Being autistic is like saying, "Hmm. Need different music. This genre is making my mouth dry." And people understanding it as "hmm. Need different music. This genre is trash. " When i QUITE LITERALLY mean it makes my mouth dry. Like why would i say otherwise when that's literally what i mean?
Also, is that just me? Like- does anyone else's mouth get dry when listening to their "i listened to this song for 257 hours straight because it tickled my brain, but now its boring" music?
idk man the nervous system makes me kinda nervous
Just yelling into the void.
Today's world is so weird. I've been thinking about masc names for myself since 2018, and ive been trying to change myself and be comfortable with myself and my identity since then, but now i only have more questions than answers. Do i want to be trans because of how i fear being treated by men? Do i want to be trans so that i wont have to worry about having the weakness of being a woman? Would it be wrong to want to be trans for those reasons? Or am i trans because i hate myself? Am i trans because i despise every feminine thing about my body, and just wish i could be a man? Am i trans because i think being male would be easier? Is it wrong? I want so badly to have broad shoulders, short spikey hair, mayble some stubble, a decent jawline, a male chest, and muscle dense arms, but is it just gender envy? Is that just a phase? Is that what being trans is? I feel wrong being labeled as female, i feel wrong being labeled as male, i feel wrong being labeled as nonbinary and not being labeled at all. My entire being feels wrong and unsafe, targeted, and usable. Is my want to be male, to be trans, to view myself as strong in a physical sense, is it all just my way of coping? And if so, is that truly me wanting to be trans, or does that make me wanting to be trans a trauma response from all the masculine abuse and feminine neglect? Im so unsure. Im so confused. I dunno whats right or what's wrong, or even what's causing what.
genuinely fucked up that if i want to interact with someone online i have to say words and have a conversation instead of just mashing my face against them like a cat
It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳
Cutesy awesome sauce
Im afraid thats what going to the doctor is for
bodies should have crash logs. why the fuck did that just happen.
hey when you make posts, i just want you to know, thou/thee/thy/thine/ye are like he/you(object)/your/yours/you(subject) okay? "thou art wearing shoes," "i will wear shoes for thee," okay?
you say thine if the next word starts with a vowel and thy if the next word starts with a consonant and they both mean "your" so "thine own shoes," "thy shoes," okay?
and ye means you and refers to the subject of a sentence, "ye members of the brotherhood of shoes," okay? you need this information to create better knight yaoi. i'm personally more interested in nun yuri but we are a community
The difference is this mysterious "anxious attachment style" thought process generally (from what ive seen idk im not an expert) only applies to like 2 important people
"Do you still like me?" "Are you mad at me?" "Did i do something wrong?" Disorder is unfortunately indiscriminately targeting everyone around me, myself and complete strangers included.
There is no escaping the "Do you still like me?" "Are you mad at me?" "Did i do something wrong?" Disorder
cursed with "do you still like me?" "are you mad at me?" "did i do something wrong?" disorder
I can be shaped by more than the things that hurt me