of anger as I start to yell “ FOR WHAT TECHNO! FOR WHAT” I get closer and grip his shirt and cry “ you just told me that you don’t care anymore, everything in that book your going to do on your own” he hugs me tightly, I try to pull away but give up after awhile and sob “ forgive me beloved, I didn’t mean for you to take it that way, I just want you taken care of, I just want things to be okay if I don’t…” I look him in the eyes crying more “ I don’t care about what’s left, please don’t say it please don’t. I can barely handle you writing that but to hear you say it hurts so bad techno” I wrap my arms around his neck crying more and start to shake not caring how I looked “ please don’t give up beloved please “ he lifts me up as I cry lightly in his arms, he gently rubs my back and kisses my head moving far far away from that cursed book. I look up at him “ I love you so much please just please, I don’t want a will or anything I just want you please just don’t give up until there is nothing else we can do to help then I’ll take that cursed book and….” I don’t finish and he kisses me softly running my fingers through his hair and grip his shirt tightly as he kisses me more, he runs his fingers through my hair desperately wanting more. He pulls away resting his forehead on mine “ I haven’t given up beloved, I don’t want nothing to happen. I don’t want to know I could leave you beloved but I need to know to know Im leaving you in good hands and in a good spot, it makes me scared at the thought of leaving you alone “ his voice cracks looking up at you “ it helps me rest easier and keep going, I would give the world to know your safe “ my eyes water again “ ooo beloved I love you “ he kisses me softly and smile lightly “ I love you more”. That night I stay up watching his chest rise and fall, he rested his hand on your lap, I gently move my fingers over his cheek and he grunts moving his cheek into my palm and I smile. the medicine make it hard for him to sleep so to see him laid out with his messy pink hair everywhere gave me a peace. I kiss his hand and say a little prayer as I look up I smile sadly and mumble “ it’s not over yet my love”

( I’m sorry it’s sad but I saw his will to philza and bro this broke me, I respect techno and everything just makes me sad honestly sorry🥺)

Trauma is an identity

I cry Lightly as tears run my face and to my dress my tears stain my dress as I feel a warm hand move over my shoulder, he moves down my arm taking my hand. I don’t look up but know who it is, he pulls me closer gently waltzing. The music plays lightly so lightly I didn’t notice him turn it on, the rain hits the large window as he gently hooks my hand and his other hand rests on my back, I rest my head on his chest not caring about the tears that stain his white shirt, I could see his tattoos through the fabric. I focus back on the music, the singer was in love deeply in love, he good to the moon just to dance with the girl he loves, he sings about her cherry lips and long black hair. She was the apple to his eye, his princess. But I’m quakity’s Queen. I keep crying but finally look up at him, he’s been my light in the darkness for years. When the darkness consumed me and told me to give up. He showed up, his beanie was the first thing I saw before he tripped. I laughed then my heart melted when he smiled. The feeling of love felt so foreign to me that I panicked and ran from him. He was perfect, the scar that ran down his face and through his now white eye was beautiful to me, I held no physical scars to show my pain. The first night I accepted him, he went above and beyond. I found my king. I’m pulled from my thoughts when he gently places kisses on my knuckles then moves closer kissing my soaked cheeks “ why must you cry my love” I place my hand on his shoulders as we still waltz in the large main room of the casino. “ I cry to help the pain darling “ he moves his hand up over my cheek, his rings are cold extremely cold on my hot tear stained skin. His eyes were filled with love,the way his brows scrunched in and he showed a bit of sadness. He would give me the world of I asked him too. Is weird to see the same man that burned a nation and killed so many it was weird to see him so gentle. He smiles sweetly as if he got a dangerous idea, my heart fluttered knowing he always found a way to heal a little bit of my heart without trying. He leads me to our shared room, he sits me on the bed and gently moves my straps off my shoulders lifting the dress off.he kisses my collar bones and shoulders whispering sweet words that make me want to cry again, I can feel the love radiating off of him. He moves to my bra gently taking it off and then my underwear, kissing my thighs and knees. He undresses and pulls me on top of him. On rough days or hard nights, we lay naked in silence. I see why human touch is important with in minutes I can’t even remember why I was crying. His arms hold me tightly, I rest my cheek on his chest and trace his tattoos with my index finger. He gently placed kisses on my head and covers us.

(Super short but I’m sad so whatever)

Tears for the man I love

*mid afternoon I felt a sense of sadness for my love,he has been experiencing chest pain and pain In his arm. As I sit on the bed I look out the window and cry softly and I do not notice him standing there until he reaches out his hand, I welp out in fear and turn with tears in my eyes and the pain I see in his eyes breaks my heart my body just goes weak and I sob and grip his shirt and he slowly rubs my back and mumbles lightly * what is it my sweet girl? Why are you upset? I’m here shhh....* he hums lightly and kiss the top of my head. I sob and feel his arms wrap safely around me * talk to me * he says in a worried tone, I look up and breath heavy * you have been in pain and I’m scared * he realizes and tilts his head * you know I take medicine to help it baby don’t worry * I cry * b..b..but to see you laying there in pain just crushes me, I want to help you * he kiss me lightly * as long as you hold my hand it will help me through it all please understand that, don’t cry please * he moves his thumb to wipe my tears and kiss my forehead * I love you please just stay with me *i look up and rest my hand on his leg * I love you too, I’m not going anywhere I want you and only you please *he looks down and gives me the most caring smile ever my heart melts and all my worry is washed away in secs and I whisper * I love you techno” he lean forward and kisses me deeply, rubbing my back and holds my leg up. I giggle and he wipes my face gently “ come on darling, you know what I always say” he gets close to my ear and whisper in his deep velvet voice “technoblade never dies” i laugh lightly and groan hiding my face in his chest “ this is seriously beloved” he chuckles leaning his head back, his long pink hair moves over his shoulders and out of his face as he laughs “ I’m being serious beloved, have faith in the blood god “ I look up at him in awe at the very man who is suffering not only mental but physical how could be still be so confident and loving and brave. I love him more then anything and not even illness could kill a man like him. He notices my stare and puts his hand behind my neck and rests his forehead on mine, his beautiful hair tickles my cheeks as his electric red eyes stare into my soul “ we’ve been through hell y/n, we’ve fought wars and built a nation along with burn a nation, I’m not giving up so why should you my love” I close my eyes feeling ashamed for doubt my love “ I worry beloved, i fear loosing you” he cups my cheek bringing me closer “ we live in peace beloved our moments will be together and whatever destiny decides. We will be together “ he brings my hand up showing our rings and he kisses my ring “ till death do us part beloved” I feel tears fill my eyes and I wrap my arms around his neck and cry lightly “ till death do us part my love” he gently rubs my back pulling me closer and kisses my head as the sun stars to fall. That night the stars shine a bit brighter. Techno took me outside the cabin we sit on the stairs and I lean on his shoulders as he points and tells me about the Constellations and old Greek gods. I look over seeing a sparkle in his eyes, in his soul. He was beyond a man and I feared nothing. Faith is all we needed. I smile getting closer to him “ I love you techno “ he laughs lightly “ I love you most beloved”.

Sapnap x son reader

Sapnap (teen father) x son reader

Sapnap was in class when he got the news of his son at first he thought it was a sick joke until, the girl brought you in. He was so angry, He knew zip about babies but the way you were being held and treated pissed him off, the mother’s parents didn’t want nothing to do with you and the way you looked broke him. he didn’t even think before taking you away from them. his parents were livid and he got kicked out but dreams family was extremely supportive and helpful to him. The first time he held you, he just was so amazed by you, you were so tiny but definitely him, your hair was like his and the little noises you made always made him and dream “awe” at you but it broke his heart seeing your conditions, he had to save tons of money and ask dreams parents to help get you to doctors appointments and medicines, you were extremely skinny and your color was sickly, he feared going to bed at night in fear of you not being alive the next day but after a month you got your color back and we’re chubby like all babies should be, he fell in love with you all over again but around that time He still went to school but dropped other activities hoping to be able to take care of you so he started working even tho dreams parents insisted he should just focus on school and he worked hard for you. At night he would have you in his arms, after a long day of work and just kiss your little cheek and rub your little belly as you smiled at him and cooed at your dad, rolling over which made him laugh as you pull at the strings on his hoodie, he smiles pulling them away “ aww come on bud, you can’t eat that” you pout as he gently lifts you up, moving to the door. He opens it moving to the kitchen to find you a bottle, he gently laid you on his chest as he moves grabbing a bottle, you giggled seeing dreams. Sapnap laughs at your giggle “ what did I do bud, why you laughing” you focus back on your dad and pull at his ear and lip “ come on buddy, I need those” he shakes the bottle as dream walks in, you smile big at the blond. Dream was like your second father, he loved you so much and cared for you like you were his own, him a sapnap have been friends for years so adding you to the equation wasn’t a big impacted, dream even started working. They wanted you to have a good life no matter what. He turns your body lifting the bottle to your lips “ come on” you grab ahold of the bottle as dream smiles “ he keeping you up “ sapnap lightly rocks you and hums “ a little but he slept the whole day your mom told me” sapnap glares at dream, dream holds up his hands “ he looked so relaxed this afternoon can you blame me” sapnap hums “ your such a sucker for him “ dream laughs “ coming from his dad, I beg to differ” you look between the two and grip sapnap shirt, getting his attention “ don’t listen to him y/n, he’s bluffing” dream laughs moving forward holding your little hand, moving his thumb over your little knuckles “ goodnight y/n” he smiles walking off. Sapnap cleans the bottle and leads you to the room, he gently grabs your orange blanket putting it to the side, he lays you down gently “ let’s take a bath bud, maybe you’ll sleep better with one” he goes to the bathroom filling the tub, his back ached and his feet hurt but he knew he was working towards something good for you and him. He comes back finding you sitting up holing you little blanket close, sapnap smiles lifting you up places blueberries on your cheek and tummy, you scream out and laugh causing him to loose it,moving you to the tub with him, you lay on his bear chest as he leans his head back, gently rubbing your back and hums “ I love you y/n” he brings you up more kissing your chubby cheek and kisses your tummy and laughs when your little legs wiggle. He gently pours the water over your back messaging body wash into your soft skin and you let out a little noise relaxing on his chest “ it that good y/n” he smiles to himself, he could believe it your only one and he just graduated high school, but out of everything you were the best gift life could of given him. He adored you and only you.

(I hope you like it)

George is found x baby reader (hair stream)

He puts his hair in a small ponytail getting out his face, he yawns stretching. He hears a low whine and smiles walking towards your room. He walks in seeing you awake in your crib whining. he picks you up gently and kisses your little cheek “ good morning darling” you look up at your father gripping your blue blanket and whine, he bounces you lightly in his arms and kisses your head “ I know love, I know” he goes down stairs and holds you close while getting your bottle, you grip his shirt and whimper “I’m sorry sweetheart “ he shakes the bottle and brings it to your lips rocking you lightly and smile rubbing his thumb on your back and sits down at the table, the sun runs through the kitchen window hitting half your face making you eyes light up, he smiles “ look at my pretty girl “ you look up at him and giggle lightly moving your little legs against his stomach. He laughs kissing your cheek. He gets back to the room laying you down picking out little outfits for you, today was his hair stream and everyone really really wanted to see you. He got ready and puts you in your little baby carrier, grabbing a coat and you baby bag. You look around and George laughs seeing you so in awe of everything, Wilbur comes with him to watch you. Wilbur steps out and smiles at you and you laugh reaching your hand out, he laughs holding your hand “ well good morning to you too, sweet girl” you loved Wilbur since you were born, he helped a lot. You grew up knowing him and only him so it made you excited to see him at times. Gets to the place and Wilbur holds you while you babble and hold your blanket, you smile as the other two men just gush over you. They hold your hand and rub your back as you look back and forth between them, George starts the camera and smile “ come on guys, let’s me see her” you giggle at your father as he rests you on his chest, the chat stars to fill with people talking about you “ y/n look “ he turns you pointing towards the camera you look at it and smile seeing your dad in the reflection. Everyone just melts, Wilbur takes you half way through and you play with his beanie and giggle at him while your dad talks. Half way through they lay your blanket down and you get your bottle completely passing out, Wilbur sits by you so nobody steps on you, George looks over and smiles, his heart melts seeing his little girl all relaxed. George finishes and leans down gently rubbing your cheek with his fingers “ y/n..y/n” you yawn and whimper looking up, you cry looking at him, since your birth he never cut his hair, it’s always been long so seeing it short upset you. You crawl into Wilbur chest crying. George looks shocked you’ve never ever denied him. It really broke his heart to see you cry and move away from him “ I’m sorry sweet girl” he goes to reach for you and you pout hiding in Wilbur’s chest. He rubs his neck and Wilbur turns you around “ it’s your daddy y/n, it’s okay “ Wilbur gets closer to your dad and you whine as your dad eyes water, you look up and whine as your dad holds you, he kisses your cheek softly holding your tummy and bottom “ I’m sorry darling, I didn’t mean to scare you please don’t be upset” you whimper and look up at him touching his face looking up at his hair and pout, George hums kissing your little nose “ shh shh I’m sorry” on the way home you still were whining which made George feel so bad, he tried to comfort you so many times when he gets home. He sighs still seeing you cry “ please my sweet girl, I’m sorry” his eyes water and he holds you tightly “ forgive me sweetheart” he cries lightly and you look up moving you hand over his face as if ur whipping his tears, he smiles and chuckles “ thank you darling” he kisses your cheek and hums taking you to bed, you lay on his chest and he gently rubs your back humming a little rhyme as you finally relax” Good night my sweet girl”

( I don’t do George very much but I hope you like it, you know who you are💙🤍💙)

Hope for the hopeless

Billy Hargrove x reader

“WILLIAM” you growled, you glared at him so hard your upper lip twitched as you came through the door slamming it behind you. He laid his weights down looking over his shoulder putting his cigarette out. Meeting your glare just to return it “ y/n” he turned fully then the fighting ensued. “ you really think I’m that dumb “ you stick ur finger in his face “ whatever she said was a lie, you really have no faith y/n” you didn’t know why but you pushed him back yelling at him. Growled as you both were in each other’s face yelling. “ ya know what billy, ya know what “ in his cocky tone he mocked you “ know what y/n , know what” he had his hand on his hip still fuming. You look him dead in the eye “ we are done, and I mean it. All we do is fight and all I ever hear is how you miss your whores. Thinking your comments are funny. Then on top of it you just let two of the schools biggest idiots run me Into the ground. You know they start all the rumors along with your little whores” you were fuming at this point finger in his face “ then I hear about how your talking to mrs.wheeler, ya think that’s funny. She’s in her thirties” he rolled his eyes, “ it was harmless” he glared, you glared back only seeing red. When you threw the phone book by the door At him, took the brut of it to his arms and you just kinda started to back up and smile in a way to seem annoying. “ ya know what have. A good life” you ripped the necklace off throwing it to his feet, before he could get a word out” you slammed the door. Billy looked towards the door in a frozen state trying to even process what had happened, it all hit him when the necklace laid on the ground, in his heart he felt the realization that it was over, there wasn’t gonna be a next time by the time he reached the door you were already gone. He gripped the necklace “ y/n “. For the next couple days, he held this hope like he always did, knowing you come back and kiss him and hold him. You come to the pool or pop up at his. Window, he would stay up an extra hour at night waiting for your little tap but it never came. He thought he was okay, he thought you just needed space and you be back in no time but no, a week turned into two then two to three. He sat on the post at the pool, a part of him waiting for you to come in but ya never did. He felt his heart start to really sink, he messed up and he needed you. He signed running his fingers through this hair, he sat on his bed staring into space, it all hit him hard. A tear fell down his cheek. After that night he didn’t care what he did or needed to say, he needed you. It was late like midnight when he broke and came to your window he looked in seeing your back to the window, he felt a smile forming on his lips seeing you in his tshirt. He tapped lightly causing you to jump, which honestly happened even when he called you to tell you. Your face shifted through many emotions, you over close opening it “ bill-“ he cut you, placing his hand behind you head and kissed you deeply, you didn’t understand why you always fell again and again but the way he moved his lips made your heart skip a beat, you gripped his shirt pulling him further in lips still connected as he wrapped his arms around your waist, you jumped wrapping your legs around him, you both Fell onto your bed, both desperate and frustrated, angry but ooo so stupid for one another. You pull away feeling tears fall from your face and you finally just let it all out. The pain of the fight and days apart broke you, when you would out of habit reach for the necklace, it broke you to find your neck empty. He rested his forehead on yours wiping your tears away, the shirt you wore slightly up. He kissed you cheek and neck “ I’m sorry billy” he ran his fingers through your hair and hummed “ no y/n” he looked you in the eyes and sighs “ I’m sorry, I’m supposed to be a good boyfriend and I haven’t been, this month has been hell” you hummed “ I forgive you billy, I missed you so much “ you felt the. Tears but he just smiled kissing you more, he removed his jacket and shoes.

He move his right arm to cup your thighs and then to go under your arm, lifting you up towards your pillows, he spooned you kissing the back of your neck holding you tightly. He was so close, he felt himself becoming whole again, the only women to really learn him was back in his arms. He intertwined his fingers with yours, you giggled lightly smelling his strong Cologne and hint of cigarettes, you turn cupping his cheek kissing him deeply closing your eyes, you put all your love into that kiss. As the street lights came on. The whole world continue to spend you slept better that night. “ I love you billy”, “ I love you more y/n”

Baby techno

(Warning: pregnancy, mention of child birth)

To say the pregnancy was planned would be a flat out lie to anybody who asked. You and techno happily married for three years and everyone knew you guys were on constant adventures and so happy together not very many asked about kids but here you are nine months along and techno piglet instincts are on lvl one-thousand. He has become extremely protective since the news and refuses to let anybody or anything near me the only person that can freely come in is Philz bc he genuinely is excited about his grandson and was planning to help with the labor and everything was planned out perfectly, the house was set up and you didn’t go very far from the house but one thing you didn’t prepare for is out of all the days techno finally lets you stay home alone bc Philz has to go deal with whatever he needs. You water breaks one hour after everyone is gone. You gasp gripping the counter and a slight panic fills you, you go to the door and scream as loud as you can “TECHNO HELP” you knew his hearing was unbeaten. That was all you could at before closing the door, a contraction goes through your body causing you to pause and lean down breathing lightly “ stay calm y/n, stay calm. He’s coming it’s okay” you finally make it up stairs after a few contractions stop you. You get to the bathroom knowing how everything going to go, you fill the tub and lean on the side of the tub breathing deeply “ come on techno come on”. In the distance Techno ears rise up as He hear a faint scream, his heart stops as He turn around heading back to the cabin. You slowly take ur pants and cry lightly as the pressure in your pelvis gets worse. You hear the door open and smile lightly hearing your name, techno comes in “ Y/N”. He rushes over and you lift your head up “ I guess they wanted to scare us a little “ he chuckles lightly lift you up into the tub gently, the warm water soothes your muscles but the contractions rip through you. He goes putting his stuff away and returns with everything. He hold your hand and gently rubs your lower back and stomach gently “ your doing so good my love” you groan lightly moving onto your knees, he checks every once and awhile “ am I there yet “ he rubs my back checking “ couple more cm darling” Philz shows up later and is extremely excited but extremely helpful. Techno takes you out the tub when time gets closer you rest your back on his chest and he holds your legs gently lifting you up more, they cover your waist down with a towel. Six hours pass and unknowingly to you techno brothers were waiting in the living room. You scream out when you feel the baby move “ their coming techno, their coming “ Philz moves as you grip technos arm as he kisses you head and rubs your thighs “ then push! love push! “ you lean your head back screaming out as a contractions follows and you push sucking in air and close your eyes tightly. Techno kisses ur neck and hums lightly “ there you go darling, your doing so good” you breath heavy leaning ur head back more screams at philza “ GET IT OUT”. You push and push and finally a loud cry is heard. Techno looks down and kisses my head softly “ you did omg you did it” tears run down his face and Philz wraps the little pink piglet in a white sheet moving them to rest on your chest, you cry light. Philz smile “ a boy” you smile up at techno and kiss the top of your sons head gently seeing his light pink hair and giggle lightly “ look at him techno” techno was just in awe of his son, he lay you back on the bed and lean down gently moving his fingers over his sons cheek, his son whimpers lightly and moves causing techno to pull his hand away. “ he’s okay beloved “ you let techno hold him and do to the fact he was half human your son was in the 6,7 piglets palm on his back he whimpered lightly and made a little piglet noises, techno looked up at you kissing you lightly “ thank you, thank you” you kiss him back weakly and lay ur head back smiling. Techno gets closer smelling his sons scent and smile looking at his feature, light pink skin and pink hair how he loved his son. His son moves his arms

yawning and rests his head more on technos thumb. You look over just seeing the most genuine smile on techno face the last time you saw this smile was on your wedding day or during special “stuff”(😉) but he was just so in love with his first son. “We need a name honey” techno looks up “Eric which means ruler, he going to be strong” your heart warmed hearing ur husband words. That night you feel asleep with Eric on your chest and your husband right next to you.

I’m getting tired of this life

He looks down in such a sad way as if the words hurt him but a little smirk remained at the corner of his lips and I felt my heart just ache to see his smile and his red eyes to become bright and beautiful. He moves his hand to my cheek in such a loving way I can’t help but let a soft sigh leave my body.he rubs his thumb over my cheek and a low chuckle erupts from his chest and his low voice says * you’re beautiful *i look up at him and kiss him lightly and run my fingers through his long pink hair and his beautiful red eyes stare back at me. I feel my heart jump and my chest warms up. I love this man and I want to keep him forever and ever.i move closer to him and kiss him more and he wraps his arms around me and lays me down with him. I lay over him and mumble “I love you” I kiss him again and cry lightly “please keep me please”he kisses me holding me closer kissing my neck lightly so lovingly I melt in his arms and under his soft lips and close my eyes and I just listen to his breath and the bed beneath us and just clear my mind. He moves his hands down my back and mumble in his deep smooth voice * my babygirl * the words flow through my ears to my brain and sinks in deep causing me to smile and melt. His words are like a rose they can be beautiful and alive and red but then the thorns prick my heart causing it to bleed but not to the point of death to the point of nearing death. Only for his red ruby eyes to put a bandaid over the little hole and to make me want him even more. I don't know if he knows the control he has over me. I'm a slave to his voice. He could so easily tell me to do whatever and I would do it willingly.i turn to him and beg in the sweetest of voices to hear my name come through his lips. He gives me a smile that could so easily shatter my mind. He leans up and looks me in the eyes and in a soft yet dark whisper “y/n” my heart just stops and I close my eyes and my brain takes his words and imprints them into my mind. I lay my head on his chest and hold his large hand and look at his nails and his skin studying it as if I'll never see it again and move it to my lips and kiss it so soft as if I'm kissing glass and might cut my lip and I hear a deep grunt and look up to meet his eyes. He gives me a smile that could charm anyone and he asks what I'm doing and I just look up like a lost child and say nothing fearing if I did he disappear right from under me. My eyes wonder his chest seeing every scar every cruel thing that this world has done to my beloved. I look to his face seeing more scars. I want to reach out and touch them and show him not everything is evil. I just go blank and feel myself fading. Only thing I feel is his hand on my back and my back is imprinting his touch in a panic to save everything.he moves me up and I follow so I'm at the edge of the bed between his legs and I look up at him and his hands move over a slight fear of death and longing comes over me. His hair moves with his form and over his shoulder near his eyes and I can see the red of his eyes cut through his beautiful pink hair as if they long to be as beautiful as his hair. I feel as if I'm kneeling before a Greek god. His light pink skin and his form is large and his bones are strong. He Could be a Greek god. His hands move over my head and my shoulders and neck. I hold my breath and look up as if I'm under his mercy and close my eyes when his thumb moves over my lips In a soft way and I relax “You're so cute” his voice makes me smile and I move and rest my cheek into his palm. I giggle lightly “only for u” i look up at his chest and see the scars and move my hand up slowly and trace the scars with my finger and hum lightly and he looks at my fingers then my face “you like them” I nod and smile “their beautiful beloved “ I see his eyes become softer as if my words brought him back to reality. I look up feelings my heart ache. My head spins as the voices scream. “He doesn’t deserve this” “ they don’t deserve him “ “ protect him “ “ love him” I feel myself becoming overwhelmed.

I hold his hands close resting my chest on his knees as I kneel before him. He feels me shake. leaning forward he kisses my head and hums. “ what are they telling you my love “ I look up with tears “ t...t..t...they want you to be protected and loved “ his thumb moves over my face gently. I look up and hum “ I love you “ he kisses me softly “I love you more “ he lingers on my lips as if letting go will cause me to fade from his hands. I grip his hands and he rest his forehead on my shoulder. “ I promise I’ll protect you “ i gently run my fingers through his hair and kiss his shoulder and hum a Tune an old tune only he would understand. I feel him relax. The voice start to cry for him. “ protect him “ “ kill for him “ “ he all we have SAVE HIM “ I shake and hold him closer.

How I wish I was dead

I move my hand over my face closing my eyes as the music moves through my mind. I fall into a Trance as my mind drifts away, tears thickly fall down my face as I lay on my back in the large room. Nothing but three huge glass windows watched me cry my heart out over a song, I feel nothing but deep grief. I’m unaware of my love, he sits off the the side watching me. He hated to see me cry but knew it helped whatever stress was built up or whatever my mind struggled with that day. I move my arms above my head and feel a warm hand with cold rings move into mine, I just look up as see a sad expression written on his face, he moves up running his fingers gently over my arms and kisses me lightly. He turns the music down. He moves over me and looks into my watery red eyes “ you know it was never your fault” I feel a sob bubble in my chest as he speaks “ you were so little, what they said wasn’t your fault, you are loved and cherished my love “ tears run out of his beautiful eyes onto my face “ you weren’t born to suffer my love” he wraps his arms around me hugging me tightly “ they messed you up and damaged you” tears run down his face as the pain in his eyes becomes unbearable, I look away. His words are choppy like speaking them hurt him more “ you are precious y/n, you are loved” he runs his fingers gently through my hair as he rest his forehead on my neck “ I wish I could go back and save you, none of it’s your fault. Being scared is okay, having emotions doesn’t make you weak” he places soft Kisses on my neck as his rubs my back gently “ you are just misunderstood my love, please don’t cry” his words make me heart fill with joy but sadness as well. I’m damaged and he still looked at me as if I was the purest thing to live on this planet. He kisses me deeply and wipes my tears “ I love you” I cry lightly “ I love you more”

(Short but enough to make me feel a little better)