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Guys, I promise I have an art style 😔 I AM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT IF I WANT TO DRAW DIFFERENTLY THOUGH I AM SO SORRY AAARGGHHH ARRRGHH FOAMS AT THE MOUTH BECAUSE I CANT MAKE UP MY MIND

normalize talking to your plushies again because wdym i’m schizophrenic 😞😞

Yeah, sorry, having a mortal form and shit to do is too much bad sensory rn, can you just bury me in the snow instead?

the selling of the truck (potentially) just breaks something in me. just a little bit. because eddie does not invest in himself hardly ever. so to see this truck that... okay the way he got it, not great... but this thing he earned and got for himself that he is now giving up to fit in a box that isn't right for him. for chris, eddie would give up anything and everything. but first, it was the job he loved, then the city and home he loved. and now he is going to be without the job that gave him purpose again, PLUS he is getting rid of that truck. it's like eddie is making himself smaller and smaller, cutting out pieces that don't fit, so he can be this thing for chris. because if Chris was traumatized and running from him, but happy and thriving with his parents.... well, maybe the issue is eddie. but if eddie can be something else... can figure out how to be exactly what chris needs, who cares if he is a shell of himself if it means chris is happy, healthy, and taken care of. perhaps this is the penance he must pay. it's like the well... he cut his own line for a kid, and now he is under 40 ft of mud. he has two choices... wait and potentially let himself die or fight like hell to get back to his family. he's still alive down there. he's screaming, pounding against the mud. he won't give up without a fight. but for those few uncertain moments, he still wonders if he will make it out alive.

Tsubakino the man that you are 😔🫶

that awkward moment when you tell your first time to someone and realise none of what happened was okay

I love it when innocent characters are so innocent then they go through some traumatic crap and then they get a corruption arc so now they're the villain and every time you look back and see how innocent they were, you just get an intense pain in your stomach BECUASE THEY WERE SO GOSH DANG INNOCENT WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BABY I------

ok im taking a one week hiatus, I might be back on Friday/Saturday, it depends

In the meantime I’ll be cooking up headcanons and drawing Wild because he is my favorite silly traumatized gremlin child.

might go on hiatus already lmao

i wish I was kidding

when i realize that my life goes somewhere wrong and i have nothing to do with it i make stupid memes

I can't remember when there was a time where I could say that I was fine with out lying. Nothing seems to motivate me besides failure, and nothing will get me to state how I feel. Because I'd rather waste away like this rather than let you worry about if I'm alright.

I'm just not fine.

Hey, I notice that you have been inactive lately. Is everything okay?

Oh yeah, everything is okay. School has just been assigning more and more projects, specifically group projects back in the 3rd grading, and I feel like it's going to be the same this final grading.

So, I have been busy with school work, but if I have time, I usually do the request that you guys send me. But since it's going to be the start of the final grading, they are going to be easy for a little while before assigning more projects.

Specifically MAPEH since it's theater this grading... I am okay just tired from all the school works. And I honestly don't know why high school assigns more group project.

Like calm down with the group projects... seriously, but I am okay, I'm sorry if I worried any of you guys.

I love writing so much, everyone. So so much. This makes 2 good things I've written today, and I just want to cry with how much I feel like a Real Person who, somehow, mysteriously, is "meaningful" and "connected-to-people." (whatever those words even mean? I am sure they must mean something, but I couldn't tell you what) I only started feeling this way recently, I guess, and I've been craving it my whole life, and it's just really big. Really big feelings. Okay!

crying silently in the back of my lyft right now bc i failed my audition for the fall semester shows ik the driver confused

what it feels like lately

I wish I was a frog so that someone could cut out my liver like how crows do

It will forever be my Roman Empire that the Sons of Feanor went from widely beloved princes of Valinor to the most despised and wished to be forgotten figures in history. To go from growing up and living in royal luxury, to war torn conditions, starvation, grief, and violence.

Imagine Finwe learning what happened to his beloved grandchildren. He led his people to the blessed to keep them safe, to save them from Morgoth's darkness only for them all to fall.

i love the ending of Arcane!!

locked the fuck back in

forgot to say about 2 month ago that i got new working PC, and it can play most heavy apps, in debt again to due that, but at least life is good

Please, let me crawl inside your ribcage, because when she looked at me wearing that cruel little smile that no one else gets to see, I could see in her eyes, once again was 8 years old, with blood on my lips, looking up at her and feeling so very small that I knew there was nowhere I could run away.

Please keep me inside your ribcage, I'll be tiny, I'll be quiet, you won't even notice me, but I think maybe there I could smile, maybe there I could heal, maybe there I could feel safe.

How can I not get this?