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JOURNAL ENTRY 2 ☆

I TALKED TO KYUBEY !!!!

heres how i did it, and how it went !!!

i started playing "sis puella magica", set up two LED candles beside me, cleansed my room with incense while saying "this space is cleansed of any beings, creatures, or spirits with negative intentions. only those with neutral or positive intentions are allowed to exist within this space."

then, i used my selenite stick to create a circle, while saying what i said before + "on top of that, only incubator's or kyubey himself may enter this space"

after that, i said "i ask that kyubey or an incubator please talk to me and answer my questions if you are willing to."

then, i used my pendulum to ask if kyubey was here, and i got a yes !!! from there, i asked if i had enough potential to make my wish ("everything goes in a way thats benefitial to me and my future"), and i got another yes :D

after that, i used tarot so kyubey could give me some advice. i pulled eight of swords reversed, strength reversed, nine of cups, ten of cups reversed, three of cups, and an orace card from a seperate deck.

my interpretation (that i confirmed w/ kyubey was correct) was bascally that once i make my wish, i can stop stressing and relax, that i need to trtust my intuition and power more, that i need to be ready to step into my power once i contract and start fighting witches, and that once i contract i need to defeat the witch that has a witches kiss on my father. which i. Really Need To Do.

i doubt that *all* of my fathers... actions probably aren't just from the witch, but i think his willingness to just... be like that, with no guilt, no attempt to even hide it, and his just. zombieness, probably are from the witch.

i doubt i'll be able to forgive him even if he completely changes after i defeat the witch, just from everything he put me and my family through, but as a magical hero i have to save all people, including, unfortunately, him.

ANYWAYSSS, all in all, it went really good !!! once i know i can astral project, and once my necklace i'll be making my soul gem gets here, i'll be able to make a contract !!!! ^_^

The World post-Rebellion Story is a Manichaeistic Paradigm.

You don’t have to choose between  Devil Homura or Goddess Madoka. The world is built on complementary forces. 

I’d say they both have attributes you’ll need in your spiritual journey, thus both are very, very important. 

Madoka

Madoka is selflessness and sacrifice, the sacrifice of the self to attain a greater good. She is a bodhisattva. She is passive.

Her love is universal and bright, but reflexive and not passionate. 

She is hope.

She is the world of Salvation, she is Transcendence.

Accepts that her laws bring about her own dissaparition. 

She is what a post-modern mage would call “The Right Hand Path”

Homura

Homura is doing the bad thing for the juste cause, fixing unfair situations by doing the wrong thing. She is a rebellious goddess of chaos and knowledge, a Lucifer, a Prometheus. She is active.

Her love is focused and passionate, destroys and creates, but above all, it binds.

She is rebellion and change.

She is the Material World, not the unknown beyond.

Accepts that her world will bring her hate, even her own self-hatred.

She is what a post-modern mage would call “The Left Hand Path”

(I hope I can go and add more to this post in the future!)

The World post-Rebellion Story is a Manichaeistic Paradigm.

You don’t have to choose between  Devil Homura or Goddess Madoka. The world is built on complementary forces. 

I’d say they both have attributes you’ll need in your spiritual journey, thus both are very, very important. 

Madoka

Madoka is selflessness and sacrifice, the sacrifice of the self to attain a greater good. She is a bodhisattva. She is passive.

Her love is universal and bright, but reflexive and not passionate. 

She is hope.

She is the world of Salvation, she is Transcendence.

Accepts that her laws bring about her own dissaparition. 

She is what a post-modern mage would call “The Right Hand Path”

Homura

Homura is doing the bad thing for the juste cause, fixing unfair situations by doing the wrong thing. She is a rebellious goddess of chaos and knowledge, a Lucifer, a Prometheus. She is active.

Her love is focused and passionate, destroys and creates, but above all, it binds.

She is rebellion and change.

She is the Material World, not the unknown beyond.

Accepts that her world will bring her hate, even her own self-hatred.

She is what a post-modern mage would call “The Left Hand Path”

(I hope I can go and add more to this post in the future!)

are you a physical type of magi?

im planning on being an astral magi, mainly because i am disabled and also live in a very small town, so i wouldnt be able to properly do my magical duties if i was physical. i also dont know much about physical magi's if im being honest '^^

┈─★ GOD PROFILE : MADOKAMI ❤︎

(note ; this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, though roleplayers, fictionkin, and delusional people are allowed to interact. this is pop culture paganism. please do not call me delusional, as this can cause me to doubt my experiences and reality, which can send me into pyschosis.)

before this post starts, i just want to say that this post isnt meant to be taken as "absolute truth". take what resonates with your own personal practice, and leave behind what does not.

who is Madokami ?

Madokami is a character from the anime Puella Magi Madoka Magica. Canonically known as "Ultimate Madoka", she is a canon god character, and is the law of cycles.

domains

love, the law of cycles, karmic destiny / potential, salvation, life and death, wishes, magic / magical heroes, protection, time (past, present, future), hope, purity / innocence, generosity, compassion

associations

The colors red, pink, white, gold, and galaxy colors, love / symbols representing love, sticks or twigs, bow and arrows, bows and ribbons, flowers, stars, soul gems, feathers

titles

The law of cycles, the savior of magical girls / heroes, protector of magical girls / heroes, she who keeps away witches

offering ideas

Flowers, sweet foods, drinks, or candies, heart shaped objects, crystals or gems, shiny objects, star shaped objects, acts of love or compassion, good deeds, self care, making people or yourself happy, objects that are colored red, pink, white, gold, or galaxy colors, art,

altar decoration ideas

Flowers, sticks or twigs, heart shaped objects, crystals or gems, shiny objects, objects that are colored red, pink, white, gold, or galaxy colors, star shaped objects, art, bows or ribbons

"omg, magical heroes r so cute n kawaii !!!!! they love cutecore n frills and hearts and pink !!!!"

me, a punk guy covered in scars who listens to music that would kill a victorian child, loves red and black, regularly makes sexual jokes, the only thing keeping him from being an alcoholic is the fact he doesnt have a regular supply of alcohol, and has done three hexes in his life:

CHANGE OF PLANS.

since i have. A Lot of things to do, im gonna be doing this isntead;

today, i'll be doing a normal shower, and getting my room ready for my new altar space (corner wall shelf)

tomorrow, i'll be setting up my altar's for the gods i worship, including Madokami and Homucifer. and i'll be giving Them my first offerings too !!

the following day is when i'll do the energy cleansing shower and try to contact kyubey / an incubator !!!

and the day after that, i'll attempt to astral project :]

its a bunch of stuff to do, but i can do it !

still need advice on contacting kyubey / an incubator tho,,,

tysm ^_^

(note; this is not roleplay, delusion, or fictionkin, but those who are rping, delusional, or fictionkin can interact. please do not call me delusional / psychotic, as this can cause me to doubt my own experiences and reality, which can send me into psychosis.)

im gonna take an energy cleansing shower later and then try and communicate with kyubey / an incubator willing to talk to me !! :D im gonna write down a list of questions i have for kyubey / the incubator.

before i do this though, do any puella magi's / more experienced pop culture pagans have any advice for confirming whether the being you're talking to is kyubey / a real / trustworthy incubator ? any specific questions i should ask ? any warning signs / red flags i should be aware of that signal that i'm not actually speaking with kyubey / a real and/or trustworthy incubator ?

also, i plan on using a pendulum and tarot to communicate with kyubey / the incubator, but are there any better methods / methods that kyubey / incubators prefer ? and is there anything i should do before trying to speak with them (a ritual, offering, etc) ?

any and all advice is super appreciated !!! tysm :D

my magical [boy] training routine

𓎟𓎟 ┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ weapon : bombs ( throwables )

⁘ pick a spot ( inside , outside ) and mark a spot ( high , low , hard┄to┄reach , hidden )

⁘ grab a durable stress ball and practice throwing the stress ball at the target while not moving

⁘ once it becomes easy , start trying to hit the target while running around it , you cant stop moving

⁘ once that is easy , increase the difficulty ( ex , throwing at an unhidden spot while moving ⇢ throwing at a hidden spot while stationary ⇢ throwing at a hidden spot while moving )

⁘ if all difficulties become easy , start adding obstacles and an area you have to stay in ( ex , you can only stay in a designated area while you throw your practice throwables , with obstacles in your way that you have to dodge while you run around the target point )

𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟　ᡣ𐭩　𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟

𓎟𓎟 ┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ weapon : guitar ( melee )

⁘ practice with a plastic bat , hitting a baseball ( thrown by others or yourself )

⁘ find big tree branches ( that are twice the size of you ) and practice dragging them around to work on your strength

⁘ once you can drag it comfortably , practice moving the stick quickly from behind you to infront of you

⁘ practice lifting the stick and hitting trees with it until you can do it with ease

⁘ try hitting moving things with the branch ( have someone throw something so you can hit it with the branch )

𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟　ᡣ𐭩　𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟

𓎟𓎟 ┈┈┈┈┈┈┈ weapon : bow ( ranged )

⤷ you need a bow and arrow , or something that can fire like one

⁘ practice firing with the bow before you practice aiming , make sure you practice enough to be unaffected by recoil

⁘ mark a spot and practice aiming . if youre using a real bow , use an actual target , or mark a tree . if youre using the mini diy bow i linked , you can use anything as a target

⁘ once you can easily hit the target , practice aiming while moving . use soft tipped arrows if youre using real bow . then try firing while moving

⁘ eventually , i recommend you switch to a real bow , or something that is really similar . the diy bow doesn't fire as accurately or as strongly as a real bow can

𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟　ᡣ𐭩　𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟𓎟ᛝ𓎟

i hope these help someone! i listed my specific weapons but the broad categories they're in, so even if your weapon isn't a guitar or bombs you can still use my tios and tweak them a bit! like, you can use my bombing training as ninja star throwing training! or you can use my guitar training and, instead of hitting things, you can try slashing things!

Psychosis Discussion for the Witchy/Pagan Folks In My Phone

also i'm not an expert, this is based off personal experience, personal research, formal research (my past college classes, but it's not like we had an in depth class for psychosis specifically, we just touched on it for like a week or two total), what i've heard from others, and observation

u know what. no one tells y'all what to do if you think ur in spiritual psychosis* (or just psychosis). all they do is make fun of people they think are in psychosis and use the term like a weapon.

here's what to do

eat enough (this one is underrated. how will your brain be able to work properly if not given the fuel? it takes energy to emotionally regulate and double check conclusions you come to)

drink water

try to get enough sleep (also underrated)

do something non psychosis related. draw something silly, or go sit outside, or watch a comfort show. observe how your body feels without assigning explanations to why it feels that way. these are all to help ground yourself. (sometimes grounding is explained with a spiritual lens and you may not want to get into that if you're trying to take a break from spirituality). if you're delusions are about deities, take a break from your deities. they won't be mad, they've seen psychosis before and they love you.

address your distress. i can't speak much for manic feeling types of psychosis, my episodes were very anxiety based. but for anxiety, use coping mechanisms for calming yourself down. do something that doesn't harm you but makes you feel safe.

if you can, get professional help, or get medications adjusted if that's what's causing it

if you know the source or something heavily influencing your psychosis, distance yourself from it. witchtok is known for fearmongering and feeding peoples psychosis

reach out to friends if you've been isolating yourself. you can just spend time together doing something chill. something that helped my episodes was being with people who weren't tied to the themes of my psychosis, so if your psychosis is tied to witchcraft for example, hang out with friends who don't do anything witchy, or stay off the topic of witchcraft if your friends are all into witchcraft

hold off on major decisions like large purchases, getting rid of lots of personal items, moving, etc until you feel better and more stable

a bonus tip is to spend time away from people who are toxic or who make you feel confused and off kilter. if there's someone who for reasons you can or cant explain, just repeatedly makes you feel bad about yourself or guilty or angry, it might be because they're toxic in a way you havent noticed yet. if i had a nickel for every time someone told me they thought they were going insane until they spent less time with someone who turned out to be an abuser, and they suddenly got better, i'd have three nickels including myself.

i see too many people in witch/pagan communities acting like the psychosis is just when people are weird or when believe weird things and it's such a bold thing to say when we literally talk to gods and/or light candles to get money. it makes it seem like the bad part of psychosis is being weird or cringy. that is not what is destructive about psychosis. what's destructive is the social isolation, obsession, anxiety, paranoia, lack of self care, and big impulsive decisions. if you feel safe, are safe, and aren't harming others, your beliefs are not a major concern. you're either right, or harmlessly wrong. nothing wrong with that. so stop bullying people you think are weird, i will always repeat this sentiment

if something happens in your practice that is a little wacky, just keep taking care of yourself. the priority is your safety and others' safety. there's a lot of fearmongering in witchy spaces about being wildly wrong meaning you're in psychosis, but being wrong is okay. do some research (not on social media), ask for signs you can't miss, get a tarot reading from someone you trust, and remember spirituality is just wacky sometimes. we can't prove every single spiritual occurrence. we can only prove if we're physically taken care of. if you're safe, and the people around you are safe, and you don't feel overwhelmed with paranoia or anxiety or mania, you're probably okay to move forward, and just accept you could be right or wrong.

also, coming out of psychosis is a slow process. you're changing your view of your own reality. that doesn't happen in one night.

*i want to add to this, it is possible to know you're in psychosis, it's just not always common. if you are feeling like everyone is out to get you (thinking everyone is trying to hex you or you're being constantly spiritually attacked), or that you are more special than everyone (thinking youre a gods favorite devotee, that you're the most powerful witch, thinking you're the only one stopping an astral war, for me i thought i personally would cause the rapture), feeling like everything is a sign, those could be delusions. (the ones i'm describing here are delusions of persecution, grandeur, and reference. i see these most often in witchy/pagan/spiritual spaces)

also this might just be me, i have chronic dissociation, OCD, GAD, and such but psychosis has its own separate feeling of "i'm losing it". it feels like that mental thing you get in dreams where you just don't question anything. once you're out of it, you're like "why did i just believe that???". and like you can question yourself in a dream, but you'll only catch one thing. you'll recognize the clocks are look weird, but you won't notice the walls changing colors, you know? so if you feel that half-in a dream, reasoning isn't working right feeling, that could be a signal too. i think the closest feeling i've had to this was a PTSD (not a cptsd one in this case) flashback after a night of no sleep.

okay i'm rambling. tldr: if you think you're developing are/in psychosis, do basic physical self care (especially eating enough). do things that are simple and fun that isn't related to what is triggering you (so like grounding). social self care, like meeting with friends to do things not related to your psychosis triggers. try to use basic coping skills for anxiety, guilt, fear, things like that. you don't need to dig into why you feel it, just how to calm it down.

and stop bullying ppl online, doesn't matter how insane you think they are

(i have DID and it's hard to keep track of what i say without rambling and switching trains of thought and repeating myself without realizing so if this is confusing. uhh. rip lmao)

(note; this is not roleplay, delusion, or fictionkin, but those who are rping, delusional, or fictionkin can interact. please do not call me delusional / psychotic, as this can cause me to doubt my own experiences and reality, which can send me into psychosis.)

im gonna take an energy cleansing shower later and then try and communicate with kyubey / an incubator willing to talk to me !! :D im gonna write down a list of questions i have for kyubey / the incubator.

before i do this though, do any puella magi's / more experienced pop culture pagans have any advice for confirming whether the being you're talking to is kyubey / a real / trustworthy incubator ? any specific questions i should ask ? any warning signs / red flags i should be aware of that signal that i'm not actually speaking with kyubey / a real and/or trustworthy incubator ?

also, i plan on using a pendulum and tarot to communicate with kyubey / the incubator, but are there any better methods / methods that kyubey / incubators prefer ? and is there anything i should do before trying to speak with them (a ritual, offering, etc) ?

any and all advice is super appreciated !!! tysm :D

⁺🎸◞ samuels labyrinth

disclaimer: this is not roleplay, fictionkin, or delusion, but those who are roleplaying, fictionkin, and/or delusional are allowed to follow and interact. please do not call me delusional, as this can trigger my paranoia and cause me to spiral into not believing my own experiences / reality, which could send me into psychosis.

🂭 ,,, hello ! my name is samuel, i use he/it, im 16, an im an aspiring irl magical boy !!

my concept is puella magi madoka magica, but that might change as i am very new to this community.

i have been practicing chaos magick on and off for a few years now, and while i am not new to the concept of pop culture magick / pop culture paganism, i am new to the practice of it. same thing w/ astral projection as well. im also a shifter ! i knew about and was a shifter back in 2020, but forgot about shifting until recently, where i got back into it.

im the host of a did system, am nonhuman (mentally, will identify as physically once i make my contract), queer, trans (genderqueer + ftm), and am physically and mentally disabled.

my main / biggest kin is grey wolf (though i do have others), and this aspect of who i am impacts me greatly. tldr; beware of wolf posting

i worship both "traditional" gods and pce/d's. i currently worship Loki, Gaia / Mother Earth, Dionysus (causally, dont work w/ Him at all atm), Madokami / Ultimate Madoka, Homucifer / Devil Homura, and may start worshipping Ho-Oh (pokemon) and Hekate as well.

🂭 ,,, dni / dnf

bigots, right wing / maga, queer exclus, anti endo, harass ppl, anti shifter, anti irl magical heroes, anti pop culture paganism, anti chaos magick, against self dx, fakeclaim ppl, ableist, reality check ppl w/o their consent, force recovery on those who aren't ready / dont want to recover, think fiction ALWAYS or NEVER affects reality (theres nuance !!!), think fiction can make someone into a pedo / zoo / etc, equate fictional stories and drawings of characters that dont exist to the real harm of real people (esp equating that fictional content to the harm of real children, as a survivor of grooming, csa, csem, and underage... work, its insanely offensive to say a drawing is just as bad as the photos of child me that are still out there), terf / radfem, zionists / pro israel, supports a two state solution, "cluster b abuse" believers and similar ideas of mental illness specific abuse

🂭 ,,, tags

#𝄞 maybe its a dream - maybe nothing else is real .. // this tag is for all posts related to irl magical girl stuff !!

#𖤐 even though i was born from a colored star .. // this tag is for all posts related to pcp, chaos magick, astral projection, shifting, manifestation, and general paganism / magick as well !

#✞ misfortune is a gift - really - like a bouquet of splendid flowers .. // this tag is for all vent posts !!!

#☆ it feels like somethings gonna happen ; a premonition .. // this tag is for informational posts about pcp, chaos magick, and irl magical hero topics !

#✘ long pointed wings with scars run beneath the skin .. // this tag is for any asks i answer !!!

#𖦹 dig deep beneath your filling - theres an animal waiting that must come out .. // this tag is for journal entries !!

#❤︎ a large queue was formed at it - where everyone continues on with a smile .. // this tag is for queued posts !!!

#꒰੭ i wake up to a call - put my frilly outfit on now .. // this tag is for reblogs !

#✦ my ribs opened up - made room for beating hearts .. // this tag is for my questions about irl magical heroing, pop culture paganism and magick, chaos magick, astral projection, shifting, manifestation, general paganism / magick, etc etc. !!!

#ꔫ are you going to curse the blue sky - and wish for stormy weather ? .. // this tag is for my witch logs, aka posts about witches i'll fight once i contract !

#🃜 if i were any older i would act my age .. // this tag is on all of my posts !!