And All My Days Are Trances, And All My Nightly Dreams Are Where Thy Grey Eye Glances, And Where Thy

Foolish One

So... I just listened to Taylor Swift's "Foolish One" for the first time today and wow. I felt that she just looked into my life and saw talking directly to me. Like wow...I felt so called out.

That was me a couple of years ago. I was so smitten with this guy like seriously it was bad. But he was a bit of a player and yeah I wasn't the exception. Literally, a couple of months after I finally told my friends about my crush, they all came to tell me bad news and comfort me. They told me he just got a girlfriend and my first thought was "Well it's only going to be a couple of weeks again"

Then I thought "Wow if I'm ever going to date him, I'm going to go through the same thing" Up til that minute in my head I really was going to be his exception. Foolish one right

Sad thing is I tried to stop liking him but every time I tried to distance myself, then he would give me attention. Flirt and get close then my hope ros, then next time I see him he had another girl on his arm. Every time, every time. Foolish one

It was like he liked having me like him but I never would be his exception. I was so foolish and it took me too long to walk away.

It's over now but just hearing that song brought back all those memories.

Why I Love Halloween

It’s the one day of the year where you can dress as anything

It’s the one day of the year where you can truly become someone else

it’s the one day of the year where you see other’s creativity and interests

It’s the one day of the year where it’s fun to be scared

And did I mention CANDY!!!!

Choice

They say that the person who cares the least has the power and that must be true. It sucks. The people I care about, I care so deeply for but it’s always more than they care about me. Sometimes I’m the only one reaching.

It may be really selfish but I wish there was someone who would choose me. Someone who cares as much about me as I do for them.

Support

Sometimes days are really hard and you feel really sad. When that happens just remember that there are people who love you more than you even know. You may not even realize they’re there but they are. Let them comfort you, let them hold you while you cry, let them support you.

It’s strange isn’t it. I love being alone but hate being lonely

Time flies

Where has all the time gone

All my friends are out getting engaged and I’m sitting at home with my dog

At least I’ll get to be a bridesmaid

Doubt

I think everyone underestimates just how bad doubt is. Doubt makes you wonder if your friends even care about you. Doubt makes you wonder if your family is annoyed with you. Doubt makes you think you’re not good enough.

It hurts and the source of all that pain is doubt.

Noticed

I write on tumblr as a way to speak without being noticed personally and it’s nice. I can state honest opinions and preferences. But today one of my favorite authors liked one of my posts and wow just wow! I was so excited and happy! I felt noticed but in a good way.

Family

Don’t get me wrong, I love my family with all my heart but sometimes I just need to get away from them. I feel bad but it’s hard being around anyone all the time. I just need time to recharge.

A Little Happiness

You know sometimes things can feel really bad. Sometimes there doesn’t feel that there’s anything to be happy about. It seems like there’s no one there. But don’t forget to have hope because you never know when someone will send a text and brighten up your day. Just a little piece of happiness