A Very Nice Dusty Pink Sunrise In The Fog :)

My face wants to stretch

Mmm crunchy ice cream

Why am I chewing on honey like it’s a fucking ritz cracker?????

There was spider

MY RIBS HURT FUCK ME

Just got some compression socks, hope they help with my circulation and bones haha :)))

How do I tell my mother that I don’t like cutting chicken because it feels a bit too much like my own thigh when I’m in the shower and I’m afraid to so much as put the knife against it because I don’t want to relapse

Silly goofy head cannon

my dream was freaky last night :///

Like ‘192 dumplings are to be sacrificed a year for eternal life for the entire lineage’???

This fuckass family missed the sacrifice deadline like once, and 500 people died that night because they were all over 200 years old.

So here’s the thing… 

Chuuya grew up on the streets, and he doesn’t remember anything from before he was maybe 8 yrs old. He doesn’t remember having parents and he didn’t go to school, so he probably doesn’t know what a lot of words mean. Words that could be ‘common’ knowledge because people usually have some sort of education. Honestly he probably doesn’t even know what the word ‘family’ means. 

Think about that, if Sheep told him he was a part of their family, he wouldn’t know what that means, and he probably wouldn’t know what the internet is either, so he wouldn’t be able to look it up like we would in this day and age. People would act like it’s common knowledge to know what these words meant, because it is, for everyone except for Chuuya. And he wouldn’t like that he doesn’t know what they meant, so he would hide that he doesn’t know what they mean. 

He could take things in so many different ways, maybe he thinks the word ‘family’ means a large group of people that don’t really know each other, that ‘love’ is just a word to express something that he doesn’t know the meaning of, that there are words that we all know because we were taught about it, but he wasn’t taught about it, he wasn’t taught what names were until someone asked what his was, that having a tattoo on your neck that stated your designated code isn’t normal, or that expressing emotions other than anger isn’t going to get him killed. 

Because he grew up on the streets, fighting to survive, fighting to have at least one more day alive, even if he doesn’t even know what alive means. 

lmao

This is a 2 am rant oml I’m so sorry you had to see me do this