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cw rant. cw parents, bullying & ableism (?)

since my birthday is a few days away now, i told my mom that i wanted an animal crossing birthday party and a cake and even if she didn’t order the cake, I’ll just have the cake toppers and stick it on my cake. either way is okay.

she goes ahead and asks me why i didn’t tell her sooner but what she doesn’t understand is that, we were ordering a limo to come to my house and go fun places and have the BEST time EVER, so that when I grow older in the future, I can remember all that and to live the best life. on top of that, we were buying a cake, party stuff, balloons, crowns, etc and stuff were OUT of stock and that I didn’t wanna ask and they didn’t see. I DID see a cake that had Tom nook a day ago but when I confirmed the order, it went out of stock FAST. that’s what I said and the MAIN reason why I couldn’t say.

she has the audacity to bring up my neurodivergency and goes “no wonder you’re not normal!” towards me knowing that i struggle with things. and then she goes “can’t you see thats for babies? you’re so old for that anyway..” and I told her, “but it’s my fixation game? getting a cake will just make it better because I’ll be really happy.” and she says, “you’re a fucking grown bitch. you’re not a kid anymore, youre a teen thats working, stop being childish. youre too fucking young for that. pick something else!!!” and then storming out the room.

i just feel really bad because when i was younger, when I played mario kart for the switch, isabelle was the first character that made me addicted to playing as her in the mario kart game and then, when I discovered SSB (smash bros for the 3ds and switch), I became obsessed with both male and female villager. so since they introduced me to animal crossing, that’s when I thought of getting a cake of them so that I can remind myself that nothing can stop me from loving the characters and the game.

SHE LITERALLY BROUGHT ME THE GAME. she KNOWS that I cannot HELP watching it ALL the time. she knows that i like Tom nook and wants his birthday balloon to carry to my work place with party bags but loads of people hate me for being different and neurodivergent. nobody really likes me. expect 2 people. so therefore I can’t do shit about it. I didn’t wanna be seen as the “weird autistic person who likes childish stuff”. but she makes me feel like that.

now I have to do my birthday without it for the last time, and then get it for my next birthday that’ll be next year in 12-13 months since it’s in February.

I just feel so bad and mad at myself for asking cause she brought up how autistic i am. and because she always gets angry for stuff I cannot control nor the amount of stuff I get told. nor my health issues and totally shutting down and lashing out on everyone when mad.

she gaslights me alot also. and is severely negative to me. so now I have to do my birthday without it and have a normal birthday in order to avoid being “weird” or seen as “not normal” and “stupid” and “socially acceptable.”

And she told me to stop watching those characters because they don’t “matter”. like alright i get that im retarded and a weirdo. no need to make me feel dread about it.

someone help me please 🙏 .

what are the ways to show your support to the community? because im fr struggling.

im extremely supportive to the community but my family makes fun of me for being lgbtq since i accidentally told them or they possibly knew 😨 .

i came out two yrs ago as pansexual, and they keep making fun of that sexuality, outing me to multiple strangers or family members so i feel like they don’t know how much that affects me.

as a queer living in a household where ppl are lgbtqphobic and using slurs, it's really really disturbing for me.

i am currently closeted and not telling anyone irl atm since that happened and they don’t know my true sexuality nor gender and they lost all respect for me cause of my lgbtq identity.

they constantly make homophobic, biphobic, etc comments about me and keep mislabeling me as “bisexual” when im pansexual is SO ANNOYING.

I hate it so fucking much.

i have a hard time becoming friends with boys due to comphet so i don’t know what to do or what to say cause im stuck.

i’m currently identifying as a lesbian and they don’t know that (even though calling me a lesbian as an “insult”), so what can i do without feeling drained, feeling like i cannot support our community or actually feel like you can't do anything, etc.

i really need help w my sexuality cause im so lost.

how do i support the community without my sexuality being brought up??

and how to actually feel comfortable with labels without feeling uneasy.

i really need the best support rn, im going through a lot.

my friends are making fun of me for being lgbtq and calling me slurs, and being extremely horrible.

goodbye 2022, hi 2023 🎉

sound_of_coups ig update 092424

He’s so fine that he’s making me want to be a better person 😩

I like the moon

I WENT TO THE BOYZ CONCERT YESTERDAY AND HOLY FUCK I SANG EVERYTHING FULLY SO LOUDLY STRAINING MY LUNGS TO THE POINT THEY NOTICED THE BACK AND KEVIN SAID 'I LOVE YOU TOO' AFTER ME SCREAMING WHEN IT WENT SILENT

LAST NIGHT WAS TERRIFIC...

ok y’all, i got told to rot in hell cause i was gay, had alot of homophobia today and outed the number of times and ppl being weird about it. just people pretending to be gay when they aren’t.

yeahh..

🫡

hi

trigger warning: sexual misconduct

i have started school since September and I have been badly sexually harassed and assaulted. I manged to tell my mom and my teachers about it and I got blamed and mocked gossiped talked about, lost my friends including blocked, and I have been feeling really trapped. uncomfortable and I have been hiding alot of what has been going on.

recently, it got worse and i have been hiding everything 3 months ago after i last spoke up was the end of september. i spoke up and just realised nobody really cares or listens and thinks im lying. my sister has been such a bitch recently, she hates me for no reason, and she uses my sexual harassment and assault as a way to mock and hurt me (e.g “you wouldve been the next (another sexual assault survivor name), its ur fault” etc etc

the things these boys did r horrendous and I cannot write it down cause its too much to put on here and I feel like crying if I get reminded as I write them on here.

someone mind helping me?? im really lost and my mental health been fucking up and I have been trying to restrict myself from drinking and isolating myself from everything everyone and I just feel like doing it and my suicidal thoughts got even worse and I just been thinking of doing it before the new year.

I am just so tired. anyone help??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNJIN