Chuuya Kinnie - Blog Posts

Anyway, since everyone in this cast is traumatised, no matter who you kin, you need help 😍

To be serious, just remember that you're loved and waited for somewhere in the world. And it may be me <33333

"You're my Dazai and I'm your Chuuya"

A simple sentence that you voice as if it's nothing. You smile as you say so, the light in your eyes making my heart skip a beat.

Just like Chuuya, you're too caring for your own good. You put everyone else first instead, leaving yourself last. You do your best to help everyone, no matter what they might have done to you previously. I don't understand such acts of kindness and yet that's what I find so beautiful about you. Just like Chuuya you might act confident, and yet you think so little of yourself. Letting me see those insecurities is a gift I don't deserve. You get angry easily, it's the only way you know to deal with your emotions, and yet instead of hurting others you take it all out on yourself, not to hurt your body, but just so you can let that anger go, trying no to do so to anyone who's not to blame. You are so beautiful even at moment you think you look anything but that, your smile and that look on your eyes makes me want to just stare at you for hours to no end, doing nothing but admiring.

And just like you said, I am your Dazai. Just like him, I can act severely selfishly. I say words harsher than they should have been and do things that, though I was sure were for the best, ended up hurting those around me. I do not appreciate all that I have until all things dear to me are lost. I will hurt myself, and be the most self-destructive version of me possible, but unlike you, I do so for the pain that comes with it. I find comfort in my misery to the point of dragging people down with me. No matter how I act or what I say, you know better than to believe that I've been getting better, and yet you still won't let go of me. You are still here, though I do not deserve you in the slightest. You carry on by my side and will always do until I hurt you. And after that, you will find a way to come close to me again. That's the kind of person you are. And I'm the kind of person so weak that'll let you come back, knowing I'm nothing but bad for you.

"We have the Soukoku dynamic"

You like Chuuya, relating to him somehow comforts you, knowing other people feel like you do, that you are, after all, human.

I hate Dazai. I want nothing to do with that man. His whole existence disgusts me, seeing someone so much like me disgusts me.

But when you look at me with that expression on your face, I cannot help but smile back at you, making a silly comment in return.