Mtftm Jackoff Fuel - Blog Posts

I have now filled my pillbox for the week aaaand… no hrt!

I have a bunch of left over progesterone from when I used to take progesterone and I’m curious if that would turn me back into a girl mentally.

Maybe that sounds crazy but I remember it making me feel a lot more feminine back when I took it.

I took half my morning dose of hrt this morning, I guess with the intention of getting myself back on it? I haven’t taken my hrt for months. After taking it I quickly thought “How silly of me to think I could seriously commit to going back to being a girl.”

Fact is I can’t commit to either right now. I shaved my head 7 months ago and at this point my hair is kinda long… for a guy.

If I could commit to being a guy I’d go get a haircut and throw out my hrt, if I could commit to being a girl I’d take better care of myself and take my hrt everyday.

I’m doing neither. Genuinely could use someone throwing out my hrt and just shaving my head whether I like it or not.

not really my place to judge, but i find it interesting that you frame detransition as "getting worse," inherently degrading and something you'd need to be forced into. it makes this kink seem like an elaborate form of self-harm.

not that i can judge, i browse these kinds of blogs because they make me feel miserable by proxy!

Yep.

lol yep.

You hit the nail on the head.

What can I say, self harm is really hot :P

Cutting my arms doesn’t do it for me, it has to be deeply psychological.

goth girl tiddies 🤤

love freckles + braces 😍

that gif you reblogged… I need to be the girl worshiping your bulge

Then don't be shy, come in my dms and become my girl <3

this means fakeboys!!!

how femininely did you use to dress, like what did your wardrobe/style look like?

At risk of identifying myself I wore a lot of striped tops and had short cut bangs with my hair often dyed orange, I usually had an egirl makeup style with winged eyeliner and lots of blush. I was cute. Sometimes I jack off to old pictures of myself.

Looks like I'm a straight man then.

if you watch this all the way through you are a straight man

you are a man

well duh

First of all I LOVE dms please dm me!!! Asks are cool too!!!

Also I’m poly and actively looking for new online/long distance partners!! (especially former ftm girls with a breeding kink but anyone is welcome) Come in dms and see if we click!!! 😳

Bio:

Hi I’m Echo, my real name is Elliot, I’m 24 years old, I use he/they but umm i’m more comfortable with he/him 😣

I’m a femboy and a boymoder, and a total twink (but a straight one I swear!!!) and I really identify specifically with striving for femininity and having it denied to me, forcing me to retreat back in my baggy hoodies :3

I’m intersex but I have a massive dick so what am I really?

Oh I used to be a pretty trans girl. That feels like ages ago though… I could never really be a girl now, that’s just not really my place.

I’m a total porn addict and kind of a creep lol I’m so obsessed with hot girls. Kind of curious about guys too but I’d need someone to guide me into that.

Kinks: Hypnosis, Transformation, Identity Changes, Orientation Play, Breeding, Detrans <3, Being forced into certain roles, Blackmail, Toxic Relationships

Limits: Illegal Stuff Obvs, besides that just don’t kill me i guess? oh but snuff is actually kinda hot… well that would be illegal though wouldn’t it? Um, yeah totally don’t kill me :3

This is the part where I’m supposed to say this is all kink and play and i’m not a boymoder i’m just a trans girl with short hair having an identity crisis but like, is it though? Maybe I just want to be this now. Don’t judge me.

Force me to get another haircut please :3

9/10 Body

3/10 Face

That just makes it hotter because she’s probably insecure

Post-beach cardio

would you recommend detransitioning to other trans "girls"?

hmmm it depends. I think it would probably be good for a lot of them. I have three answers to this.

trans rights answer: chances are this kink is a complicated psychological response to insecurities you have about your gender and you should try to pick them apart and figure out what you really wanna do if you pull back the curtains of trauma and insecurity and such. There’s a chance maybe you should actually detransition! Gender is something that can change over time and maybe you used to be a trans girl and that is no longer the case. People evolve and it’s okay to decide being a girl is no longer for you.

internalized transphobia answer: You will never be a cis girl, and is being a “trans” girl even worth it? Either you don’t pass and like, okay ew, what are you doing thinking you can be a real girl?? Just be a guy. OR you pass and are pretty and stealth which like okay cutie you get to cosplay as a cis girl but how long is that really gonna last?

bioessentialist answer: i know you’ve got the idea in your head that that it doesn’t matter that you’re biologically male and that you can identify however you want but like c’mon dude 💀 it’s a little cliche to just say XY = Male but let’s be real, your genetics having programming in them that build your body to a specific design and every action you take to realize your mental gender is working against the very nature of your physical destiny. It’s exhausting isn’t it? Just give into your DNA! It’d look good on you.

Been hearing from a lot of people that they find my genuine public exploration of my gender identity really hot because I’m clearly also still jacking off to it and because clearly this is a very real thing for me. Honestly it’s a lot of internalized transphobia. I want to be a cis girl not a trans girl, and if I can’t I might as well just be a cis guy.

I think maybe I should shave my head again. Trap myself in this for longer.

reblog if you're an mtf boy who wants people to come into your DMs / inbox and tell you how masculine and manly you are

For any ftm chicks that wanna see my mtf man penis: my dms are open. 😘

Honestly tempted to shave and put on a pretty outfit and lots of makeup so I can jack off to myself in the mirror

especially if it's cringe loser fandom stuff for pathetic gooners. If you can't tell from the pic I also like censored porn (and I like egirls)

I've cum to this like 5 times now.

Real men deserve worship

The Fan Experience

Fakegirl Detrans Kink Transformation Story

Warnings: Sexual Content, MTFTM Detrans, Transformation, Identity Death, Misoygyny

You’re realllly pretty, and you know it. Everyone else knows it too. It’s not easy to be adored my thousands of viewers every time you go live, but you manage. Your winged eyeliner, all that blush, a little heart under your eye, you’re an egirl stereotype, but it looks great on you. You’re cute, you’re beautiful, you’re everyone’s girl.

You stare down the camera and catch a glance of yourself on stream. Totally on point, you’re nailing it today. Something deep inside you stirs… you’re *really* hot. To other people obviously. A little confidence never hurt anybody.

It feels good to feel this good about yourself. 7 years ago you were a boy, as silly as that sounds. That’s private information, only your closest friends explicitly know you’re trans, but of course it’s an open secret among your viewers. It’s hard to keep something like that toootally under wraps, ya know?

You just want to feel pretty, so you can stare at yourself, so other people can stare at you, and that’s what you’re doing.

Something is wrong.

You’re really only half aware of it. Here and there the you in your stream does something *slightly* different. She makes a different gesture, she uses slightly different verbiage, she’s not quite you.

She’s hot.

You’ve always been aware of it of course, how pretty you are. People tell you all the time. This is different. This is arousal. Attraction to a distinct person, to the you on the stream.

You hardly notice when your camera turns off.

You feel much more alone now, clearly in private, and extremely aroused, so you do the most logical thing. You whip it out and start jacking off. All your pretty makeup has been absorbed into your skin, making your face greasy and rough. Your hair starts falls out in clumps, leaving you with short, balding hair.

You don’t care, you’re focused on your favorite streamer.

Your body rapidly becomes completely unrecognizable, as you become an anonymous viewer instead of the main event. You’re misshapen and asymmetrical. Decidedly not pretty. Decidedly not a girl. Just an unremarkable man jacking off to a pretty girl.

You’re too horny to notice, in a deep haze of indifference, but god she’s so hot, and you’re so close, you just need her to say your name. You donate the most you can afford, $20, and she mentions you! It’s enough to feel every cell in your body explode in ecstasy as you coat her pixel perfect face in ropes of cum.

Something clicks.

She’s not even your favorite. There’s chicks on here way hotter than her.

She’s not really that bangable, and you know it.

send me whatever cringe and gross stuff you want and ill jerk to it, preferrably women, to really drive home that I'm a straight man

Yo im horny wtf

I have hit 50 notes on my detrans motivation notes game! This means 2 things:

1) I have to start using a male voice. This is actually going to be kind of hard for me. I have a very cis girl passing voice that I always default to. Unlearning using that is going to be harder than it might seem, but I will start trying.

2) Every 50 notes I need to adopt a new masculine interest/hobby. Here’s the thing about this, I already have somewhat male coded interests. I like comic books, sports, and history, among several more feminine interests. That being said when I was a cis girl and I told people I like baseball or whatever, no one raised an eye. Lots of girls like baseball. I need to find some interests that are so AMAB coded that almost no cis girl would touch them. Like if I started playing CS:GO or following UFC or something. Not sure I’d be into either of those particular but I want to hear lots of suggestions from everyone reading this! You honestly could even say something like “hitting on girls” or something lol

As I mentioned this will happen per 50 notes so I will probably be picking up plenty of new male interests. Again this more than just a kink for me, I’m using this as a push to actually become a man.

Normalize cute, cis-passing trans girls throwing it all away and becoming hairy, masculine, straight alpha males.

Normalize pretty trans icons that inspired a new generation of trans girls completely transforming into perverted, transphobic dude bros.

Normalize girls that started hrt early and never finished male puberty going off estrogen and letting their real adult body finally develop.

Yes this is from personal experience. Yes I used to be a slightly well known trans Internet personality. No, I'm certainly not anymore :)

and at this point it's much more than just a kink.