Spn 15x18 - Blog Posts

So I wrote maybe 1000/1500 words, but I don't think I'll be able to finish it tonight so I'm going to go to sleep. After much consideration (my sister bullying me), I decided to finish a story I started in June right before watching 15x18 for the first time.

(I needed something cute and fluffy as mental support.)

So if you want, you can go read the first chapter and I'll try to post the second and last chapter this week. But in the meantime, I'll leave you a little snippet because I'm pretty proud of myself.

Castiel watched the scene silently, a feeling of pure contentment washing over him like a ray of summer sunshine, warm and comforting. The kind of sunshine that cats lounged under outside the library windows. Castiel met Dean's amused gaze, his irises sparkling like a breeze of wind in the spring leaves, and his smile grew even wider if that were possible. Dean's eyes softened, smile lines deepening at the corners of his eyelids. Castiel had seen humanity crawl out of the water, empires rise and fall into dust, and the creation of the seven wonders of the world. But nothing was as beautiful as the man in front of him.   (He might have missed not being able to see Dean's soul anymore — the one that was so deeply entwined in his grace and his flesh and his being that it could no longer be separated from him, a beacon of light in the darkness of the Empty and the pain of Hell — but it shone so brightly in Dean's every action that Castiel could see it every day.) (That Castiel could fall in love even more every day.)

I need the people's opinion, tonight do I study or do I write something for Destiel Day?

"Because the one thing I want, it's something I know I can't have."

how to stop wanting something i can never have

It's why he was so ok with dying, cas' love kept him from being suicidal(like he was in 13x05) but cas' death made him willing to die at anytime, he wasn't racing to die but since he didn't have cas he wasn't scared or worried about dying because then maybe he'd get to see cas again

do you ever think about the fact that Dean's worst fear in the face of Death was having to watch Cas die and then be killed himself, but instead he had to live a worse nightmare where he had to watch Cas die and then was forced to live?

ya me neither

gifs by @bloodydeanwinchester

Picture this:

A supernatural edit to the song ‘waiting room’ by Phoebe Bridgers (specifically when she first starts chanting ‘I know it’s for the better’ building up to the instrumental part)

While she’s saying ‘I know it’s for the better’ it shows the shit tfw had to give up along the way for the better of the world

Examples:

- them burning Bobby’s flask so he doesn’t hurt people

- cas giving up his life to save dean in 15x18

- cas and dean talking before cas left to close up heaven (and wasn’t supposed to come back)

- ben and Lisa having their minds swept

- dean saying goodbye to Benny

- jack fading away in 15x19 (losing their son)

- Sam saying goodbye to Rowena before she died

- Crowley sacrificing himself

-etc

Then when the instruments kick in and the lyrics stop it’s just flashbacks of all the happy cute asf time between the boys and bobby, benny, jack, Castiel, Crowley, Rowena, Ben/Lisa etc

Im begging someone to make this and send it my way

Well, well, well what do we have here…

How do I, without raising alarm, go up to jackles get down on my hands and knees and beg him to release the tapes or else

i know this isn't new information but dean literally sat on the floor of the dungeon and ignored a call from his brother while the world was ending in order to sob with his head in his hands because his world had already ended and i'm supposed to be normal about it???? i'm supposed to just go on with my life???? when dean couldn't???? it's been two and a half years and i still can't breathe right when i think about it.