The Sweater Duo Bonding Time!

𝐘𝐮𝐫𝐢 𝐁𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐫 sfw alphabet

(fem reader)

❝ i said i would never fall, unless it's you i fall into. ❞

a = affection (how affectionate are they? how do they show affection?)

· Yuri is clingy asf, he adores his girlfriend so much!!?

he loves to shower you with kisses and hugs, don't expect him to stop, because it WON'T happen!

b = best friend (what would they be like as a best friend? how would the friendship start?)

· Yuri as a friend... he for sure would talk about his sister a lot... there's not much to say about it, he can open up more if he wants to, though.

c = cuddles (do they like to cuddle? how would they cuddle?)

· he loves cuddles! yk what he likes to do the most? hugging you from behind and kissing your whole face.

d = domestic (do they want to settle down? how are they at cooking and cleaning?)

· hm... i'm sure that deep inside he wants to settle down, but right now he just has to think about the present - his job, protecting Yor and you.

despite Yor's cooking, he cooks rather well and he will make sure you're eating properly! he also tries to clean his apartment frequently.

e = ending (if they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

· he would most likely break up with you because of his job and for fear of something happening to you... he would try to stay calm and cold and just to say it and leave, but mentally he would be broken.

f = fiance(e) (how do they feel about commitment? how quick would they want to get married?)

· well..... HE'D LOVE TO MARRY YOU.

although he probably won't ask too quickly, he's very fine with this idea... on the other hand, he's insecure of himself. he really is. so it will be hard for him.

g = gentle (how gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

· Yuri is a weird person, if you haven't noticed. he can be both very sweet and gentle towards the people he loves and be also very rough at the edges – it depends.

h = hugs (do they like hugs? how often do they do it? what are their hugs like?)

· Yuri hugs you very often, he really enjoys having you in his arms, he likes to think that you're safe there.

i = i love you (how fast do they say the l-word?)

Yuri said it after a long while, it took him a while to trust you completely, but when he did, he said it instantly. (let's ignore that he was totally showing his love from the first day of dating, it's about the l-word.)

j = jealousy (how jealous do they get? what do they do when they’re jealous?)

· i think this was to be expected, Yuri is incredibly jealous and possesive! he is jealous of everyone... someone breathes too loudly in your presence? frown! someone talks to you? execution! someone dares to touch you? PUBLIC ENFORCEMENT, NO WAY!! it's one of Yuri's biggest red flags, but he doesn't think it's wrong, to him it's a very normal, natural reaction... his biggest fear is losing somebody he loves.

k = kisses (what are their kisses like? where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

· he loves to kiss you everywhere, from forehead to thighs!

Yuri likes both the short, gentle kisses that you always give him before he goes to work and the long, passionate kisses you have when you're alone.

he likes to be kissed everywhere, but his favorite ones are probably kisses on the cheek and lips.

l = little ones (how are they around children?)

· he's not the best with kids, of course, it's not that he hates them, but he's very impatient...

m = morning (how are mornings spent with them?)

· this guy likes to cuddle with you in the morning, although usually he's going to work very early, he loves to shower you with kisses and affection, so you won't miss him too much... of course you are still going to miss him, but he doesn't have to know about it.

n = night (how are nights spent with them?)

· well, it depends... usually you're the one sleeping, and he's just watching over you, not in a creepy way though, he likes to look at your face and appreciate your beauty.

o = open (when would they start revealing things about themselves? do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

· as you can expect, Yuri is a total liar.

he'll tell you his real job after months, and not months of just knowing each other, months of being good friends - he won't blame you, if you're going to be mad, because who wouldn't when someone close hides something that important?

+ it can happen quicker, if he'll drink alcohol, everyone knows that Yuri's alcohol tolerance is bad. OKAY, very bad. impossibly bad. so he's going to tell you right away and cry about it for the next hour.

p = patience (How easily angered are they?)

· oh, well... he has a bad temper, a very bad temper - which becomes even worse through his work in SSS, he's a very emotional and sudden person, however he doesn't want to be mad at you, not at all... he'll never do anything worse than saying some rough words and he would never hurt you, he would rather cut off his fingers than do that.

q = quizzes (how much would they remember about you? do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

· Yuri remembers everything about you, your favorite color? of course he knows it! favorite food? too easy! your first pet? he remembers its full name! - he knows everything, and more.

r = remember (what is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

· he absolutely loves everything about your relationship, cuddling, talking, sleeping and eating together... he just loves you. with you he could even do nothing and be grateful!

s = security (how protective are they? how would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

· he's not protective... he's overprotective.

he won't let anyone or anything hurt you, it would kill him. for him you're the sweetest, the loveliest person in the world (with Yor of course), so hurting you is like a death wish.

t = try (how much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

· he loves to spoil you and working in the Secret Police gives him more than enough money to do it! Yuri loves to buy you new clothes, jewelry... your wish is his command.

u = ugly (what would be some bad habits of theirs?)

· well... he's a busy person, sometimes, because of his work, he can't spend time with you - even though you understand that he does it for you and Yor, he feels bad because of that and tries his best to make it up to you.

v = vanity (how concerned are they with their looks?)

· Yuri knows that he's not a bad looking person, but he doesn't pay much attention to it, of course he takes care of himself, but he's not exaggerating with it.

w = whole (would they feel incomplete without you?)

· he adores you deeply and he can't imagine life without you... if you leave him, Yuri would be a wrack.

x = xtra (a random headcanon for them.)

· Anya calls you her auntie, Yuri pretends to not care about it, but in fact he thinks it's just... something else, that he can't help but feel good about.

y = yuck (what are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

· he wouldn't like it if you had any addictions, like smoking cigarettes or drinking alcohol... he would do anything to get you to quit your habit and would be by your side through everything.

z = zzz (what is a sleep habits of theirs?)

· before sleep, he loves to get a kiss on the cheek, sometimes he wakes up cuddled up to your chest, with you caressing his hair, he's quite embarrassed when it happens, but he does nothing to change it.

the end.

it was in my notes way too long, i'm not completely satisfied, but i did my best for the moment, i will probably fix it in the future.

i hope you enjoyed it still.

ps. this part about children is so short, because i'm planning to write more about it the other day ^^

So I've been thinking about them:

Specifically I was wondering what the moment was (if there even was a specific moment) that cinched it for Twilight developing feelings for Yor.

[Spoiler warning: this post references manga chapters not yet animated]

I think for Yor it's pretty quick. Like, this moment here:

Not that Yor fell in love with Twilight then (ymmv) or that she's fully aware of her feelings, but it's explicit that she felt connected to him here and attached in meaningful ways.

But for Twilight, it wasn't so clear. For a while I'd kind of decided that it just came over him slowly (and I think there is something to that) and that there wasn't any singular moment which stood out. But that didn't feel quite right. The more I thought about it, the more I thought there were two stand-out moments, only one of which Twilight actually (semi-)clocks.

The first, which I think passes him by entirely, is this:

In my view, this laugh is an entirely authentic response. I think he is, despite himself, delighted by this woman who 1. just unexpectedly saved him from being stabbed, and 2. did it by sending the guy flying across an entire alleyway.

This is accentuated in the anime, I think, by the jaunty, puckish music that makes up the first part of their marriage theme song. I am dying for the reappearance of this music in some fashion, btw, it's so fun and cheeky and I'm hoping foreshadows their vibe after various revelations and particularly when they start working together as Agent Twilight and Thorn Princess:

The second moment for Twilight, I think, is more subtle for all it's more impactful. Or at least, the degree of its importance passed me by on initial read/watch, and I think it's deliberately downplayed by Twilight himself. Because he does actually clock it but if he looks more closely at it, well... then he might have to do something about it. And maybe that something won't comport with what the mission needs, and then what?

It happens when Twilight first bugs Yor, and then poses with Franky as SSS agents to test whether she knows Yuri is with the SSS.

It's clear in the lead up that Twilight recognises he has some feelings about/for Yor, and he doesn't want to spy on her; he doesn't want to mistrust her at all. He has to convince himself to take seriously that she may be a potential threat.

And even then, the convincing only sort of mostly works, because he hesitates again:

Which is, by the way, bananas. At this point, they've been a fake family for maybe a handful of weeks? Twilight is an experienced, accomplished spy with a finely honed and necessary sense of paranoia. Of course he should be suspicious. Her brother is an SSS agent! Canonically, the SSS are both Twilight- and SSS self-described as Twilight's greatest existential. It shouldn't be a question whether or not to verify Yor's knowledge here. And yet.

We all know how the rest plays out. He decides that listening in isn't enough, he needs to confront her insofar as he's able. I wrote previously about Twilight's relationship with Anya and the pivotal moment for him in how his view of his relationship with Anya changes based on Anya's (and Endo's) choices. I think a similar thing happens in this scene with Yor.

See, it would have been enough for Yor to continue to deny, continue to not call on Yuri's help, to prove she didn't know, and to put Twilight's mind at ease.

Endo takes it further.

Y'all: THIS IS ABSOLUTELY WILD. It borders on levels of impulsive foolhardiness that Twilight should actually take as a negative for the person playing his wife for Operation Strix. Yor even alludes later to the problems this could cause!

The SSS are indiscriminate; if Yor was facing down actual SSS agents, first assaulting and then threatening them would 100000% land her in custody. Were it not for Yuri, it may even get her disappeared, based on how casually and frequently Yuri references having people executed. It would absolutely put the Forgers at risk, in general and in the implicitly sexist Ostanian society, because if Mrs Forger behaves this way, how does Mr Forger behave? And why can't he control his wife? The Secret Police are not known for their leniency, their modesty, their discerning, their temperateness, their mercy. They are known for the exact opposite of those things. And due to being a spy, Twilight probably knows they're actually much worse than even their public reputation.

And here's Yor saying: you can question me but if you threaten my brother or my husband, I will fucking end you. Bodily.

Of course, it's entirely in keeping with her character, and it's an entirely revealing moment of who she is. And I think this is the moment for Twilight. He's already been trusting her bit by bit, as he says above, intuitively. I'd suggest that maybe even more than that though, Yor taps into something Twilight deeply wants: backup. Someone and somewhere safe. Maybe we could describe a person fulfilling that role in an adult relationship as a partner...?

It's because he doubts his intuition (his wants, his feelings, things he shouldn't be countenancing) that we get to this point where he (overzealously) tests her.

She blows his test right out of the water.

The SSS are basically the group he fears most; this is reiterated throughout the story. He doesn't trust them specifically because of who he is and also just generally. He doesn't trust their judgment. He doesn't share their values or their priorities. He doesn't like them around. He doesn't like them looking. He doesn't like being anywhere near them. (Also, he's right.)

And here's Yor. Not only standing up to them on his behalf but actually going on active defence on his behalf.

(I pause here to note 'on his behalf' is a bit, mm, tricky, since it's actually technically on Loid's behalf and I have Thoughts and Feelings about Twilight & Identity. But for the sake of the impact of this moment on Twilight, we'll take it as writ that in this moment there's no appreciable difference between Twilight and Loid.)

I think from here on out, it's incredibly difficult for Twilight to ever doubt or distrust Yor. He perceives her as firmly in his corner, that if the chips are down — if his worst enemy and his worst fear come knocking — she'll be on his team, unflinchingly. He may not think there will be much she can do (heh.) or much she can offer given the power of the SSS and her civilian status (I reiterate: heh.), but it matters that he believes that she'll be by his side.

And you know what? He's right. She will be.

That isn't something he's had since he was a little boy. Even WISE doesn't seem to offer that to its agents, given Nightfall's thought here:

Twilight's had to rely on himself for decades and now here's this astonishing woman who will threaten the Secret Police for his sake. Of course he trusts Yor. Of course this moment widens the cracks in his barriers. And further: of course those cracks start to reach into those walls deep, deep inside that protect his heart. This is all before getting to other moments, like when he reflects on how Yor is creating a better world in ways he (thinks he) can never aspire to do himself. That she loves Anya openly, freely, with such dedication, to the point of sacrificing her own needs. That she just never gives up, she persists and persists and persists, always doing her best. That she reminds him it's okay to accept peace and to rest. That she wants and tries to take care of him... On and on and on.

Of course we get to this point:

I'm particularly taken with his body language a little later in the scene. He manages to get himself to sitting but he's still sprawled, open, even as he can't wrap his mind around what exactly is happening or why, and he's feeling vulnerable for all that. But at the same time, this is Yor. And she's safe.

In my view, if the Mole Arc hadn't happened immediately between this moment and the earlier where Yor declares herself unhappy, it would have been clearer how much stress he felt specifically due to Yor's apparent sudden unhappiness with their arrangement. The stress got subsumed (conveniently, ahem, Endo) into the stress and violence of the Mole Arc, but I think it rattled him pretty profoundly. It's also additionally why her warm greeting hit him as hard as it did: relief across multiple lines, such that he had to remind himself not to relax, despite Yor's apparent return to normal.

And there may be added layers to Twilight's reactions to Yor's bad moods due to his familial history, as pointed out by @unhappy-sometimes in this post; the inverse, of course, is that Yor's general good-naturedness would add layers to Twilight's sense of security with her. And the apparent loss of that, all the more devastating.

Rounding out the original moment though, I think this in many ways demonstrates the point:

Twilight throws away the bug. That is also wild. It isn't like that bug could only be used on Yor; it wasn't somehow modified to only respond to her person. It was a device that could be used and reused on different targets, on people who actually are worthy of being bugged, etc. But instead of pocketing it for later use, Twilight throws it away.

Actually: he not only throws it away, he crushes it first. Perhaps because he couldn't stand to have that particular device around, the device he used when he doubted Yor?

Seems kind of irrational, Twilight.

Seems kind of telling.

I mentioned my last Twilight meta about his relationship with Anya: in that, I suggest Twilight recognised entering into a compact with Anya, which subtly modifies, for him, the motivations around Strix. I think something like that happens here, too. If Yor is willing to go to such apparent extremes to protect him, he'll do his utmost to protect her.

I've had this meta in my drafts for a while, but I'm chuffed by this panel from the most recent chapter, as it kind of underscores all this by Yor's positioning of herself:

(Of course the point is there isn't a dichotomy: they'll protect each other, as indicated by Yor's if I had to choose: she won't have to choose.)

Back to Twilight, at this point, he can still justify all this as being within mission parameters. Of course he should protect Yor: she is an innocent civilian and if anything happens to her it would threaten Strix. But if/when this line is tested, if/when there comes a point where protecting Yor is actually the option that may put Strix at risk or put him somehow in opposition to WISE, then we'll see.

And more importantly, Twilight will see, too.

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it's so funny

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i want them to be friends

More spy x familyyyy drawings

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"I'm staying"

I made an identity reveal situation...

In this, Loid and Yor are already aware of who they are, and highly probable an angsty situation took part before all of this. We know in canon (and hope) that they do confront each other. Not fight because I don't actually see Loid laying a finger on her, but more of a heated discussion. Too much lies and secrets are in game, so...

But the thing is, they're already too deep in love. While the voice of reason says "we shouldn't be together, this shouldn't be happening" or as Yor says "I should kill you" the heart is stronger and they can't deny that no matter how much painful the truth is, there's also the truth that they can't deny what they feel for each other. So they give in to their desires and make love.

(Yes, everyone, scenes are based on that drama lol)

In the afterglow, they come to a decision: they have to stay together. Things need to be work out but they have found a reason to go ahead and fight for it

(I'm not counting the fact that here, they probably don't know Anya reads minds yet... which just imagine how far they would go to protect their baby)

So yes, they decide to give it a shot and fight for a greater good, together they can do more than separated and well, you will say "Lyly but it won't be that easy" Of course it won't be that easy. We are expecting something far more dramatic and painful, there will be angst. But this is something I envisioned while watching that scene. Loid and Yor love each other, they won't just throw it all away when they have found what they needed, maybe fake at first, but when you have a chance to make it real, why not do it?

In the end, all sxf fans wish for the same, for them to be together in the end.

See you later! -Lyly

Spy x Family Ch. 109: Is Donovan Desmond an Alien?

No, he's not.

Although Endo could go the "alien" route, given the story, I doubt that he will.

The human mind is fascinating. So, a better explanation for Melinda's declaration is that this is the way she's dealing with her fear. It's not normal to be scared of her husband; she knows that. So, what would be a good reason to be afraid of him? Of course, that it's not really him, that he's an alien!

Her mind is trying to protect her. Anxiety is a way to protect us, and a lot of the times the mind throws strange fears and phobias to distract us from the real problem. In this case, it's her marriage. She's clearly in an abusive relationship and she wants out, but probably she can't divorce that man because of many reasons.

My guess is that Donovan Desmond changed after the war and because of that, their marriage deteriorated to the point of becoming an abusive relationship.

Before, I used to think that the marriage between Donovan and Melinda was a marriage of convenience, but now I think there was affection between them. It's hard to accept that someone you love has become abusive, so Melinda, who is into the occult, probably found an explanation (or more like a justification) for it. It's easier for her to think that someone she loves is an alien than for her to accept her husband is violent towards her and their children.

A lot of her mental health problems would probably be solved by a divorce, so she wouldn't be under her husband's control. However, given her status and the times (divorce was not very socially acceptable back in the 60s), she probably thinks divorce is not an option. On top of everything, her children are in the middle of it.

It's a complicated situation.

About Twilight

A good therapist would never tell their patient what to do. Their job is to help the person see the things they cannot see, and to empower them to make the best decision for them.

Twilight is not a therapist but he is a smart man. I think that he'll be capable of seeing what's behind Melinda's alien theory. The question is: what will he do with that information?

The most convenient thing for Operation Strix would be a reconciliation with Donovan Desmond. That would be the fastest way for Twilight to finally reach Desmond. However, that would also put Melinda at risk. Twilight is a spy, but he's also a human being, and most importantly, someone who has gone through domestic abuse as a child. So, I would like to think that even if he feels tempted to push Melinda into a reconciliation, he won't.

But, we'll see...

damn.

i've been reading sm tom stuff...

thinkin bout tom, dark and domineering, kneeling before you. his eyes are sunless, and he looks angry. angry that he's here, kneeling, something he said he'd never do. angry because you look so, so impossibly beautiful above him that he'd sink lower if he could. and angry because he wants this. you. so bad. he wants you to mark him, make him yours. put him in his place. no one else has. no one else will. its a privilege for you, the goddess he worships, in the temple of his room. he starts like he's groveling, weight on his palms as he bows low to kiss your ankles. working his way up slow enough you shiver, his lips cold enough to chill. the contrast of you both, him frozen, you all too hot, is enough to send both of you dizzy. he finally comes to meet your thighs, and its then that you have to ask if this is some dream. because all the annoyance he pretended to feel has dissipated, dissolved into his usually obsidian eyes into shining, soft pools of an unspoken plea. let him have this? please? is it okay if he loses control? and when you say yes, agree to the conditions of the contract sure to take your soul, is when you see him again. tom riddle. dark, unrelenting ambition. he's on a mission. it'd be almost pious if he wasn't panting so loud.

i'm tearing for i need this man

I like him

if i see "Yuri is in love with Yor" again, my phone will learn to fly, it annoys me so much.

yes, this guy should go to therapy, but be fr.