23.04.2025 (wed)

22.04.2025

No studying today :(

Napped till 7pm after school cuz I had pretty bad back pain n cramps. Then did smn for an hour or 2 b4 I had to go pick up ma czn at the airport :P

15.03.2025

Didn't do much today— just attended my live class on which I have yet to make notes on. Will probably do stuff for school if I have any left b4 I head to bed . Just so tired lol :(

Anyways,

MWAAA

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I guess I really need to make a permanent comeback this time. Because the stone in the chest is growing heavier and heavier and I don’t think I would be able to tolerate it. I need to persist to survive.

May 2 & 3

friday

woke up at 11, got ready, went out for lunch and ended up roaming around a bit—reached home kinda late

saturday

spent the day at a water park and it was SO much fun. 10/10 would do again =D

04.05.2025 (sun)

Day (25/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

There was no offline school today because of NEET (I have only a year left AHHHHH), but we did have online classes.

They started at 9, and I woke up at 9:05—but thankfully class actually began at 9:10. The teachers were struggling with the online setup and it totally took me back to COVID times lol.

Anyway, class ended around 12:40-ish, after which I procrastinated, cleaned my room (which was an absolute pig’s pen for the past week or so), ironed my uniform, and did other random stuff. I still haven’t even broomed my room yet—planning to do that tomorrow.

It’s almost 7 pm rn and these are the things I've still yet to do will have to end up pulling an all nighter just when I was planning to get my sleep schedule fixed wtf.

They gave us so much work just because we had Sunday, which wasn’t even technically off. Watch me as I die?

Also I’m most stressed about the speaking test in English which they count towards our internal marks so AHHHH.

Bio - test on reproductive health

Bio - record

Bio - notes +diagrams

Chem - haloalkanes and arenes test

Chem - notes

Phy - test on current and electricity

Math - relations and functions test

Math - hw

Eng - Speech

10.05.2025

Day (30/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Bio record

Eng notes (it was 6 pages long of qna ugh)

Math hw

My hands are frkn DED I tell you. I can't write no more—

Omg we are done with the 30 DOP challenge with @moonlight-n-moondust @mistrisen @pxasee @kookiepixel @astra-wberry (I'm sorry if I left anyone out !)

I haven't been as consistent as I'd like to but I had a nice time :) tysm everyone !! Nice work <33

Hwaiting ✊🏻 ✊🏻

18.03.2025 (mon)

( MAGIC bc I frkn LOVE them 😭 )

Hellloo BEAUTIFUL hoomans ;)

Today was a whole lot of procrastination and barely any productivity :( Did about 3 hours, but around 2 of those were just my live class, and the rest went into writing notes and HW. Not exactly proud of today, but I’ll make up for it tomorrow by working even harder !!

Also, after iftar, I usually feel tired, but today? I was like sooo full and sooooo ded. Like, I couldn't even lie down. Idk why probably because I was stuffing my face with literally everything in sight

Got a chem test on Chemical Kinetics this Thursday, so I need to cover at least half of it tomorrow.

*sigh*

It’s already 1 AM, and I have no idea how I’m gonna function 😭.

Gnnn lovesss

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I am done letting others into my progress just for them to compare, judge, or make me doubt myself. I worked hard to get where I am, and I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. My success is mine. My journey is mine. I am no longer giving people the power to affect how I feel about my own efforts.

I don’t need to share what I’m reviewing, what I’m working on, or how I feel after an exam for toxic people who seek constant validation through grades and others' approval. I don’t need to join in on answer-checking just to feel validated or worried. I am choosing peace. I am choosing to trust myself. I don’t need to compare because I know that my effort will always pay off in its own way.

I am stepping back. I am focusing on myself. I know what works best for me, and if that means studying alone and keeping my progress to myself, then that’s exactly what I will do. I don’t owe anyone my notes, my strategies, or my explanations I share only with ppl who are supportive and respectful . If others are curious, they will have to find their own way, just like I do. I am no longer available for people who only want my knowledge but don’t truly support me or respect my boundaries.

I will not let small mistakes make me doubt everything I’ve done. I will not let others’ reactions make me feel like I am any less smart. I have proven to myself that I am capable, and I will keep proving it in my own way, at my own pace. I am enough. I am strong. I am moving forward for me.

@bloomzone

15.04.2025 (tue)

Day (6/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 4:20 hrs

💤 ≈ 6 hrs 💤

Did math hw which basically the whole miscellaneous exercise of determinants (almost died in teh process)

Lec 2 + half of lec 3 of electrostatics

Completed bio diagrams

The chem test went pretty well except Assertion reason kinda sucked cuz I always end up overthinking :( . Got 15/20 on my phy paper which was what I was expecting so I was relieved it wasn't yk lower than that but obviously I'm not happy about it 😭 Was actually planning on completing lec 3 but had to some last min shit to do :')

SO frkn tired so just gonna head to bed andd it's almost 12 which means only around 5 hours of sleep and I tried napping on the bus ride home but it was pretty blegh like I didn't sleep much so it doesn't even count— ughh . The first thought when I wake up is going to bed at night 😭. We have THE WORST timetables on Wednesdays (I'm still trynna heal from last week's). All in all me is high-key done for AHHHHHHH

BYEE (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

13.03.2025 (thu)

Update: Finally got through Chem Lecture 1 (it took me almost three hours—why am I like this?? T-T) and barely started Lecture 2 before I got so damn sleepy. Thought, "Let me just rest my head for a sec" and BOOM—I was out. Ended up napping for an hour before my mom woke me up for dinner.

Still half-asleep, so I’m just gonna crash for the night. I’m trying not to be too hard on myself, but I’m also not about to let myself off the hook completely, yk? Gotta find that middle ground.

I kept replaying the explanation for the numericals, and by the third time, I basically just byhearted it. Not exactly the plan, but oh well. Not giving up though—I'll figure it out eventually.

Thinking of starting daily recap posts—what I actually managed to do and to-do lists for the next few days or even a week. Maybe writing it all down will keep me a little more accountable.

And omg, my sleep schedule is beyond saving at this point. It’s pure chaos. Probably gonna sleep in tomorrow to repay some of this sleep debt because, honestly, I need to sort this out before it gets worse :)

BYENNN~~ (kinda like bye + then— a lil smn I made up lol)

MWAHH

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