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there's an inherent cruelty to being a mastermind.

okay, echo, state the obvious. but there's a special line to draw between just being an evil character, and being the overlord of a killing game. and i find it fascinating. like, mastermind aus? they destroy me. i love the idea of taking a character and slapping the inherent cruelty of mastermind-ing their respective killing game. especially if it's a character who canonically despises the killing game or is a symbol of hope for other characters (mastermind shuichi/kaito/taka my beloveds). and these characters have canonical personalities, right? we never get to see a mastermind just... acting like their normal self when they reveal themself to be the mastermind.

it's such an underrated idea.

like, yeah, that person is kind. and they like flowers, and they like the color green. hot chocolate is their favorite drink because it reminds them of warm memories with their loved ones. they were the one to pick you off the ground and care for you when you got hurt. this person, so well rounded, so kind. and then... then they're the mastermind.

they're the mastermind. but they're still so sweet. they're cruel. they enjoy watching your friends suffer. but they're still smiling at you, never changing, and they've revealed this huge part of themself that. is still them. because they don't break out into some evil version of themself. they're still them. but not.

they're the mastermind. they are cruel. but they are still kind. and that is the shit that kills me.

yeah, having the villain hiding among you become evil is good. but not having them change at all. is like, almost better. because they never lied to you. they're still the person you know. but they wanted to hurt you. they wanted to wring you out and leave you to die but would never lift a finger because they would never. and you know they would never. you trust them because they would never hurt anyone, and they don't, and that hurts more.

mastermind aus hit so much more when the personality doesn't change.

like... kaito would still be the hopebringer, inspiring the others because that's who he is, but the embedded cruelty of knowing these people will die because of what he's set up. and he's just as cheerful when he's revealed.

and it hurts almost more to know that they aren't much different. they aren't evil, they aren't spitting in your face or calling you a fool. they're still them. and what are you? a fool? stubborn? are you in denial? what does this mean for you?

anyway its like midnight and this just me spitting out an idea. bye!

okay adding on to this cuz Fizz has piercings, i just didn't add them on to the original drawing cuz it slipped my mind as i was sketching them, so...

twists/braids and without twists/braids.

i study biology and i get really clumsy in the lab and when i do field work, so i imagine that someone who works in physics would also have some scars from lab work. i honestly get so excited when Phys does sciencey smart things in the story cuz i am a whole entire nerd. with my whole being.

so @chihirolovebot 's sleep awake has been living rent free in my brain since i found it a week and a half ago, and i wanted to make my own Phys, and i'm actually proud of the results! i had a few ideas floating around my head, but every time is see Phys, my brain goes to Fizz, so that's the name i have on the character. idk if that's weird or not, but oh well.

here goes nothing:

no rendering but only because i want to get this out and i'm impatient. maybe i'll post this with clean line art and rendering, and maybe even a proper background. also i imagine they have piercings, i just didn't draw them (rip).

and the original sketch which points out some of the details:

seriously, this has been living rent free in my brain for a week, and i'm in love with sleep awake. it's so thoughtful and all the characters feel like they could be canon. i adore the changes to the storyline too. i don't have enough words to describe how giddy this story makes me!!!

anywhore, before i end this, i have a few other sketches to share, that, idk, maybe people would like to see:

these ones focus on an idea that Fizz is the mastermind. the first one is just a general mastermind concept (with shoes being the bane of my existence), and the second one was like if Fizz was the mastermind and also had been a part of DICE and was maybe responsible for the tragedy we see in Ouma's motive video, and with Fizz being the mastermind, they purposely left out those memories from Ouma, or whatever, i'm talking out of my ass tbh.

and i just finished this little comic, but i'm not good at drawing comics... so... enjoy?:

it's not knowing how to draw Ouma for me.

anyway, physouma brainrot is real.

i really enjoy sleep awake, i just have a hard time communicating my enjoyment sometimes. great story!

so @chihirolovebot 's sleep awake has been living rent free in my brain since i found it a week and a half ago, and i wanted to make my own Phys, and i'm actually proud of the results! i had a few ideas floating around my head, but every time is see Phys, my brain goes to Fizz, so that's the name i have on the character. idk if that's weird or not, but oh well.

here goes nothing:

no rendering but only because i want to get this out and i'm impatient. maybe i'll post this with clean line art and rendering, and maybe even a proper background. also i imagine they have piercings, i just didn't draw them (rip).

and the original sketch which points out some of the details:

seriously, this has been living rent free in my brain for a week, and i'm in love with sleep awake. it's so thoughtful and all the characters feel like they could be canon. i adore the changes to the storyline too. i don't have enough words to describe how giddy this story makes me!!!

anywhore, before i end this, i have a few other sketches to share, that, idk, maybe people would like to see:

these ones focus on an idea that Fizz is the mastermind. the first one is just a general mastermind concept (with shoes being the bane of my existence), and the second one was like if Fizz was the mastermind and also had been a part of DICE and was maybe responsible for the tragedy we see in Ouma's motive video, and with Fizz being the mastermind, they purposely left out those memories from Ouma, or whatever, i'm talking out of my ass tbh.

and i just finished this little comic, but i'm not good at drawing comics... so... enjoy?:

it's not knowing how to draw Ouma for me.

anyway, physouma brainrot is real.

i really enjoy sleep awake, i just have a hard time communicating my enjoyment sometimes. great story!