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Something that made me happy today =)

Day 1 ~ in recovery ~

A friend came over today to talk about my feelings and maybe get some work done for myself.

It's been 2 days since I last turned on my laptop and looked at my semester to-do list. I still haven't done it yet, and I feel intimidated by the potential workload I have waiting for me once this break ends and everything should go back to "normal." Is there even going to be a "normal"? I don't know. I feel very conflicted right now, but maybe this shows that I need a reality check. To ground me, not terrify me.

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Not feeling that great physically today and ran late to my first meeting...

Adding another Pinterest collage to my collection to help me refocus and keep moving at my own pace =)

Transitions are hard...

Like I know I got diagnosed last year with ADHD, but I haven't felt like this in so long? Seriously, I don't know how I've functioned so well in college, and now in PhD, my brain is starting to give up on me.

I wish my school or someone had taught me how to use a neurodivergent brain growing up. Maybe it would be less difficult right now.

It feels like I make a plan, and then the next thing I know, my brain chooses not to follow it cause it's not exciting enough. I wish I could just work 4 hours a day and then rest and recharge using the remaining time. I know this is impossible with my current workload and commitment, but I can't wait for that day to come when I can create my schedule and I don't have to worry about not having enough income each month.

Good luck my pals who are also neurodivergent ~

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This graphic is so real lol. I would also add "adulting" which takes up 10-20% of my life depending on the time of the year...

I had to go to a medical appointment this morning and it feels like I have already used up most of my motivation and energy for the day 🫠. But I know I can't (or should I say I recently decided that I won't) give up this easily, so I am hopeful that it will be another day I can celebrate at the end.

Sending love to all you wonderful humans 🩵

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A daily reminder 🩵

04/16/2025

Another day, another log ✨ It actually feels nice to have this check-in every day to see how I'm doing mentally and academically. Still not sleeping a lot this week because I call this month the "finals month" of PhD... Have a lot to finish, still have new tasks that get added each week, and I'm not even sure how many full days I have to take a break from it all after this month and in summer =/ Not the best situation, but at least I still get to do some things I like in the meantime 🩵

Current mindset:

Completed

✅ School ✅ Case presentation (woohoo!) ✅ Part-time job ✅ See clients ✅ Get an oil change for my car! ✅ Get gas for weekend traveling ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Client plan ✅ Phone call with a friend ✅ Watch Everyone Loves Me ✅ Dinner ✅ Clinic notes x2

To-Dos

⏹️ Clinic report - results 6 part 2 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 7 ⏹️ Clinic report - results 8 or Thesis - bullet points ⏹️ Shower?

[End of study: 12:18am] I got frustrated with the cdrama so I ended up skipping through some episodes and stopped doing work for a bit... Ngl I'm getting tired so I think I'm gonna speed through one more episode and call it a night. Good night, lovely humans 🥱

Middle of Day 1

The day didn't go as bad as I had imagined. Started working on some school assignments on my to-do list after eating a nice breakfast (more like lunch) and watching an episode of A Sign of Affection =)

Here's to the possibility that I will face the more daunting task of continuing to write the literature review part of my thesis. Cross my fingers that I finish the day strong and satisfied!

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A big thank you to Morgan S, who created this collage!!

I saved this for a while and just noticed Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs in the bottom left corner. I have been so focused on channeling my masculine energy this whole week that I didn't realize I was crushing myself from outside in. My anxiety has been at an all-time high (kind of a symptom toward the end of each semester). Not fun! I'm still working on doing better each semester, but it's hard when the ADHD and anxiety get mixed together, and I become terrified and frozen in place.

Had a long conversation with my best friend last night about how it's time to relax into ourselves and live in peace, regardless of how chaotic life might seem at times. I allowed myself to sleep and wake up later today, and I felt the difference immediately. My anxious thoughts quieted down, and I was able to live a little more carefree.

I mean, life is not the best right now, but I am making each day a little better, a little gentler to myself.

Feels like it is time to slow down a bit in order to walk further down this journey. It sounds counter intuitive, but I know it works because it has before. I just need to trust the journey and trust the Universe to provide me the support and safety I need right now.

Sending healing vibes to everybody reading this 🩵