WHY IS EVERYTHING SO GODDAMN COMPLICATED AND CONFUSING

i wonder, does my friend actually think I have npd?

not being able to kill myself is the worst feeling

found out bf now has a tumblr through my other blog (he followed it)

better hope he never stumbles onto this side and find this account

i don't know why I just have the urge to avoid and ignore everyone and shut down.

the fact that I sit in the auditorium, in the dark, until the bus. it's a perfect place to cut (because I hate and refuse to go into the bathrooms here)

i just gotta hope the cameras (if there's any in here) don't have night vision.

but I think I may start bringing my blades officially now.

debating to post on my art blog but it's sh art. like, I dunno man, some irl's follow that account.

he's more worried about his friend after they said "I gtg" and like. okay.

i like to think i make it obvious how im generally doing.

guess I really don't mean shit. :)

I'm taking this as a ghosting/breakup. 4 years to nothing I guess.

One day everyone will think I’m just offline for awhile but I’ll be gone