~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Day 2 End

Wow... what a day.

I'm finally calling it and getting ready for bed (maybe quietly read a couple chapters of my new fated lovers book on my phone).

I feel like I did quite a bit but also not writing enough to meet my schedule. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Am I overestimating how much I can do each day or week to meet my goal at the end of the semester? I really hope not. I really need to finish this thesis proposal so I am not behind (also not having to pay for another semester of thesis credits...) Money is definitely on the line.

My hope is that I can start tracking my wins and knowing that it will be ok in the end.

Introductions ~ take two ~

Hello stranger! Glad you found me and I hope you get what you need from here (encouragement, inspiration, rant, etc.). If you don't find my content interesting, I hope you picked up some good vibes and have a wonderful day =)

Original Idea:

My initial idea for this blr was to keep track of my master's thesis writing progress. Unfortunately, within a week, I got injured in a car accident over the holidays and things are no longer the same.

Updated Content:

I decided today that this blr will now be a mesh of things. I will continue to post about my thesis writing progress while adding other studying stuff here (i.e., a studyblr). I will also talk about things I do in a psychology PhD program in the US (i.e., a phdblr). The part that I am most excited about to start posting here is my reflections and inspirations! I pick up on a lot of meaning and wisdom from daily life so I hope to share this with y'all and maybe help others who are struggling like me 🩵 (maybe I can call it a growthblr?) A random idea that popped up is to use this as my 2025 vision board! I have been having a hard time creating an entire vision board at the beginning of the year, so maybe this would be a place where I can add pictures and quotes that inspire me and lead me toward a new direction and be in flow this year =) (so exciting!!)

A Little About Me:

Nice to meet you, lovely humans! I am a PhD student in psychology, in my 20s, a dog mom, an astrology/tarot lover (I'm a ♉ sun), a couch potato during breaks, in my healing/spiritual journey, and have ADHD/depression.

I'm usually a private person, but I love sharing my inspirations and wisdom with others =) I hope that this will be a safe and non-judgmental space for all of us, and to be authentic while respecting each other.

Given that I am in a psychology program and I see clients, I do not plan to post anything identifiable here, including my real name. That means that unless you know me irl, you will not know the people I mentioned in this blr. If you have concerns about identifiable information of your own or someone you know being posted here, I strongly encourage you to reach out using the "AMA" button on this blr so I can correct my mistake.

Disclaimer: There is a chance that I will not consistently write here. If I have not been active for over a month, I might take longer to respond to posts and AMAs. That is just the nature of my life rn.

✨Sending lots of love and light ✨

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

I noticed myself living in fear whenever I started looking at my semester planner and seeing how many things I had failed to complete thus far. It is an overwhelming feeling that keeps me frozen and stuck.

I don't know if I can get everything done before the end of the semester. And right now, this is my worst nightmare. I have always succeeded in higher education and I think I have feared failure to this extent.

But my partner is right, I can do anything I put my mind to. This is not about whether or not I can do these tasks, it is the fact that everything needs to get done so what will I do now to make it happen. This is not about whether or not I have faith in myself and how hopeful I am about this situation or hopeless about the current misfortune, but what would the adult part of me do now to make things work out without minimizing my needs and suppressing my emotions.

This is a lot. It feels heavy like I am carrying bags of stones on my shoulders while climbing a mountain. But this time I need to face my fears like a responsible adult instead of running away from my troubles and avoiding everything.

I can do this. I WILL do this. 💪🏻

~**~ Pinterest Inspirations ~**~

Not feeling that great physically today and ran late to my first meeting...

Adding another Pinterest collage to my collection to help me refocus and keep moving at my own pace =)

03/17/2025

Proud of myself!

I started working on school stuff again after everything that's been going on. It was nerve-wracking at first, having to go through a lot of emails and reply to some from weeks ago. BUT... I got through them all!

Completed Tasks:

✅ Read (and organized) my school emails

✅ Research team meeting

✅ Review weekly task list

✅ Eat

✅ Take care of my dog

✅ Therapy session

✅ Finish 1 exam

✅ Added article summaries to class notes

What a relief! Now I can hop on Xbox to play with my partner and enjoy my dinner!!

Nothing better than having my dog next to me while I am working hard on my thesis 🩵

P.S. Technically I asked for a cat but got chosen by a dog. I call it fate.

04/04/2025

Had a full-day of workshop and I still have a few more to go... The day hasn't been that bad. Not until I realized how much I got charged for a recent imaging I had to do for my accident 🙃 They say US health insurance sucks, and I cannot agree more. I'm trying to stay positive and keep faith in the Universe, but it's hard when things like this happen. I don't know what more I can do. I don't know how I'm supposed to let go and surrender.

Completed

✅ Workshop ✅ Hangout with my friend ✅ Dinner ✅ Thesis work (30 minutes) ✅ Phone call with partner

To-Do

⏹️ Shower before bed

04/06/2025

I just realized I reblogged my post yesterday to my own account lmao... Still nice to have tracked my study progress nonetheless!

I decided to not go to the workshop today. I just can't. Everyone was complaining about it and I just feel like I need to stay away from it for myself. Like, why stay here and complain all day when you can either accept it for what it is or leave entirely. Sorry, just my brain trying to problem solve for others. My family has always looked down on complaining, so I guess I don't do much of that unless I know I need to vent (probably like now lol).

Anyway, a good time to start getting some work done and taking it easy for the day =)

Completed

✅ Breakfast ✅ Watch Kaichou wa Maid-Sama! ✅ Wash dishes (been slacking off on this hehe) ✅ Shower!! ✅ Check and reply to emails ✅ Register for Fall classes ✌🏻 ✅ Discussion post ✅ Update report writing timeline and email my professor ✅ Create bullet points for thesis ✅ Dinner ✅ Watch cdrama shorts

To-Dos

⏹️ Revise thesis writing ⏹️ File taxes ⏹️ [maybe] Clinic document

Not the most productive day for me, but I think I have been building the consistency I have wanted since the beginning of the year. I am now telling myself that I can be proud of my achievements and hard work even when I do not finish 100% of the tasks. There are different interruptions in life, and we can't control them all. So I choose to be grateful and content when I have tried my best. Let's do this again tmr 🩵

04/09/2025

Started reading this Webtoon called "Ex-Love Review" and I couldn't stop until I can find the latest chapters. So I'm just gonna finish one task and head to bed...

Completed

✅ School ✅ Part-time job ✅ Phone call with partner ✅ Quiz ✅ Dinner ✅ Read Ex-Love Review ✅ Clinic report results x2 (finished in 30 mins?? Amazing!!)

To-Dos

⏹️ Shower (I'm gonna shower in the morning, I promise 🤞🏻)

[End of day: 1:05am] Got more done than I expected, but I definitely neglected some things 😅 I think I'm starting to burn out, which is why I started reading on Webtoon to get a dopamine hit. Need to figure out how I can better rest and do schoolwork at the same time... Good night 🩵

03/29/2025

Ugh March is almost over, and it freaks me out😵‍💫 I feel like this is the first time I don't know exactly how things will go and how I can get through with all my work and wrap up my semester... Maybe I've been here before, but every semester is a blur at this point.

Take it one day at a time, one day at a time. I need to keep repeating this to myself so I don't feel so terrified of the unknown that I run away from everything. Anxiety and stress are no joke.

Anime atm 😍: Earl and Fairy

Completed

✅ Video call with a friend

✅ Breakfast

✅ Surprise party for friends

✅ Watch repair (it took me a year to take it somewhere to fix lol)

✅ Lunch

✅ 1 episode of anime

✅ Group project 1 paper

✅ Rewatch Skip Beat ep 19 (iykyk)

✅ Thesis (1 hours 😊) - I FINALLY DID IT!! SO PROUD!!

To-Dos

⏹️ Group project 2 paper

⏹️ Pay bills

I'm not letting myself go to bed unless I work on my thesis for 2 hours. My phone is locked away, so I know I can get it done. It really doesn't have to feel like a struggle every single day. I have finished harder things in the past 😤

Me with my thesis: