Zanes Reblog Of Shit He's Gonna Look At Later - Blog Posts

I’m a bit curious on Hal’s personality in his depictions. From what I know is that early hal was headstrong, cocky, kind of a goofball, and detached (dissociating away his fear and averse to commitment). This seems to be the version of Hal that most people write.

But then there’s the whole Parallax thing, and the Spectre run. I don’t know much about it but it seems hal gets a lot more subdued and melancholy as the spectre. And then after that he comes back as flesh and bone.

So what is he like at the end of that?

Pre-Johns and pre-Parallax Hal tended to be more happy go lucky, stupid, and generally doe eyed hopeful "the system that fucked me over once definitely won't do it again!" type of man. He was also entitled at times. But this is mostly true up until around the time of Hard Traveling Heroes, which is when he starts to be heartbroken and melancholic, traits that persist until the climax of Emerald Twilight.

A lot of people say Emerald Twilight came from nowhere and I disagree. I think those people weren't paying attention, because all the signs were there. Hal had been steadily becoming more disillusioned and melancholic through the 70s and 80s until we get to the 90s, where that heartbreak gets amplified to the nth degree. Hal didn't go from stupid to mad with grief without a transition period in the middle. But a lot of people think once a run from x writer ends, it no longer counts for the next one, and so they say the tragedy came from nowhere.

At the very start of the 90s, Hal has a lot of suicidal ideation going on. The run itself begins with him more or less saying "There’s nowhere else to go" (paraphrasing) and throwing himself off a cliff. He waits until he's almost crashing head first into the ground to pull himself out of there using his ring. He's flirting with the thought of death.

He is also self sabotaging. He pulls back from everyone and turns himself into a homeless man who lives on the road because he's looking for a sense of self, a meaning to life he has lost. He becomes a seasonal worker because he needs something to do, but those jobs never last because the life he's trying to leave behind (in the shape of Guy Gardner) keeps metaphorically knocking on the door and dragging him back to Green Lantern.

Even when he comes back, he chooses to do solitary things. For example: exploring space to recruit more GLs, that keeps interactions to a minimum. It's all things that are brewing in a pressure cooker that blows up when Coast City is destroyed in front of Hal's eyes and the hero community drops the ball. Hard.

They all say well, it’s not MY city. They all say get over it. Clark goes and creates a monument using scraps of the very bomb that killed everyone and everything Hal knew all his life, and immediately after that Clark is in Metropolis enjoying the sun and saying aaaaah. what a nice day.

And Hal doesn't snap immediately. The tension is there, but at first he does try to keep it together until it becomes impossible. He tries to reconstruct Coast City, but there are limits to what the ring can do. The one thing he could depend on, his will power, is not enough. He is not enough. His grief and anger become so big that his mind just... fractures. He snaps. No one's listening and no one's helping, so he will take matters into his own hands and make. it. right.

This Hal is angry. This Hal has a heart with a hole that threatens to kill him at any moment but he endures because he cannot die until he does what needs to be done. This Hal refuses the help that comes too late, he has killed his friends, he has destroyed the corps, he has killed Sinestro. Kyle arrives like a lighthouse in the middle of the storm but for Hal it's too late because he has driven his ship into the cliff and is letting it sink with himself still in it.

He is mad at himself and mad at the world for failing Coast City and all the innocent lives lost. He almost becomes a god, and is perceived as a god by some due to the power he now possesses. There are moments when clarity hits him and the old wounded heartbroken Hal shows his face, and he is dying. His pain is so palpable. His anguish. The old Hal wants help. But Parallax Hal does not want to be saved.

Of course, the status quo changes with the events of Final Night. Hal sacrifices himself to save the Earth. He sees that only in death will his anger stop, and he sees that he's the only one who can do what no one else could do for Coast City. It's a no brainer. He sacrifices himself and burns himself to a crisp reigniting the sun. Hal doesn’t expect to come back. He doesn’t want to come back. This is HIS final night.

Unfortunately, The Spectre had other plans. His anger morphs into straight up depression because now he is alive enough to deal with the outcome of what he did as Parallax. He has to live with the tragedy of what he lost and the tragedy of what he did. Few people stand by his side and want to give him a chance. Very few people recognize there's good in him. Most want to see him dead and gone. He himself wants to be dead and gone. Helen, his niece, being there definitely helps him not lose it, not lose himself. She is his hope. She is the innocence he lost and he will never get back.

After all of this, he is more grounded, mature. Still melancholic. Still haunted by everything that happened. He is cocky, of course, and self assured, because at the end of the day those are the things he can cling to with some sort of safety net. But they're also things he uses to keep the raw wounds hidden.

Post Johns? Yeah like more than half of this is lost because Hal’s the greatest hero ever and he can do no wrong. He is headstrong, overconfident, cocky, and ultimately good, but he is missing like half of his soul.

Barry: Where's Hal? Ollie: Don't worry, I'll find him. Ollie, shouting: Kyle sucks! Hal, distantly: Kyle is the best person ever! Fuck you! Ollie: Found him.

so ive been reading the kyle rayner run

Lanternfam tiktok chaos:

Everyone in the house but especially Keli has been pavloved into getting tired whenever someone announces "night time sleepy socks". (It's either Simon or Hal who started it, I can't decide.)

leading to:

Jess, filming: night time sleepy socks!

Kyle, yawning so wide it breaks his face:

Simon, getting up to the bathroom to brush his teeth before bed:

Hal, Jo, and John, ex-military: *already asleep*

Guy: JESSICA IT IS FOUR IN THE AFTERNOON

oh i love this but i'd like to let you know that this came so completely out of left field that i sat and laughed at it for five minutes straight.

okay, so it totally originated as a Thing on like longer space missions. especially because most planets don't have the same rotational speed as earth so there's no consistent day-night cycle they can follow. the rest of them are complete messes of adults but keli has hope of living a semi-normal life (probably maybe possibly hopefully). hence, the set bedtimes and someone (as you said, most likely either simon or hal) saying 'night time sleepy socks' (where is that even FROM).

but again, they're all messes and sleep deprivation is a bitch. jet lag from space has to suck an inordinate amount so they start taking that phrase as a signal to wind down as well. a couple of weeks pass and boom. pavlov'd successfully.

no one realises this for another couple of weeks either. when guy says it as a joke, they turn and watch simon and jess yawn in perfect unison. hal's already conked the hell out. no one is horrified about this revelation until jess finally does it in a video.

the caption reveals so little. jess just mentions they've all been pavlov'd in the weirdest possible way and she says it, all chirpy like she would to keli. "Night time, sleepy socks!" the results are immediate and incredibly satisfactory.

kyle yawns a yawn that splits his entire face in two. it's like watching a snake eat but worse because somehow. he immediately flops over to pass out on the nearest thing.

simon gets up and when jess asks where he's going, he says he has to brush his teeth before bed. he's responsible like that. let me make it clear that the sun hasn't set yet. it's still bright outside. there is sunshine coming in through the windows. the blinds are up. and simon is going to brush his teeth before bed.

hal, jo and john being asleep immediately because they're ex-military is so fucking funny. they don't even think about it. jo's phone slips from her fingers, john tucks his head into his arms and hal collapses into an armchair and starts snoring. literal sleeper agents.

guy? guy is visibly fighting a yawn and the sudden and violent urge to throw jess out of the window. how the hell is he supposed to watch the goddamn game when he wants to fall asleep on the spot. he was supposed to cook today. what kind of role model would he be if he fell asleep over the stove.

this video only cements how fucking weird these people are. the viewers get no answers. jess has successfully become an internet cryptid. all is right in the world.

I apologize for my horrible sense of humor

some people think writers are so eloquent and good with words, but the reality is that we can sit there with our fingers on the keyboard going, “what’s the word for non-sunlight lighting? Like, fake lighting?” and for ten minutes, all our brain will supply is “unofficial”, and we know that’s not the right word, but it’s the only word we can come up with…until finally it’s like our face got smashed into a brick wall and we remember the word we want is “artificial”.

“..Do you think I’ll see a crimson fish in the sea?”

this fanart came completely out of nowhere for a hetalia blog LMFAO

no fish ver. under the cut!

….good lord that elliott mod 😭😭😭 the ending really stuck with me for some darned reason. anyways, i really like how this turned out and i was wondering if y’all would ever be interested in a portrait mod in my art style, or, alternatively, a hetalia portrait mod…

Here's the low-rez, non-link version of the Hitman PMV for your viewing pleasure :) 🖤 If you want to see the full-resolution version, check out my YouTube!

Bad Rebellion Squad

Etoiles is already insane, but this is him half-code monster, AND IT'S IS NOT MADAGIO, IS !FIT WORKING FOR MADAGIO

Mr. Phillip: Why are you so alone, Philza?

Phil: I'm talking to the voices [Laughs]

Mr. Phillip: Ah, ok. [Laughs]

Phil: Sorry!

Mr. Phillip: Ok. [In Spanish] I'll leave you alone, daddy. I'll leave you alone. Nice ass, by the way! [He makes a smack sound effect] Nice ass, bro! [He slaps Phil on the ass] 😄

Phil: This- this guy, this fckin' guy, I can't even concentrate– [Laughs] The "Nice ass, bro!" [Slap sound effect] Jesus Christ.

Fit: [Reading chat] "FitMC, you are literally queerbaiting us." [Laughs]

Fit: No, p– I always– I always found it humorous when there– I mean, there'd be a couple detractors here and there, during like, the height of Hideduo, there were people that were like "Oh this is- this is queerbaiting." And I'm just like "But- but they're canonically homosexual."

Fit: It's not like we're pulling a Disney where it's like "Oh, we're gonna allude to these characters maybe being gay, but we're never gonna act on it!" Like– No, they were gay. [Laughs] q!Fit and q!Pac were very much in love, very much in love. And they showed it, both emotionally and occasionally physically, but... You know, and people gotta remember that.

Kristin shipping Philza: a compilation of chat messages

In conclusion the reason Phil doesn't want to get with other men isn't because Kristin would be upset, quite the contrary.

Before the Milk Incident, there was the other Milk Incident

(brown: Baghera, red: Antoine Daniel, green: Etoiles, dark blue: Florence/Angle Droit, purple: 123Lunatic)

Source: Best Of Antoine Daniel - BOIRE LE LAIT DANS LE NEUTRAL (Mario Kart 8 Deluxe)

antoine + étoiles insane moments, p.2. aka the ass saga. p1 here

transcript + context for some of the clips below

[Video Transcript:

[First clip plays.]

Rivenzi: You want to see Etoiles’ ass, of course…

Antoine: Yeah, I’m gonna stare at your ass, Etoiles…

Etoiles: Fuck, what dread, during Popcorn [a talkshow Etoiles had been invited on the previous week], when I went up to the map and you said that, and I thought ‘whoa—‘

Antoine: Sorry

[Second clip plays: the moment during Popcorn]

PA/Domingo: Antoine Daniel has posted a tweet for us: ‘I wanted to look at this map of Africa, but Etoiles’ ass in the shape of a standing bell is driving me crazy. Smiley face with eyes in the shape of hearts.’

[Third clip plays: a continuation of the first clip.]

Antoine: Sorry, bro…

Ponce: Oh but that tweet, besides

Rivenzi: A standing bell…

Antoine: What’s more is that I never tweet and when I do it’s to tweet this sort of shit

Ponce: That’s exactly what I told myself. When PA read the tweet, I thought to myself, ‘but he never tweets!’ And he tweets to talk about Etoiles’ ass

Antoine: There needs to be a good reason, you see

[Fourth clip plays: a clip from the Team du Lundi’s minecraft server.]

JDG: Someone (in chat) said, ‘I can’t tell whether the atmosphere is good tonight or—‘

Antoine: It sucks, it sucks

Florence: You don’t need to ask every time, it always sucks

Baghera: Always sucks. Especially when Etoiles talks about ass [which had been a previous topic of discussion for him that night]

Antoine: Stooop, I enjoy it

Mynthos: You enjoy it?

JDG: It’s true tonight that it’s more weird than bad

Antoine: I like it when Etoiles talks about ass….

[Fifth clip plays: a second and different clip from Popcorn.]

Etoiles: —you’re not allowed to tell me that [Xari claimed to not know much about cinema]. I know you, I studied, because you’re my rival [in pop culture]. I really enjoy what you do in life, Xari, and you’re really knowledgeable about cinema

Antoine: What do you mean he’s your rival? And I’m just shit?

Etoiles: You, you’re my lover

Antoine: Oh yeah, sorry, my bad

PA/Domingo: One of the three is gonna die soon. There’s a whole situation, there’s a whole lore

[Sixth clip plays: a clip from the QSMP.]

Antoine: Don’t you want to get married, dude?

Etoiles: Well, I don’t have the time to fuck

Antoine: What the fuck?!

Etoiles: I don’t have time to fuck, dude. I just need to kill everyone

Antoine: No but just a marriage, you see. You’ve watched Game of Thrones— you haven’t watched Game of Thrones, you can’t know how marriages work in that series

Etoiles: I’ve watched it, but I’m married to the street, dude. I can’t give out my heart that quickly

Antoine: Yeah but you can give out your ass quickly, no?

Etoiles: No, frankly, my ass—

Antoine: What the fuck?!

Etoiles: Giving out your ass takes time, dude

Antoine: What the fuck…

Etoiles: Then again, I need to think about it. I’ll give you my answer. I need to discuss, and everything

Antoine: I’m tired of getting betrayed. You get married with someone else—

Etoiles: Never in a million years!

Antoine: —it’s like yesterday. Apparently Maximus got the mic from his ass removed while I wasn’t there. I was supposed to be the one to do it

Etoiles: Oh okay, so I’m your second choice?

[Overlapping]

Antoine: No! It was just to help him—

Etoiles: No, but, okay

Antoine: He got— listen—

Etoiles: There’s no problem!

Antoine: Fuck, nevermind

Etoiles: There’s no issue! Oh, so you’re opening my chest and stealing?

Antoine: I was just looking! Out of curiosity

Etoiles: Yeah, that’s it

Antoine: I don’t even understand what’s in it

Etoiles: Yeah, out of curiosity. Dude, your opinion on my cave?

Antoine: Well frankly it’s big

end Video Transcript.]

antoine + étoiles insane moments for ur consideration :] @etoilesbienne @icockeatpanda @jahanmp4

eng transcript below:

[Video Transcript:

(First clip plays.)

Antoine: Look at what’s written in the heart, dude.

Etoiles: Holy shit, it’s you and me, dude!

Antoine: Oh yeah, A + E, dude

(overlapping) Etoiles: Antoine and Etoiles. Dude, holy shiiiit

Etoiles: Hey all that is destiny, dude

Antoine: I’m the one who did it in the hopes of stumbling across it on Geoguessr one day

Etoiles: Fuck, and after all these years you’ve finally realised your objective

Antoine: And yeah, dude….

Etoiles: peepoShy, as we say

(Second clip plays.)

Etoiles: Where are you, Antoine?

Antoine: I’m on— I’m on the blue level of the TDM (Tour de Merde)

Etoiles: Where are you, darling? I’m coming

Antoine: The blue level of the TDM

Florence: No but he’s horny, Rayou, tonight

Bagz: But Rayou— he arrived— he arrived (to the stream) saying, “I’m exhausted’, and he’s really in shape!

Antoine: He just wants to fuck, Rayou, tonight. He wants to fuck so badly tonight

Etoiles: But I said ‘darling’!

(overlapping) Bagz: In ‘Just Fucking’ (as a Twitch stream category)

Etoiles: No but I hate you all, bro

(Third clip plays.)

Antoine: I want to vape but I can’t

Etoiles: Vape my ass, dude

Antoine: Wow, what the fuck? What—

(Fourth clip plays.)

Etoiles: Well I don’t know what my favourite party is, is it the one where we played the capitals game? Or—

Antoine: Or the one where I sucked you off? Oh, no, sorry. No, you were saying? Yeah

Etoiles: That one— that one was crazy

(overlapping) Antoine: Sorry, my bad

(Fifth clip plays.)

Etoiles: Antoine I just looked at the camera, you’re incredibly handsome, dude

Antoine: Really?

Etoiles: Yeah. You have a cool look about you

Zerator: You mean, as opposed to normal?

Etoiles: Yeah, because usually you’re disgusting but here, honestly… I find you very fuckable tonight

Antoine: Well, thanks so much dude

(Sixth clip plays.)

Etoiles: Me, I’ve never cried. The only time I’ve had water on my face is when I’ve showered

Antoine: When I performed a facial on you too, no?

Florence: Oh nooooo. No but I respect it, you guys do what you want

Etoiles: Actually it’s not water it’s sperm

Antoine: In sperm there’s water, dude

(Cuts to a later portion of the same stream.)

Etoiles: Y’know you’re only gross with me, with your other friends you don’t make jokes like that

Antoine: That’s true. I don’t know why I’m like this with you. Maybe I should be asking myself questions, bro. I don’t know!

end Video Transcript.]

"Come to me, come to me. I killed them all."

Phil can be so damn chilling when he gets into intense PVP mode. I love that his teammates have the celebratory shouting covered for him.

(BTW, Phil later said that the reason he was able to two-shot Bad without enchants was because he stepped into Bad's hitbox, past his shield. Phil literally got inside his guard. That's the coolest anime shit; I'm so hoping that makes it into a badass animatic)

(Edit: I ended up doing some art of the aftermath)