૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 26

Aaa i am so bad at blogging damn. I have been neglecting my tumblr so much im sorry :((

Ngl an ana coach would be nice.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 12

I stayed home, just like yesterday and this pressure of not putting in enough steps for me to feel comfortable was getting too much so I decided go use the treadmill and walk on it for an hour and 50 minutes. It was so good honestly, in the confinement of my own home, comfortable and quiet while I can do whatever as I walk and I don't need to look out for people I would bump into or cars that could hit me.

Sadly as much as I promised myself to eat as little as possible when mom came home, saying she bought some cookies and sweets I caved. I may have mentioned this, I am not one to crave sweet things, especially if it's sticky, full of cream and sugar. Yeah, well to my misfortune everything she brought home was notjing of sort, so I indulged. Lavender cookies, snow crescents, small piece of bundt cake and gingerbread macaroons. I could look for a basic recipe but I doupt I could calculate the correct estimate of calories.

I try not to dwell, thoughts of simply not listing these down had ran through my mind but I would be only lying to my own self.

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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (lemon & ginger) - 118 cal

➁ Green apples 326g - 189 cal

➂ Eggs 130g - 186 cal

Water - 1,6l/2l

Full - 493 cal

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Steps - 11781/10000 - 476 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 476 cal

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Since September wasn't my month I decided that in october i would track all my intake and everything else here.

I did fail myself and today on top of that I ate like a pig because I was consume with this hunger. So many unnecessary calories, so many things I don't even like and yet I still ate it.

I could cry, but I'm no bitch. Sure I failed and I have these silly little downs and thoughts that just push me to eat, I know in the end it will be okay. I just need to be better and forgive myself when I slip.

Therefore, october will be my month.

me to me:

don’t you dare fucking quit! You’re literally almost there!! You got what 4 more hours left in your fast?? Don’t be a chicken shit and just do it!!! Do stop don’t stop don’t stop!!! You gotta fucking want it!!! You don’t wanna keep going?? Then why the fuck did you start to begin with?! Push like you fucking mean it!! Don’t you dare eat that!! Just a few more hours don’t wuss out!

You coward!!

I JUST REACHED MY FIRST GW!!!! AAAAA

So new years! Yippee! Things are gonna get better and I will be skinnier.

Fuck me for being so bad at everything lmaooo