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ANNOUNCEMENT

Ok first of all, I'm so so sorry for not replying to any of the asks or comments, for the last few weeks I've been down with food poisoning and low blood pressure and it's not helping that my college semester 2 is starting. I've been bed ridden just sleeping the whole time for the last week and am just getting better now. I feel so tired and unmotivated i could barely write this announcement even though I've been meaning to for a while. Again I'm so sorry for not active at all but my body just goes nah bitch on me so I cannot do anything about it for now. I might start responding to asks after a few days, so I want to thank anyone and everyone who have sent me those wonderful asks and I'm sad that I cannot answer them right now

Anyways that's it for now, I'll post updates later when I feel better

Take care everyone and remember to keep your body healthy cause you got only one

Okay - don't get me wrong: I am looking at Nikita & V as well.

But I also wanna make a wholesome(???) MC to pair with Caesar cuz clearly the man needs as much love as possible (MC may be an incarcerated amnesiac and she/he/they may be the bigger red-flag of the two but 'hopefully' Caesar's gonna wife/husband/spouse them up domestically).

I am so sorry if I am not making sense here!

So I have one question: How would each of the ROs feel and/or do if they wake up one day to not only be domestically live with MC, but also wake up to the sight of MC being a sweet housewife/husband/spouse in an apron and turning to them with a loving smile as they say "Morning, [petname]."

(You can take this as an AU or far, far, farrr in the future when they can live a domestic life.)

Again - I apologize if this ask is out of place ;u;

(ALSO - THERE'S MORE HORNY ANONS HERE THAN I THOUGHT, JEEBUS CRISP)

Oh a rare Caesar appreciater cameo! That's rare! To be honest with all the attention of E., V. and Nikita, he had ALMOST slipped out of mind, but thankfully you reminded me about our poor (and traumatized) single father here, good to know he has someone to love him too (p.s. I love the memes, they're hilarious 😂)

And oh boy, MC may have become a little tame now but back in their past they were one of the BIGGEST red flags to walk on the earth, but who knows after getting their memories back they might end up reverting back to their previous self (hopefully not) but I'm sure Caesar will domesticate them just fine (and hopefully not end up causing an even bigger disaster than they already are)

AND OMG THAT SCENARIO IS JUST TOO CUTE FOR MY HEART AND THIS IF TBH (tho it could be a possibility in the late, far far future) - and here's their responses! (Sorry for being late- college has been kicking my ass lately)

Twenty : They are a late sleeper, and a very heavy one at that so it take MC a while to wake them up with some gentle nudges, but when they do they'd probably throw a little tantrum like a petulant child be forced to wake up (they're joking of course) and possibly throw a pillow at MC for waking them up, telling them to get lost with a big grin on their face. Not a very big fan of physical affection, they’ll just answer with a lazy “Morning to you too.” and later help MC with the cleaning up and other chores. They're more used to showing their appreciation with acts of kindness rather than verbal or physical means. They'll go on shopping trips together, cook together and watch movies in each other's arms, in a future where neither of them is dead, in a future where things never went wrong.

Nikita : Being the lazy person he is, Nikita will just pretend to be asleep the whole time MC is trying to wake them up. Then when their back is turned he'd pull them in bed and give them a morning kiss on the cheek, with a rather cheeky smile of course. Not only would he refuse to get up from bed he'd also refuse to let the MC go so they'll probably just lie in bed in silence, enjoying the warmth of the bed and eachother company. In the past they wouldn't even have thought of sharing the same bed much less sleep in one as mortal enemies, but here they are, in an unexpected yet welcomed future. Nikita feels a warm feeling in his gut that he can't quite put a finger to, it's not uncomfortable but it's not familiar either. He has never felt this emotion. He's not sure what it feels like to feel one, but now as he lays in bed with MC he realizes what it really is. It's joy.

Victor/Vanessa : They’d just lie in bed in absolute shock at how adorable and cute MC is, they'll return their greetings with a cheerful “Good Morning to you too [pet name]!” Wanting to help the MC and not be left alone they'll quickly wash up and try to help them with the morning breakfast, despite their lack of expertise in cooking. It would probably lead to some hilarious (albeit cute) moments where batter splatters around them and they have to clean up the mess, with V. apologizing all the way. They'll also compliment the MC about their attire and secretly plan to buy more such cute aprons for them. And maybe a cookbook for themselves to prepare some treats for MC.

Emir/Evara : An early riser, E. and MC would get up together and while E. is busy taking a shower MC would be preparing breakfast. Imagine E’s surprise when they see MC in an apron, greeting them with a smile they hadn't seen in so long. They wouldn't even bother to dry up and straight up hug MC, ignoring all protests about being wet etc. After a while they'd let go and just say, “You look beautiful, love.” and with a quick kiss would walk past them to get their tea bags. A more expressive person they'll likely hug and hold hands with MC out of nowhere in the most unexpected times. They just like the feeling of being close with them, after losing them so long ago it feels like a forgotten nightmare.

Leo : Used to being served all the time by servants and attendants, Leo would be less than impressed and would instead quietly frown to themselves, thinking someone has forced MC to do the household chores when they shouldn't. She thinks that since her and MC are together there is no need for MC to do the hard work when they have everyone they need at their disposal. But upon MC’s persistence, she'll eventually relent (albeit hesitantly, and then fire the chef for not doing their shit properly) and then do it. She won't help the MC with anything, simply watching them cook from afar while going through the phone, occasionally slipping in some compliments along the way. Later she'll take them on a date for the entire day to make up for that.

Caesar : He'll be a little flustered, and touched too. Looking at MC he would see a brief, but similar image of his wife next to them which would make him very emotional. MC would not be expecting a grown man to tear up at their attire and probably be more flustered on their behalf. It takes them a while of coaxing and patting to get him to calm down, he does and Caesar feels embarrassed now. They talk about him and his wife for a while then, with Caesar sharing some sensitive details about her death. But their heavy talk is interrupted by his daughter, Chiara waking up. The rest of the morning goes well with them sharing breakfast, and Chiara complaining about having to drink milk. They make the picture of a perfect family to any outsider, one with no future to worried about because their present is more important.

Gael/Gwendolyn : An early bird, G. would be the first to be up, because they need to train and exercise early, just like they always do. Though they're used to being alone by themselves, so they would not be expecting MC, their once mortal enemy now lover, in a cute apron welcoming them with a smile that could blind thousands. Had they told their past self about it, they would've been spat at. But now here they are, sharing their breakfast on a single table, across one another in a comfortable silence. Honestly, they like it more than the loud hustle or bustle of the headquarters. There's nothing much to talk about, and they don't need to anyways. They always know what the other wants and needs, and that's all they need.

You needn't worry about the ask being out of place! Infact it's such a welcome scenario away from all the chaos XD I love them so please don't feel burdened or concerned when sending such asks! I love them!

(AND IKR-?! PEOPLE ARE SO HORNY BUT SO AM I SO WHO AM I JUDGE THEM HEHEHE-)

It would be funny if you add "road to hell" or something for suggestive asks lol

Ooo 😮 that's sounds like a good idea! Maybe not now, but perhaps in the future 😉

Apologies for the slow replies, college has been kicking my ass since day one and today I was KO'D instantly by our law and legal awareness paper 😭 WHAT DO YOU MEAN I NEED TO WRITE AN FIR FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE WHEN WE'VE BARELY SCRATCHED THE SURFACE ON IT AND WHY IS THERE AN OUT OF SYLLABUS 10 MARKS QUESTION HOVERING OVER ME- WHYS TIME MOVING SO QUICKLY I JUST COMPLETED AN ANSWER AND ITS ALREADY AN HOUR DONE WORT M8

ahem sorry for the rant I'm just irked by our exam papers and their sheer ridiculousness 🙂👍

woop, just in case - "why are you smiling?" ask was a joke 💕 I kinda love the fact that no relationships in this IF are simple, not even with E., and my anxiety level spikes (in a good way) with every new answer you post.

Oh it's nothing to worry about, I don't mind 😜 and hehe I'm so happy that you are enjoying this IF and giving it so much love ❣️ I hope that you can continue loving it and sending me asks, I love answering them! <3

and newsflash, [E.] gladly accept [proposal] before you even finish the sentence 😁

😁

...why are you smiling like this? hey! why are you smiling like his??!!! 😟 😨 😰

HEHEHEHE 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

Eve, how old was mc when this inmate escaped???

MC was around 6 years old when this inmate escaped Tartarus

Hmm I cannot imagine what you're cooking up anon but it seems very intriguing considering all your asks 🤔🤔🤔

love your blog as one true crime lover to another I must ask what’s what’s your favorite crime?

Oh a fellow true crime lover I see 🙈, hello to you too! And I have a long list of true crimes that I find interesting, but here are my top three!

1. The Burari Deaths : this case really shook me to the core, especially after watching the Netflix documentary. I wasn't quite aware of the extent of its case as the media here likes to embellish things quite a lot, but really behind all the mysteries and unfortunate deaths was the sad truth about society demonising mental health to the point talking about it becomes a taboo. Sometimes I wonder if the perpetrator(not gonna mention his name) had gotten help with his mental health maybe things could've been different. Plus this was my first case about the topic of shared psychosis, which in itself is so intriguing!

2. The case of Taylor Parker Morton : this was my very first (and possibly last case) related to fetal abduction that made me more madder than I had ever felt in my lifetime. And although the topic is itself very interesting (albeit horrifying) the case surrounding it will make any empathetic persons blood boil

3. The case of India's (and the world's) youngest serial killer : really brings out the age old debate on Nature vs Nurture when you go through this case. And idk what's more terrifying, the fact that this kid did it when he was 8 or that he's out and living his best life rn, with a changed name and all that. Makes you wonder who the person you're walking or sitting beside really is and how many skeletons they are hiding in their closet

So there are my top three true crime cases that I found really impactful and interesting 🤔, feel free to tell me yours 😁

“nikita probably muzzles mc if they refuse to bark for him- especially in the beginning. a nicer way of shutting them up until they learn not to bite. (probably coos some bullshit to them about waiting until they’re properly trained before taking him in the mouth)

ANYWAY-“

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ANON YOU CAN’T JUST LEAVD AFTER SAYING THAT. COME BACK AND SHARE MORE OF YOUR THOUGHTS. 😭😭😭

LOL IT SEEMS ANON HAS SAME THOUGHTS AD ME 😭 WHERE ARE YOY HORNY ANON YOU CANNOT LEAVE US WITH A CLIFFHANGER LIKE THAT COME BACK!!!

Don’t know who it was but I’m in love with the horny anon who sent in that ask about Nikita.

ME TOO 😂 Horny anon here seems to have charmed fellow horny people like the anon and me myself

Eve, has anyone been able to escape Tartarus?

HMMMMMM- dunno whether it could be considered too spoilery, but YES there was ONE instance when an inmate did escape from Tartarus, although there is little to no information on them as everything has been erased from the system to hide any traces of this rare humiliation from the so called best prison in Elysium. This inmate, who had been sentenced to Tartarus for being involved in anti-government activities would escape by the skin of his teeth and later become the leader of the biggest rebellion in the New World's history. Too bad they failed and were publicly executed to set an example for the rest.

Wow this place is a mess. My MC will be 100% rebellious and be a menace and an annoyance to everyone

But that just makes the ROs love them more I'm guessing 💀

Ooooh your MC sounds like someone I would totally vibe around and try to be friends with 👀 would love to see them causing chaos around Tartarus 🤣

And indeed! Most of the RO's will find MC's rebellious attitude quite endearing!(if not sexy)

Please I am so so in love with E already oh my god. Oh my god. I am head over heels and I haven't even met them yet. Hand in marriage??? Rn?? Pretty please??

That said, I'm also low-key obsessed with V, so that's fun too! And Twenty... 👀

Haha 😂 don't worry dear anon you will certainly get the opportunity to ask E's hand in marriage in the future! (and newsflash, they'll gladly accept it before you even finish the sentence 😁)

And oooh V and Twenty too! It's nice to see the cellmates getting some attention too, they're so underrated 😞 being overshadowed by E., G. and Nikita, please give them some love too ❤️

in Puppy Play, you have to roleplay and pretend to be a dog, that including walking on all fours, and barking like one

nikita probably muzzles mc if they refuse to bark for him- especially in the beginning. a nicer way of shutting them up until they learn not to bite. (probably coos some bullshit to them about waiting until they’re properly trained before taking him in the mouth)

ANYWAY-

😳 Anon you're going to be the death of me one of these days, now that you've mentioned it I cannot get it out of my brain! But indeed that is something Nikita certainly can do if he wants to, the thought of MC being like his obedient pet that faithfully follows his orders is enough to make him giddy at the thought. He'll probably day dream about it and then giggle like some teenage girl does about their crush, all alone in his office, meanwhile the guards outside be sweating bullets 😂

So the cells are mixed in Tartarus? How do they prevent pregnancy?

Indeed they are mixed, with each cell hosting up to 2 people maximum, and they're called buddy pairs where each has to look after the other lest they make a mistake in which case both will be punished for the mistake of one. As for pregnancies, although not encouraged there are little to no measures regarding them. Besides, anyone who is found to be pregnant will be quickly snatched away and taken away to god knows where, and they never return so that's a warning. If one does manage to deliver the baby them they will be immediately confiscated (for lack of better word) and will not be permitted to meet the mother at any cost. No one knows what happens to the infant, and they don't want to think about it as well, fearing the worst.

I also love Nikita solely for the fact that he’s a walking red flag. The pet play is just a huge bonus for me.

EHE red flags may be scary in real life but in fiction they are too tempting to resist 😔 I understand your feelings as a fellow Nikita admirer dear anon, and i hope that you continue to show your love for him in the future as well ❤️

UPDATE

The Character aesthetics are out on Pinterest after requests from you guys! Hope you like them 😊 You can go to it via the link in the main post! I'm also currently working on the different District's info so be on the look out for them soon ;)

Can I humbly ask for some Leo facts please lovely author ^^

I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT ANSWERING ALL YOUR ASKS EARLIER ANON 😞🙏 PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR THIS GRAVE MISTAKE OF MINE- AND YES SURE 😃 here are some facts on our (possessive) Mommy Leo!

Her favourite flower is the Delonix regia, infact her palace garden is filled up these flowers blooming all year long

Has an interest in reading history books from the Old World

Likes to judge foods by the way they look and smell. She also especially dislikes eating capsicums and radishes

Was once interested in sculpting as a child, but abandoned it later after realising that she is incapable of making human faces

Has never seen a firefly in her life before

Has a small habit of calling her fellow colleagues by short and affectionate(?) nicknames like "honey", "hun" and "my love", although it is impossible to determine whether she actually does mean them or not

Hello! What about the family of mc? did they used to have friends? allies?

The MC has no known family of blood relatives, and though they did have some allies and friends earlier, all of their connections ended and were permanently destroyed after the failure of the rebellion was put on their shoulders and they were branded a traitor by the rebels. Plus a majority of their allies were executed after being caught. So now they're well and truly alone and isolated

Hello~ I was wondering if the character creation is going to be diverse, in the sense of our MC's personality. Because all the characters seem so tragic, erotic and stoic to me in a cruel and dark world (I may be wrong), and then we have my MC, a social misfit with anxiety, with mood problems and making jokes at the worst times (similar to Jack Sparrow) XD hahahaha. And I thought: the characters are going to hate my MC.

So, my two questions are: are we going to have the opportunity to develop an MC with a varied personality with stats that give us various reactions (extroverted, stoic, adorable, joking, etc)? Or will it be something more default? And what kind of reaction or impression could the RO's have with such a different MC?

Nikita and Gael definitely have a good grip on me at this point ajsjdhdjsj AHHHH I can't not fall into the arms of a walking red flag and an anarchist who wants to kill me. XD

I keep having this scene in mind where Nikita asks my MC to wear this cute necklace around her neck, nothing suspicious, obviously...and my MC responds like: Uh~ kinky, I like it.

Or being with Gael and he pointed a gun at my MC, for some reason, and my MC was like: you know? I charge for having a gun pointed at me, but since you're so hot, I'll let you have it for free.

I don't know, it may not be at all what I think, but if possible, I'm going to create my Jack Sparrow in this wonderful IF just to annoy everyone. Hahaha

PS: Sorry for all the babbling, but this IF has so much potential and so much love in its creation that I can't help but applaud your work in progress. Take care of yourself and sleep well. ✨

Awwww your MC sounds so adorable! They would stick out like a sore thumb among the dark crowd of the ROs 😞 but yes! The character creation is going to be diverse, with options like STOIC vs EMOTIONAL, CAREFUL vs RECKLESS and many more to be included as it goes! So you needn't worry about character diversity 😊

For your first question, yes the MC will have a varied range of personality stats that will range from stoic to reckless to extroverted and etc. there will be no default settings as according to the story the MC will have lost all their memories and therefore they will not be acting the same way they did before. Secondly, the RO’s reactions will range from pleasant surprise to maybe even disgust? Depending on your choices ofcourse. The ROs who have known the MC before, like Nikita and E. will be quite surprised by the new change, the former will be more welcoming to it meanwhile the latter will have some mixed feelings on it. Leo on the other hand will be disgusted, they quite liked the previous MC and their sassy attitude. Caesar and V. who don't know the MC will be more or less welcome it as they don't know who MC was or how they acted earlier. Meanwhile, Twenty and G. will be originally disgusted thinking that the MC is faking it, but soon realise that they aren't so they'll slowly grow used to this new MC, albeit being a little wary.

And OH HO looks like my favourite babies have got you quite on the chokehold 🤭 I'm not complaining tho I love it when people like the ROs ehe-

Though that necklace scene tho- I can't get it out of my head now, curse you! 😭 And lmao 🤣 the way your MC reacts, Nikita will be taken aback for a while! (Not that he's complaining lol) Meanwhile G. trying not to kill the MC out of frustration because of their new attitude. Like c'mon they're crying to kill you for crying out loud! Stop making it so sexual! 😂

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHOWING YOUR LOVE FOR MY LITTLE PET PROJECT 😻 I SHALL DEFINITELY GET SOME GOOD SLEEP AND PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AS WELL ❤️

Too bad, [V.] love would never reach MC because

..what? isn't V. one of the ROs??? w h a t ?.??

OH indeed they are one of the ROs! It's just that, ahem, their and MCs romance route is gonna be filled with lots of hardships and a lil bit of that bittersweet betrayal and in the first half they don't even love the MC, it's purely business I tell you 😉

hi sorry to bother but do you perhaps know path to nowhere

Oh please don't be worried about being a bother! You certainly are not. And yes I'm an avid path to nowhere player! Infact I was KINDAAAAA inspired from Eirene and Demon to make Leo, E. and Caesar- they carried me throughout the story mode ok?!

Hi! I must admit, I'm having a hard time imagining any of your characters so far, so I have to ask - are you planning to commission ROs portraits in the future? I didn't ask for ArtBreeder because I understand it's not everyone's cup of tea, pinterest boards would be fine too, if you have any!

OH NO- IM SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW IT WOULD DIFFICULT FOR PEOPLE TO IMAGINE THE RO'S WITH THEIR APPEARANCE DESCRIPTIONS ALONE- (honestly as a reader I'm more used to just imagining the characters by descriptions alone rather than just looking up pictures for them so I just assumed the same for everyone 😅)

Unfortunately I'm not really fond of art breeders- (mainly because half of the time the ai image just doesn't fit my imagined image 😭) but if it's difficult people then I guess I can make an exception? Should I make Pinterest boards for the ROs or just post the images that inspired their appearances for me for you to get the idea? Or should I do both? Please let me know 😅

Any spoiler-free explanations/snippets of why V is a slight Yandere🥺?

OFCOURSE!

1. V. was first introduced to MC by the rumours surrounding them, they though MC was just another criminal who pissed off some higher officials and got thrown in, imagine their pleasant surprise when they found that MC was nothing like that

2. Then their interest was piqued even more when they realised that MC had amnesia and their entire background was wiped clean, so they decided to stick around MC to learn more about them (and perhaps collect some dirt in the process as well)

3. In the beginning they saw a reflection of their siblings in MC as they taught them the ways of Tartarus

4. Then MC, who they previously thought was naive, got involved with the Warden and actually saved their overall curious ass twice

5. So now that interest now turned into attraction, V. would never admit it but they do like acting like a damsel in distress every once in a while to have a prince/princess in shining armour save them, guess who showed up hm

6. Long story short, V. ended up head over heels for MC

7. Too bad, their love would never reach MC because

.... EHE I CAN'T GO ON ANYMORE OTHERWISE IT WOULD VENTURE OUT INTO SPOILER TERRITORY SORRY 😞

so i dont want to be rude cos i love your ocs (nikita has my heart fr fr) but is this game actually planned? ive seen a lot of choice of games that got me all excited about the characters but i guess the author didnt realise how much work the whole game is or got busy and then it never happens. i mean im not trying to pressure you or anything but i dont think you have a demo yet so im just wondering if you like have a plan or not?

Oh please don't worry about rude or anything, i absolutely understand where you are coming from! And yes although there's no demo out yet that's because it's my first time making an IF so I'm a little confused, but I have some friends to help me who are more experienced that I am. I understand that you are worried about the demo never coming out, but I'll do my best to make it work. Though that might take a while with all the pressures coming from college and my upcoming exams. I'll do my best to not fail you 💪😭

I added these parallels intentionally for a reason

wELL, that may indicate a very "interesting" chain of events for MC who was fwb with E. but then falls under Nikita's influence after losing their memory. it literally feels like he's playing with their subconscious, which checks out with what you have written about Nikita before. (me? building a whole damn theory from two separated sentences? more likely than you think)

but the whole thing with E.! fwb with feelings or not - you don't play house with just anyone, and a plant is not a bouquet of flowers. it's something more permanent - E. could as well gift MC a puppy to be more blatant about their desire to put something lasting in their daily routine.

..and Nikita is toying with it for what? to trigger a "positive response" from MC? HOW DID HE EVEN KNOW ABOUT THIS CLEARLY PRIVATE PIECE OF INFORMATION?! he looks more devious by the second, istg.

Ooooh that's a very interesting theory I must admit! Although I won't confirm or deny that theory, I really really like it! And yep yep regardless of whether you take the FWB route or not E. will have some sort of positive feelings for MC, and AHEM I cannot really reveal it BUT- I'll just let you know that Nikita knows more than one might think, about MC and E. 🤭

Please I really really LOVE reading all of your theories! They are so entertaining to go through even though some of them might not be on point but the fact that you guys had the time to come up with them makes me really happy 😊❤️

G going for a kiss and mc moving their face because "babe, I just drank milk" the horror of G who has a partner that loves lactose products.

LOL🤣 I can now imagine a scenario where G. and MC get into a fight so MC just loads the entire fridge with milk based products out of spite for G. 😂 but regardless thats so cute!

I am obsessed with Nikita.

(Totally not because of the pet play btw. 👀)

Looks like our warden finally has some fans XD I'm glad that you like him so much! He's my little baby (even tho he's a walking talking red flag ehe-)

in this case, considering who is in charge of this (*cough* Nikita *cough*) it would most likely be less about consent and more about dehumanizing and his own entertainment. He will likely keep you chained up with a pretty little collar around your neck to remind you and warm others about who you belong to

Now I’m just imagining reader being forced to wear a muzzle. 🫣

😳 anon you just stole the idea right out of my mind! Are you a telepath perhaps? 😂

Good to know that G hates MC because I WILL bully them cuz they're lactose intolerant lmao

LMAO 😂 They certainly will NOT find that as amusing as you do. G. dislikes it when they are made fun of for their lactose intolerance and the bullying coming from especially their mortal enemy won't help with the burn either,they'll most likely try to knock you out in the best case scenario to shut you up for a while LOL