HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNJIN

NO WAY TEAM SWEET WON??? THATS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE HOW

I hate saying this but y'all i need a bit of help here (anyone who's lgbtq)

I'm gonna share my experiences a bit (not top much just a little) & worries so peacefully talk to me nicely.

I'm gonna do my labels journey separately so enjoy reading.

Again I'm not gonna show or say too much.

me trying out the lesbian label (I've tried this out for 2 weeks now?) + experiences

my journey in 2 weeks w the lesbian label !

signs of my attraction w the label 🏷 .

🦢 : when i would watch the film of lgbtq people on Netflix (a few months back) for the first ever time and I would always focus on the female characters.

And I would always think "do i like her romantically? Or in a nice way?"

🦢 : i would play this game (the new one) called splatoon 2 & 3 and I would always have a crush on the female characters. I remember when I was playing the solo mode and every time I would win, I would see her do a certain pose (I'm not trying to be sexual with the character when saying this, I'm just trying to express my feelings of her), she had her body out and I would always stare at it and feel flustered. Have a huge tightening in my chest and my heart heavy.

🦢 : i remember during the game, i would see the octo boy and think “wow he is so cute”. now when i was younger (like 2 - 3 years back), i would always think “i wish he was real. I would like be his friend” and developed feelings (NOT a sexual or a romantic one, a platonic one that's strong like as a friend). I used to have a crush on him but I dont anymore now. I'm just attracted as a friend. (Lesbians have crushes on unattainable men like fictional characters and all but mine isn't a fictional character but a game one)

🦢 : I started identifying with the lesbian label more when I had strong feelings for the female character. Every time I would go on solo mode story playing as her, I instantly stare at her body and think, “shes so cute i love her” but at the same/at the time (still now), i never had a crush on the male characters anymore nor not as much. Like I found both inkling & octos cute (male ones) but I wouldn't feel like dating them (as like any human would do with irl people)

🦢 : I would always make those sounds (like the exciting ones) when I would see her make a little face when she gets a win (her smile is so cute I cant) and I would be like “FUCK STOP BEING SO CUTE ITS KILLING ME” and instant blushing constantly.

🦢 : I remember when I would find the saiki k character cute but I didn't have anything with him. I was mainly focusing on kokomi and teruhashi.

🦢 : I think this one is the biggest lesbian sign from me is looking. at. girls. Just their body, their part (their upper) or just their ass. Like I would always walk past and when I see a pretty girl (this happened YESTERDAY when walking to a store) and I looked at her quickly since her lovely perfume walked past, and went, “huuhooo” (whistle sound ik but it was a silent one).

She noticed me smiling but God.

Her perfume.

Just why. Are you. So cute.

And a bonus: 🦢 I nearly kissed my female best friend when she liked the same things as me. I literally hugged her when crying and almost kissed her when she had to go (yesterday ofc different girl)

(Splatoon 2 & 3 is a good game so please check it out and the anime saiki k !)

so this is my journey identifying as it.

And I still do.

throwback to when i used to date alot of men and called a slut but at that same time, i fell in love w girls for the first time and ppl started calling me rude names lmfao

remembering when i had my first date and i dumped him cause he wasn’t interested and my female friend came and i fell for her too

then my “boyfriend” liked my female friend and i felt annoyed cause i fell in love w her but didn’t realise my queer “signs” from that memory. i really wanted to be w her and to date her but i felt fucking nervous.

remembering when i had a second date and i absolutely hated when men had a crush on me especially when he had a gf and went “oh youre (mean comment)”

i would force myself to have a crush on men and even if they LIKED me, i NEVER felt the same cause trauma experiences and reasons (mostly into girls that time)

the way i fell in love w (a) girl(s) bf and then i felt disgusting afterwards because i didn’t like men that much.. then I ended up catching STRONG feelings for her TOO BUT MORE than that BOY.

then caught feelings for all my female friends. ALL of them.

then my family wanna have audacity to say i’m lying and that i owe them alot of things w being gay and queer and coming out and that if i didn’t come out, they’d force me out there themselves.

my god my comphet was showingg. i’m suprised how i am gay my whole childhood but never realised. i’m so disgusting oh my my myyy😹 /neg

(tone tags pls)

Someone fr help me please

What are the signs someone is a lesbian

I need help please

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

today at school, i had some “friends” and one friend went “who’s ready for pride month?” and they were all cheering in the classroom and then this one friend who sat next to me (found out she makes fun of me sometimes) said so much horrible things about trans people and the lgbtq community (mostly the trans and non binary community including genderfluid)

they started saying they hate trans people bc we “take the piss” and they never understand why we go by he/they and she/they and that and they invalidated neopronouns too saying “wtf are neopronouns? some neopronouns users actually have pronouns like meow/meow, xe/xem, etc” like why would i wanna call you that like that’s so stupid (laughs)” and they started talking about this teacher who got sacked bc he misgendered a student who was trans and trial for 3 days and now they went “oH nO OfFENsE but what is genderfluid? what is that? bc why am i a man the next day, a female today, a trans next day, and demi fucking the next week like that’s so confusing and you can’t change genders like that so they need to stop that HAHAHAHHAA” and the “why do you guys use he/they pronouns? and she/they and whatever? like you can’t use more than one pronoun and gender equals pronouns like stop being stupid” LIKE I FELT SO INVALIDATED OMFG

“and i never understand the non binary mfs who use more than one pronouns or say their gender is this that like THERES ONLY 2 GENDERS. female and male. nothing else???”

and they just said so much more like oh my god (message me if you wanna hear the rest) and i just hate them for it. I BROUGHT MY PRIDE FLAG for celebration in my bag and thank god i never brought it our bc yall wouldve invalidated me.

i hate people. lgbtq ppl are extremely valid. yall cishets and straights NEED TO SHUT UP.

oh yes

itaewon tragedy was so messed up :(( i cried yesterday

this made my day because

i went to this restaurant and i saw this nice ass manager and he was really friendly and basically offered anything we needed and while my family was talking to him, they had a few of piercings including lip ring and loads of badges, and they use he/him pronouns!!!!!

AND THEY TOLD ME IN SIGN LANGUAGE THAT THEY WERE A NON BINARY (gender) ARO (aromantic | romantic orientation) LESBIAN (sexuality) AND USES HE/HIM PRONOUNS (thank god my family doesn’t understand what was happening) and i told them i was nonbinary/trans who uses he/they and explained my sexuality to them since i was questioning and used queer as an umbrella term and HIS SMILE OH MY FUCKING GOD

THEN THEY GOT REALLY FRIENDLY AND MY FAMILY DIDNT NOTICE ANYTHING

when we left, we took each others numbers, AND I USED HIS PRONOUNS AND HE WAS SOBBING LIKE HE WAS GETTING ALL EXCITED AND HAPPY NZULSMSKQ

and he was super friendly to Me and my family and my family was really nice to him (even though they’re extremely lgbtqphobic) but like,, we were just really happy together

I found my queer peer !!!! LETS GOOOOO

i dont care who makes fun of kpop fans or whatever. mfs who hate on us for liking music differently and i dont care who make fun of what i like and love watching but kpop is DIFFERENT and feels different to most people. some see it as a way of being themselves or a connection to different music and people and thats ok and i love seeing that. for me kpop makes me feel a huge range of emotions and feelings.

one of the things i love in the whole world is that as someone who listens to kpop on a regular and daily basis (everyday ALWAYS) for so many years, seeing people who r just like u is so freeing. u could make a reference and everyone will get what u said

another thing i love in the world is seeing CHINESE people in kpop. people like chenle and renjun from nct, people like jun and the8 from seventeen, and more. people like that make me feel safe.

it makes me feel extra connected to a certain aspect of my cultural identity. i grew up hiding the fact that i am asian (desi, arab & chinese) and that i was all kinds of asian, and seeing those idols make me feel so connected oh my god like ways to learn my language by watching them teach fans or them speaking it and making it easy for us by what words means and sentence structures, their culture, their food, their traditions, the way they look, the way they r passionate about where they r from, it makes me feel such a huge connection into being chinese and make me want to know more about my culture like you guys dont understand how FREEING that is for me after hiding that aspect of my identity for so many years OH MY GOD