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rules* srry
THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID
(get it? The uhhh the .. the biggest friend is HARDER, get it?)
st4rv1ng might be hard but being the biggest friend is harder.
Ugh they need to leave you alone. 💕
pls share so my moots can find me AGAIN
“the difference between your body this week and next week is what you choose to do for the next 7 days”
life so shit i think about 4na when i see this part
how I'll feel after i stop switching €ds and actually recover
vent
i just relapsed in binging and its the night before eid pls i cant do this anymore. i keep overeating and I've been eating so much this ramadan. my mh has gotten sm worse. pls I've had enough of having an ed but each time i try to recover i just end up switching €ds and its exhausting. i want a break from this so bad it has been like this for 3 years now. i just eanted to be skinny i didn't want to be in misery. i wish i wasn't a fatass so bad. why do i keep eating. i hate food so much i wish we didn't have to eat to survive.
literally fighting the urge to relapse these days idfk what to do anymore. i feel so horrible i cant possibly live like this any longer
~Wieiad~
10•21•24
Breakfast:
• ?g cashews - ~175c
Total: ~175
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~My friend got trail mix this evening and we had been hanging out all day so I took some cashews to not raise suspicion but I really wish I wouldn’t have T . T Ik it wasn’t 200c so I’m not too upset about it ig but my fast is ruined now :C
I wasn’t planning on fasting tomorrow but I might now..tbd..
~(Late)Wieiad~
10•16•24
Breakfast:
• 2 rice cakes - 80c
• Pork cutlet - ~450c
Dinner:
• 22g pitted date - 67c
• 5g LS peanut butter - 16c
• 1.5g unsweetened coconut chips - 10c
• 3g dark chocolate chips - 16c
Total: 639c
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Went over 500c and I’m not happy about it but I’m gonna fast until Saturday so that’ll be fun at least
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~Fast~
42.5 hours in and I just got sick * . * I feel a lot better now so I’m not breaking my fast quite yet, but I’m doubting I’ll complete all 93h.. I set it as that many hrs because it’s the most ideal fast I’d like to do, but I haven’t done a fast longer than 3 days in wayyy too long, and sadly I’m struggling a bit physically.. not even 48hrs in T . T but at the VERY least I’ll make it to the 48h mark, anything less is pathetic and I’ll be even more of a disappointment.(I would never talk to anyone else like that btw, only to myself lol)
~Wieiad~
9•27•24
Breakfast:
111g Carrot slices - 46c
84g Celery slices - 12c
19g Small tomatoes - 6c
48g Red grapes - 33c
80g Plums - 37c
Lunch:
54g Peanut butter chocolate protein bar - 208c
Dinner:
43g Brownie batter puff protein bar - 151c
Total Cals - 493
Water Intake - 68floz
~Macros~
Carbs: 71g
Protein: 33g
Fat: 12g
Fiber: 11g
Sodium: 820mg
Calcium: 218mg
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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~Decent day, it could’ve been better. Tomorrow I’m gonna start taking some vitamins, but the bad thing is that all of them combined are 100 cals * . * I got gummies so maybe that’s why it’s so much. I just have a really hard time swallowing pills so I thought gummies would be better for me, but idk…the only thing I can do is wait and see how it goes but I’m a bit concerned lol
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pls tell me if you want more scary thinspo <3
guys, being overweight and then developing Ana is like the shittiest thing ever.
Cuz what do u mean I am knuckles deep into ed and i am just normal weight? that shit is heartbreaking fr
Just me having my fav meal: (coke zero in my fancy cup)