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I've never seen anyone talk about this but
I literally don't think I would mind doing housewife like things for a butch.
Is it just me?
Like i wouldn't mind packing a lunch for her work day every morning, writing a cute sticky note with maybe a inspirational quote or a quick "have a good day I love you" type of thing.
I depending on her job, I wouldn't mind ironing her clothes, making that collar nice crisp and starchy, and tie on that tie from them every morning. Or help them put on that sharp blazer.
But I'd always love doting on them when her when she gets home too. Undoing her tie, taking off her coat. Kissing her on cheek as I welcome her home. And I tell her I'll run a bath for her to help release all that pent up stress from the day.
Always keep the home soft and cozy. The perfect air freshener, fresh sheets out of the washer, searching on Pinterest in my free-time for the perfect things to add to our home.
On Friday nights we plan little dates at home. We're probably both a bit tired from the week. Maybe going out isn't the best option. So we'll get take out, or prepare something together and we have a little dinner date at home. Then Netflix and chill after of course.
On Saturday morning's she'll wake up to the empty space of where I slept in our bed. But! But~...the smell of bacon coming from the kitchen.
And that day, when we go shopping I'll help her pick a new cologne that will make me go feral. I'll tell her which colors compliment her skin tone, and which outfits make her look handsome.
But we can't leave until I take a trip to Sephora. (I have to! Sue me! I personally believe these products help keep me and nice and pretty just the way she likes me.) I try not to buy a lot but she's not a good influence since she always tries to spoil me.
(part 2?..)
SOMEONE COOKED HERE
Oh god, why did I ever think I was going to end up with a man? Women have everything that men don't. Understanding, a gentle hand, the softness of their lips and their hearts. There is nothing quite like laughing with a girl like you are best friends, thinking of her as if you have been married for decades, holding her like your favorite childhood stuffed animal, and kissing her like you could sustain yourself for the rest of your life simply on the sweetness of your mixed breath. Fingers in her hair, her head on your chest, love in both of your eyes that only the other will ever see. Make her a bracelet, find her a rock, gift her her favorite snack. Freedom in your airy laughter. Certainty in the matching beats of your hearts. You know everything about each other and remember every little detail; you are in love and unwaningly so.
I need you to understand this, she says.
I need you to understand that I can't keep repeating myself.
One day I'll snap.
That day might never come
But I still need you to understand this, she says.
I hated myself a little more than before
I didn't even know that was possible.
"You've gone and done it now, you idiot"
"You asked for too much again", the voice in my head mocks.
I'm scared you'll leave me like everyone else.
I'm scared you'll see me the way I see myself.
I need you to understand that this fear has me in a chokehold.
I need you to understand that it's not easy letting go.
So I'm sorry if I apologize one too many times.
I'm sorry if I don't see my own worth.
I'm sorry I don't believe I'm a worthy existence .
I've been told so by too many people I held dear,
That these words in my mind have been forever seared.
-scaredofmyvoice
I know it's true.
I ask for reassurance a lot more than others do
Because no matter how much I get
The voice in my head goes "They're lying, I bet"
It laughs, it mocks, it jeers at my pain
"Silly little girl who would even love you", it asks.
"Silly little girl you're such a burden", it laughs.
Just be quiet and pretend you're fine.
Who would even want to know that you're having a hard time
It taunts me all day with such cold cruel words
I find myself believing them
And in despair and agony i dwell.
So tell me in the end
Is it really wrong of me
To want others to give me what I desperately need.
To want them to see my flaws and love me nonetheless .
You need to love yourself first, I hear people say.
I'm not saying that I'll never love myself
I'm learning and while I do,
Can't I ask that you love me too?
-scaredofmyvoice
You might think I'm stupid and dumb
Because instead of trying to move on
I'm looking for ways to deepen our bond.
You might think I'm a little insane when I say,
That all I want
Is her in my life.
It didn't matter if we'd never date.
It didn't matter if she'd never love me the same way I love her.
Because even if as a friend I can stay,
I know I'd take it anyday.
You might think I'm foolish.
You might think I'm weak.
But I'd rather spend every waking minute loving till my heart stops it beat.
-scaredofmyvoice
I knew I loved you way more than a friend should
I knew I loved you and I would have stopped if I could.
I knew I loved you when my head went blank when you were too close
I knew I loved you when you hugged me and I thought my heart would explode.
I knew I loved you when I found myself keeping a note of things you like and don't.
I knew I loved you when I realized I wouldn't do things you disliked, I won't.
I knew i Ioved you when I answered your every text in seconds when it took you hours
I knew I loved you when to you I freely spoke about my scars.
I knew I loved you when I found myself getting lost staring at you from afar.
I knew I loved you months ago and I know I denied it too.
I know I love you
And I'm not sure what to do.
It's too hard for me to let go of you.
-scaredofmyvoice
All this pain is making it hard to breathe
All this pain is slowly killing me.
All this pain I wish that it would stop
All this pain that I know is really just love.
Love, with no place to go.
Love, that wants to scream no.
No I don't want you to leave.
No, infact, I just want you with me.
No I don't want the future to come
No because I know with me you'll be done.
It hurts.
It hurts so much
But if I can stay by your side,
My heart to bear the pain I'd train.
-scaredofmyvoice
I found myself keeping a note of things you like and don't.
I filled it up with every bit of information I knew
As if my mind wasn't already full of you.
I filled it up because I didn't want to forget even a single piece of you.
The fact that you like the moon and that your favorite colour is blue .
The fact that you're scared of spiders and what wish you'd pray would come true.
The fact that when you're happy your eyes sparkle and your cheeks have a baby pink hue.
The fact that you love kids and are good with them too.
After these little facts about you,
I write about things I could give you to make you happy
I write about how I could learn to play your favorite song,
Even though I haven't touched a keyboard in years.
I write about how I could sew you a doll,
Even though I've never once sewed before
Its just that if I could put a smile on your face,
I'd do anything and everything I ever could.
-scaredofmyvoice
How can I not fall for you when you make my heart skip a beat
You hold my leg when you see me shake them
You ask me if I got eight hours of sleep or ten.
You pat my head everytime I do something that scares me
You stay up comforting me on my bad days even if it's as late as three.
How can I not fall for you when you treat me so gently
You know when I need space but still worry and watch over me silently.
You hold my hand every time I flinch because someone's loud
You cradle the hurt and scared child in me and tell her she's loved.
You get upset for me and snap at people who bring me to tears
You say "hey it's okay, you got this" and make me face my fears.
You make me believe I'm someone lovable, someone worth fighting for
But above all you gently making your way into my heart
And looking at me for who I am,
Makes me want to know myself more.
-scaredofmyvoice
If you’re a sapphic teen who wants to find people like yourself, you should join my community! (Must be 19 or under)
My second mood board for my book! ✨
(All photos from Pinterest, and my first board, along with what the book is about, is here)
Love Phrases.
(I don’t like this one as much as my other poems, but I wanted to share it anyways!)
‘Phrases’ only you and I know,
That make our affection unique,
They make our fondness flourish, grow,
They make our love oh so mystique.
‘I love you’ is in our touches,
Even when times are warm or cold,
In each nuzzle, in our cluctches,
The greatest way to love untold.
‘I do care’ is in our sweet moments,
When we share sun and moon together,
A medley of loving components,
Affix themselves to us forever.
‘Stay with me’ is in our eyes,
Brimming with tears, stress or gleams,
The corner of our lips rise,
We’ll feel like we’re in a dream.
Phrases only you and I know,
That make our affection unique,
A language never filled with woe,
Words to each other we will speak.