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Caregiver healing from having a toxic little with their new little (little talk has plain text in brackets after it)

You get to your little's place after a long day at work. After a bit of playing with them they tell you, "you seem tiwed" (you seem tired)

"sorry, my precious"

"no, itz ok. but r u gud?" (no, it's okay. But are you good?)

"I'm just a little stressed about my work, that's all"

"ooh, jobs are vewy hard. I awways getz eepy ater work" (oh, jobs are very hard. I always get sleepy after work)

"well, good thing you have me here to look after you"

"but whatz abou u???" (but what about you)

"I'm okay"

"nu, bubba needa west wight now" (no, bubba (caregiver) needs to rest right now), your little one takes your hand and leads you over to their bed before weakly pushing you onto it.

"come on munchkin, I'm here to take care of you, not to nap"

"bu-but I needz u ta be wested s-so we can both be appy n pway" (but I need you to be rested so we can both be happy and play)

"okay, if you insist"

"yayyy, okie, nuw stay hewe. I needa get u stuff" (yay, okay, now stay here. I need to get you stuff)

"be safe!!!" you shout out as they rush off to the kitchen.

You wait in bed thinking over what your little tot could be doing. You listen carefully to make sure there are no concerning noises and while there are a couple thunks they're all followed by a quick "I okey" (I'm okay). You start to feel more guilty about leaving your little alone especially when they're this small and running around the house to do whatever they want. You think about how you're last little would have come back crying about how you didn't follow them even though they told you not to.

As your fears start to creep, thinking of your little muffin coming back upset or hurt they appear in the doorway happy as ever

" 'ook wa I made fur u" (look what I made for you?)

They present you with their favourite plate with a messy peanut butter and jelly sandwich in one section, chips in another and a mix of blueberries and raspberries in the last.

"I didznt cut da sammich cause i knuw u dun wanme usin sharp stuff. Annnn! N i added fwuits cause you awways say dere 'mpowtant" "I didn't cut up the sandwich because I know you don't want me using sharp objects. And! I added fruits because you always say they are important)

"aww, you're such a good kid" you say was you rub their hair.

"canz I cuddle wid u?" (can I cuddle with you?)

"of course!"

You lay there, hugging them and snacking on the food they made for you for a while.

"Hey button, I'm really sorry I couldn't be that good of a caregiver today"

"wha??? you were da best today!" (What? You were the best today) they cuddle into your arm, "I don eed you tu awways be stwong for me. ur da best cause I wuv u not cause of da stuff u do" (I don't need you to always be strong for me. You're the best because I love you, not because of the stuff you do for me)