Love And Hugs - Blog Posts

To the folks who is responding to my silly little poll about how y'all are progressing on projects during this holiday crunch with "I don't make gifts anymore because they are not appreciated", I am so very sorry y'all have had that experience.

I sometimes think we all have.

I no longer paint, because as a teen I spent months on a painting for my sperm donor in yet another attempt to bring out of him the father I always wanted. He promptly began criticizing everything that was wrong. Heartbroken, I took it back on the pretense I was going to "fix" it. Years later, after I finally ended my relationship with him; I burned it in a ritual as a final break from him.

I never painted a picture again. Rarely drew.

Having someone not appreciate your gift or are pointedly indifferent to it will shatter your soul.

To all y'all who have experienced this, I am so very sorry. I give to you my sincerest love and deepest hope that none of us experience that ever again.

Also, I am so proud of y'all for protecting yourselves! It is not worth the pain and anger to go through that shit again. I know some of y'all have that deep-rooted guilt because you have heard "but <insert excuse>" your whole fucking life until it just sits inside you giving your internal bully ammo to hit you with. (Especially true when it comes to family.) Let me assure y'all, it's bullshit and it eventually goes away.

To those who are planning to give handmade gifts, may each and every onr bring the kind of joy that sets your soul alight.

I would like to make a suggestion for a FFXVI DLC.

Give me a hug button for my team!! I WANT TO HUG JILL AND LET HER KNOW I AM THERE TO SUPPORT HER!! I WANT TO HUG MY BROTHER AND TELL HIM I AM PROUD OF HIM!!! I want to be able to let these characters know that they are loved!! Give them different reactions to getting a hug.

Cid can laugh it off and make a snide remark.

Gav can say that we are too close and try to push us away because he is embarrassed.

Jill can just be in the moment and give a small thank you.

Joshua can return the favor and say he is proud of Clive too.

Let me hug Jote too and thank her for all she has done!

JUST LET ME HUG MY COMPANIONS!!!!!

Here's a hug for all my cuties out there! 💕 If you need a little spark and shimmer ✨ in your life as the seasons turn dark and cold 🌑❄️ you can always reach me on my main platforms 🔞 where I post a bunch more and am online every single day 💋

Links are in my pinned post 📍

Hoy me sentía con ganas de dibujar abrazos. Quería que Spock y McCoy se dieran algo de cariño. De cinco dibujos que he hecho hoy, solo tres son de abrazos. Tenía pensado que fueran todos, pero se me desvío la mente 😏😆

Today I felt like drawing hugs. I wanted Spock and McCoy to give each other some love. Out of five drawings I've done today, only three are hugs. I had planned to be all of them hugs, but my mind got sidetracked 😏😆

Las últimas dos imágenes son NSFW. Pongo un "Seguir leyendo" para que nadie se sorprenda demasiado (lo estoy poniendo peor de lo que en realidad es. No hay nada explícito).

The last two images are NSFW. I put a "Continue reading" so that no one is too surprised (I'm making it worse than it really is. There is nothing explicit).

No tenía pensado que las imágenes siguieran un orden en los acontecimientos, pero lo parece, y eso me gusta

I didn't plan for the images to follow an order of events, but they seem to, and I like that

(En realidad no sé qué hay que hacer cuando se publica algo de este tipo de contenido -NSFW- en Tumblr o si es legal. Si alguien sabe, que me lo diga)

(I don't really know what to do when posting any of this kind of content -NSFW- on Tumblr or whether it's legal. If anyone knows, you can tell me, please)

Por cristinardvaya