Dropping Off The Internet Again (not Posting Or Responding To Anyone For Probably A Week Again) And Debate

i just realized, I lost my boops as well

slight regret for how deep I cut on my wrist is now setting in

im so tired. again. and again. and again.

he's more worried about his friend after they said "I gtg" and like. okay.

i like to think i make it obvious how im generally doing.

guess I really don't mean shit. :)

i come back after a fucking week and no "what happens "are you okay" or anything from him. fucking bullshit. maybe I should leave again. I'm so tired, upset with everything and everyone. I don't know why I bother with anything.

being pissed while suicidal is leading up to a great idea later tonight

being online but not responding to anyone

current mood is wanting to fucking cry, scream, and rip my skin apart and hair out but actually I'm just sitting doom scrolling or watching youtube letting these feelings sit because you just don't have the will to do any of those things.

my head hurts (from being sick) and is also telling me to do certain things

"Suicide is selfish." I don't care??