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Vent time because I am BEYOND pissed right now.
I'll call my older brother W and my oldest brother M.
For context, I have 2 older brothers, both are adults. One moved out recently, the other is in my room.
We moved about 6 or 7 years back, and about 6 or 7 years ago my parents were supposed to put the wall that used be be between me and my brothers room (my brothers were supposed to share a room).
Instead, my mom took my brothers room and put hers and my brother's stuff in my room. Me and my dad asked her to clean it out so my dad could put up the wall for years (we've had the stuff to build a wall for a while now), but she's put off doing it for years.
A few months to a year back W needed to move in because my cousin moved back in with my grandparents (mom's side), and my mother cleaned out my side of the room in a day or two and had him in there by the next Monday. I got the room for the week between when she cleaned it out and when he got put in there.
Obviously, I'm pretty damn upset about that, Ive been stuck in a room LITERALLY right next to my dad for about 5 or 6 years now, and before that i shared a room with my mom, and before moving i hadn't had a room since i was really little. It was MY room, and she took it and gave it to W.
But whatever, we live in a pretty run down trailer from the 80s, there's not a lot of space, I'm sure we'll figure out some way to get me in there. Thing is I don't want the room now.
M lived in the living room until recently, where he moved out to live in his dad's camper (me and my brothers have a different dad). I have my opinions about this choice, both of my brothers spent years trying to leave their dad's house because their dad is shitty, but he's and adult and it's his choice. He moved out a few days ago.
Since then I've been staying in the living room. it's not ideal, it's cold and there's no lights, but it's better then being shoved in a room with someone else all day. I'd still prefer a room but it's better then nothing.
W has a massive anger issue. He plays fortnite (because of course he does) and he rages a lot. He's broken a lot of computers, monitors, controllers, and everything else because of it, which has cost us a LOT of money we dont have. I've lost a LOT of controllers to him.
Just a little bit ago, he was raging at the game and slammed either his computer or monitor into the wall a few times, before saying something like "oh shit a busted a hole in the wall". I went back there to see what the fuck happened and my mother told me he "didn't really bust a hole in my wall".
I told my dad what I'd heard, and a few minutes later I heard her telling my dad W busted a hole in my wall. She fucking lied to me.
My dad was pissed, made a threat to kick my brother out, and then went to the dollar store. I confronted my mom about lying to me and she said she'd rather lie to me then tell me the truth because I'd "freak out of she told me" and that it "wasn't that bad".
I am BEYOND pissed right now. Stuck somewhere between cursing her and my brother out and telling my dad to kick my brother out, or completely ignoring them and being an asshole. It won't solve anything, but it's all I know what to do.
I want out of this house so badly, that will be the only good thing about being an adult.
Maybe I'm overreacting, idk, but I'm really pissed right now and I need to talk to someone and if I try to talk to my mom she'll just talk about how she "isn't good enough for anyone" and how she's "clearly a bad mom" (like she always does while mad) and I can not deal with that right now.
Don't shit on my mom. I love her a lot, but holy shit I fucking hate W and i want him to get the fuck out. I know he's my brother, but he's such an asshole even outside of this, he's completely unrecognizable to the kid I grew up with and would sneak out to play in the rain with, I hate that I hate him because he's still my family and i want to love him.
Alright rant over, ignore me lmao, just having some family problems and needed to get it out. :')