*after Dinner*

Geez, I have to stop falling in love with every morally grey, broody dark haired man with a dark past I read about.

Richard: hey guys do you want to...

Henry: We threw a bacchanal

Richard: whaaa...

Henry: Bunny saw us with blood on

Richard: wait what...

Henry: he blackmailed us for months and I had to shut his mouth by taking him on a trip to Italy.

Richard: why don't you go to the police?

Henry: police are not real, Richard.

Richard at the beginning: I want to study the classics, the arts and languages with Julian and his group of beautiful pupils.

Richard in the middle: I want to help these crazy people murder their best friend who is annoying.

Richard in the end: I...just want to sleep for ounce.

*At the dinner table*

Tamaki: Mommy, can you pass me the salt?

Kyoya: here you go, Daddy.

Haruhi, in her head: Am I the child in this situation?

Haruhi: Tamaki, I wasn't aware when I married you that we also married Kyoya

Tamaki, dramatically: don't tell me you didn't know Kyoya and I are a two in one package?

Kyoya: I thought I couldn't leave you alone with this idiot, so I strung along. There is no better motivator than self interest.

Haruhi: eh? Whatever.

If you are not a Darcy, a Tilney, a Wentworth or a Knightley, I am not interested.

*Dazai, Chuuya and Sigma on their way back to Japan*

Chuuya: what the fuck were you doing with that anemic son of bitch? Can't you stop flirting with ANYONE you see for five minutes?

Dazai, gasping: how could I ever cheat on you? I would never do that, I was only entertaining him for our plan to work~

Chuuya: AND WHY WERE YOU CONFESSING YOUR LOVE TO ME? THAT'S DISGUSTING. THAT'S SICK

Dazai: Chuuya....we are literally in a relationship

Chuuya: I never said I took you back since you left!

Dazai: then why do you get mad when I flirt with other people?

Chuuya: I feel bad for them. I pity them for dealing with you!!!

Dazai: you are breaking my heart right now Chuuya, have a little mercy~

Sigma, in a corner fiddling with his fingers: I wish I was still unconscious....

*Atsushi drinking for the first time with the ADA*

Dazai: Atsushi-kun now that you have drunk, say goodbye to your childhood, you are an adult now!!!

Atsushi, smiling obliviously: I never had a childhood.

Dazai:

ADA:

Dazai: me neither

Yosano: Have any of us had a normal childhood?

Ranpo: I had a dad when I was 14, does that count?

Kunikida: how many of you have gone to a proper school?

*no one answers*

Dazai: but most of us have killed people!

Kunikida: is that a good thing?

I'll wait for your theory babe! 😍

This is all I got from my shallow reading, I picked up on the message about choosing your friend groups correctly when Richard decides to not be a part of Judy's clique.

This is something a lot of people struggle in school and college, in choosing the right people to be friends with.

CLEARLY Richard has more going on than he lets on, he is an unreliable narrator after all (I ounce made a post about how I think he made everything up)

However this post was about choosing the wrong people as friends and not about Richard's character as a whole (I tried to write an analysis but it's been in the drafts for months now 😀)

I loveee it when people discuss this book because there's just so much to make theories and views on. I change my opinions every time I read it, in fact.

No matter how much you talk about it, it's never enough.

The Greek Class didn't destroy Richard, he brought that on himself.

He chose to be destroyed and I am sure a part of him wanted to be.

He's the type of person who wants to be different, to be admired, to be apart from normal people.

That's why he tried to get in the Greek class in the first place even when Julian rejected him ounce, he wanted to be with the elites, to be exclusive.

Richard does show remorse for his actions at times but that doesn't mean he didn't find it thrilling.

He wanted an adventure, to see a tragedy, to be part of something dramatic and exciting. He was bored in his little town, around distant parents and normal friends.

He has always felt like he was above other people and he does look down on others who don't understand or follow his ideals.

His idolization of the Greek class is the reason he got destroyed, he was blinded by the opportunity to be included and accepted by them that he didn't look back at the mistakes he made for them.

Richard's story is a cautionary tale about foregoing your sanity and ethics for a broken, one sided friendship. They used him again and again, he did everything for them. Never questioning what he was really doing.

In the end, he was never a part of their group.

He was just there.

Things I have said or done as an INTP:

~ "It's not like I hate talking, you are just so boring. I don't even remember what you said two seconds ago. That's how unremarkable you are. So, it's not a ME problem, it's a YOU problem"

~ "I forgot to eat breakfast and lunch"

~ "Do I really need to wish someone their birthday? Do y'all like getting old?"

~ "Whenever I feel awkward, I imagine brutal ways to kill people"

~ "What do you mean I can't order from the kids menu? I eat like five things in my life"

~ "Sometimes I put on earphones just to avoid people"

~ "The T.V remote was too far away so I stared at the wall for five hours"

~ "I don't have enough energy to correct you right now, call me later"

~ *person says* "Hey, how are you?"

*ME* "Nice to meet you my name is just fine....wait"

~ "I am willing to die proving a point"

~ "I am not gonna study. What's the worst thing that happens? I fail. It's not like I am dying. I won't mind that either"

~ "I gave up on life when I was 11. The best decision I ever made"

~ "I am not sorry for coming late. I feel sorry that I came"

~ "I will touch grass when I am in the coffin"

~ "Well actually, everything you said was opinions, not facts. I don't care about how you feel, if you don't care about what I think"

~ "I pity how dumb you are"

My mom thinks I am in a cult. No, The secret history, iwwv, and dead poet's society are not books/movie, it's a religion.