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This!! I could never put my finger on it but as ftm myself I feel much the same.
This also extends to my ASD. I'm so used to feeling uncomfortable or bordering overwhelmed I tend to forget I'm allowed to do against it, instead of the symptomatic treatment I grew up with.
Had a realization that part of why I tend to put off fixing things that bother me appearance-wise (such as my hair, I need to get it cut have the dye job freshened up, and needed to have done so a month ago at least) is probably tied to my dysphoria.
In the sense that; I look in the mirror and see something about my appearance that I cannot change, or cannot easily change at this time, ALL the time. Being so used to that state of forced ambivalence towards my appearance has rubbed off on the things I can change and control, like my hair and my clothing.