Indoor Ocean, 4/3/24

This song is such a gem. It's from the movie Into The Wild, which Eddie Vedder wrote all the music for. If you love nature or the outdoors, this song is for you. It has such a beautiful message, and how the greatest love some people may have is just the world around us. Also, the idea of just disconnecting from society to fall in love with the thing many people forget about. And the instruments in this song are just so pretty and well done, it’s like they’re lyrics as well. enjoy 

fault

i am still, quiet

and yet I always still say 

it’s somehow my fault

I think a lot about how we as a culture have turned “forever” into the only acceptable definition of success.

Like… if you open a coffee shop and run it for a while and it makes you happy but then stuff gets too expensive and stressful and you want to do something else so you close it, it’s a “failed” business. If you write a book or two, then decide that you don’t actually want to keep doing that, you’re a “failed” writer. If you marry someone, and that marriage is good for a while, and then stops working and you get divorced, it’s a “failed” marriage.

The only acceptable “win condition” is “you keep doing that thing forever”. A friendship that lasts for a few years but then its time is done and you move on is considered less valuable or not a “real” friendship. A hobby that you do for a while and then are done with is a “phase” - or, alternatively, a “pity” that you don’t do that thing any more. A fandom is “dying” because people have had a lot of fun with it but are now moving on to other things.

I just think that something can be good, and also end, and that thing was still good. And it’s okay to be sad that it ended, too. But the idea that anything that ends is automatically less than this hypothetical eternal state of success… I don’t think that’s doing us any good at all.

4/11/22

i’m-

my nevermind

4/9/22

Rachel Tucker SLAYS again. Defying Gravity 1/21/16. Hold on to your wigs ladies and gentlemen.

Na Pali Coast | agpfoto

to be a goose

4/8/22 (3)

this is a silly one, but my friend and I while we were in Massachusetts passed a few berry bogs, and one in particular had two geese just happily living their lives, and it inspired this haiku that day

I found old sketch for this while I was searching for something else.

So I’ve finished it and now I also forget what I was searching for in the first place….