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Omg I’m so sorry for the inconsistency😭 was feeling rlly shitty about my body and felt like a fraud for attempting to be so disciplined. In summary I chewed and spit a lot of sweets and junk but I found a scale and came out to be 104.9 tonight!

Food Log: 9/14

Hey everyone! I’ve let myself go a lot over the summer from being in IOP but now I’m motivated to get back to my lw, or maybe even my ugw :) So, I’m gonna start tracking my food each day and upload it here, as well as do some fasting

Breakfast:

Sugar-free Gum (5 cal)

Black Coffee (15 cal)

20 cals

Lunch:

skipped

Dinner:

Tilapia Fish (218 cal)

Broccoli (31 cal)

Cauliflower Rice (35 cal)

284 cals

Total: 304 cals

would today technically be an OMAD? Or does black coffee break a fast idk😭 I was aiming for a fast today but lmk if I made any errors here

hey, does anyone know of any positive pro 4na forms (as positive as a pro 4na form can be)

I’ve been trying to find one with a good community where people can figure there shit out together

I really just want a place where I can talk to people about struggles and talk to people who have been through similar experiences without the toxicity of Twitter, and more directly interactive than Tumblr.

Anyway, comment or message me if you know any good ones <3

I find that one of the worst things about fasting is that I constantly feel sick. yet when I do eat, I can't keep it down. I get so nauseous even when I drink water, but watching the numbers on the scale drop makes it all worth it 😊

Fооd is fuel, not something to enjoy, remember?

Is 500 c@l too much?

⭐️ing yourself feels like addiction

Lost 3lbs in one week omg!! Im so happy!!

Obviously its easier now because i just relapsed after a year of not caring, so it will inevitably plateau, buttttt im happy for now!!!

✨💗D r a c u l a u r a inspired th!nspo 💗✨

I want to start doing these type of posts because i love making moodboards and they distract me from eating (also romanticizing my ed is the only way i can live lol)

If u have requests please send them!!

* please block if triggered*

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 26

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➀ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Monster energy zero - 14 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna, corn and light mayo - 211 cal

➀ Tortilla with tuna, corn, broccoli, cheese and tomato sauce - 386 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 611 cal

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Steps - 9482/10000 - 381 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 381 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 25

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apple 309g - 180 cal

➀ Tortilla with with tuna and corn - 545 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 725 cal

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Steps - 8698/10000 - 353 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 353 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 24 + WEEK SUMMARY

I was so absent gah daym. I binge watched trigun again then watched trigun stampede and grrr the brainrot was so real and strong (curse you knives for being so crazy and yet so appealing for my brain) and quite honestly I just didn't bother to write logs.

The whole week been really chill, mostly spent my time at home mainly because I got kinda ill...for a day lmao. After that I was just kinda tired all day so I stayed in bed, only woke up to do my nails, which took me 4 days btw because Im not a professional and I wanted it to be perfect.

So yes, I only logged my food down in the tracker and wasted away. Makes me kinda sad, kinda guilty but at the same time it is what it is.

AlsonI noticed that now it's not as hot and warm outside so my body doesn't "crave" water so I forget to drink and that's not good. It makes me hungry and bored so I often catch myself wandering in the kitchen, opening and closing the fridge door to see if my stomach wants anything other than meat, veggies and fruits. Not too big on eating carbohydrates and if I can I will avoid it even tho my body supposedly needs it. (I was a hypocrite today tho I craved rice and gave)

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 350ml - 0 cal

➁ Green apples 287g - 166 cal

➁ Eggs 106g - 152 cal

➁ Bowl of Basmati rice with tuna, corn and broccoli - 700 cal

Water - 1.6l/2l

Full - 1018 cal

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Steps - 10217/10000 - 410 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 420 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 17

Waking up early is never a pleasant thing, since family is home and they remind me to pack food. Fortunately my mom gives a lift to my brother who starts really early, so she wasn't be able to force me to bring food and my sister and father doesn't really care.

It was so cold today I could see my breath in the air. My dumbass also forgot to pack handcream into my bag because my hands dry out because of the chilly air, so much that it's starts to cut up or something. I could wear gloves sure, but it feels restricting.

Alsoo! I weighed myself in the morning and I was 73.5kg! When I was talking with my best friend I could see it on my face an neck how much thinner it is already so I am really happy.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (lemon) 300ml - 0 cal

➂ Green apples - 291 cal

➁ Homemade margherita pizza - 204 cal

Water - 1.7l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 8249/10000 - 330 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 330 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 16

Today was surprisingly really cold, but fortunately not as cold to have the winter coat out just yet.

Other than going to school and coming home, nothing really note worthy happened.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➁ Boiled eggs with hot sauce - 156 cal

➁ Green apples - 139 cal

➀ Tuna with hot sauce and light mayo 62g - 134 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 429 cal

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Steps - 8973/10000 - 359 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 359 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 15

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Green apple - 78 cal

➀ Boiled egg - 72 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 150 cal

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Steps - 10391/10000 - 419 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 419 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 14

Mom asked me to accompany her to give my sister a lift to uni and while driving back we stopped to pick up a package and to buy some ribbons for my halloween costume. I decided to look for cute plates, mainly heart shaped ones and although I did find two types, one was too deep and big -also had blood on it so I had go scrub and sanitise my hands raw because I felt icky - and the other was too shallow for me. Unfortunately I didn't buy a cute plate but a basic small ceramic one.

I love how the trees are colorful, how chilly yet somehow warm it is in autumn. I could wear my current favourite sweater and pants that are now big on me a bit. Mom always tells me that I am getting really skinny and I love the attention I get from other people.

Oh! Also I am finally at my lowest weight in 5 years! Still high, but it is going down surely and I am addicted.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Basmati rice with tuna, broccoli and peas 200g - 466 cal

➀ Banana - 62 cal

Water - 1.4l/2l

Full - 528 cal

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Steps - 6394/10000 - 259 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 259 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 11

Broke my 60 hour fast with some tuna today. (To be honest I don't remember what exactly I wanted to note down, because I am writing this on the 13th so im sorry)

I really want to restrain myself from snacking on things while I cook and/or bake, because I ate so many seedless cherries, what wouldn't be a problem, but they were kept in a sugary water that preserves the cherries for longer and ugh. I don't even know how I should estimate that.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Tuna with tomatoes - 157 cal

➅ Shrimp chips 13g - 45 cal

➀ Cinnamon roll - 199 cal

➃ Choco-coconut balls - 431 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 832 cal

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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 281 cal

Someone please keep me in check when I am fasting

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 10

I started my red days today and feel really poopie right now. Fortunately we have strong medicine for cramps at home so I will live. I fasted down the weight I put in during the weekend but now I have a feeling that it may or may not have been because of the approach of my period. It doesn't really matter.

Been craving garlic cream soup for a while now, but since its a cream soup I'm sure it's full of unnecessary calories that I don't need rn. Plus I would be too lazy to cook it so im better off fasting.

My sister asked me if I wanted to try her lavender green tea she bought and I was stupid enought to put some sugar substitute (0 cal) and a bit of lemon juice in it, even though I am used to drink plain tea.

Also I have been thinking that I should start working out but I really hate the feeling of sweat on my body, so I'm gonna look for something that is not too tiring for the mornings and not too time consuming.

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➁ Plain black coffee 200ml - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Lavender green tea 450ml - 0 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 0 cal

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Steps - 6953/10000 - 281 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 281 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 9

Been fasting all day, yippee! It was really cold today and had to wear a sweater and a jumper over it and both of them felt looser.

Tomorrow will be a bit warmer fortunately, but overall I am glad that autumn is finally showing up, even though it was kinda late this year.

I also went shopping with mom and I saw so so SO many nice knitted sweaters. I always like just trying clothes on or just looking at the colors, feeling the fabric, trying to find the best kind of material. I uses to buy XXL clothes to feel comfortable in, to feel that they are lose on my body. This time I bought an XL and it felt loose and comfortable, even though I only lost 5kg so far.

I also bought hairdye with my classmate and dyed my hair from a poopie blonde and greenish blue to a color that matches Hatchi's haircolor. My ends stayed a lilac color because the blue stained my hair pretty bad, but it's fine because I will dye my hair until it fades or comes out.

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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea 250ml (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

Water - 1.2l/2l

Full - 0 cal

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Steps - 11499/10000 - 462 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 462 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER'S FIRST WEEKEND/WEEK SUMMARY

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Unfortunately I did not finish my fast, nor did I held back on "binging". I went out with my friends and slept over at my best friend's house who kept feeding me because she doesn't want me to be hungry even tho I told her that I am not, then when her mother came home she made sure I ate again so yes.

I appreciate them, because they are so nice and caring, but how can I keep up my plans if they want to disrupt it along with my family.

Fortunately I am home and tomorrow is monday. I forgot to buy a pass for trams so I will be walking everywhere this month, whether I like it or not.

I'd like to get better, as in try not to beak fasts because I have a sudden urge to binge or because I crave something, or because of family. Sure there are instances when you simply just cannot refuse because it would be suspicious.

Anyhow, this week was kind of a failure, but it's fine. I try and that matters. I reached my first gw this week, even though the weekend made me gain 1.5kg back, so that was one success.

For the next upcoming week, I wanna loose at least what I gained back, then 2kg more. That is what seems realistic as for now.

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૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 5.

As happy as I was in the morning, I broke my fast of 42 hours because of a bowl of pasta and few pieces of broccoli. Then later my mom informed me that we are having pizza for dinner, even tho I deliberately asked her not to tempt me and allow me to get weak when I say I crave a certain thing.

In the end it was fine, I restarted my fast an hour or two later and now I am fasting through friday and the majority of saturday.

I am still really weak when it comes to certain food and that's fine. I know that my willpower is not the best but it's getting better.

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➀ Plain black coffee - 0 cal

➂ Slices of pizza - 612 cal

➀ Spagetti pasta and broccoli with thousand island dressing and hot sauce 225g - 272 cal + 108 cal

➀ Hell energy drink 250ml (ginger & lemon) - 47 cal

Water - 1,7l/2l

Full - 1042 cal

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Steps - 8335/10000 - 335 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 335 cal

I JUST REACHED MY FIRST GW!!!! AAAAA

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 4.

I am 24 hours (I am logging this the next day on the 5th, but once 10pm hit on the 4th it was the 24 hour mark) in my fast and so far I am feeling well! I cooked risotto for my family today and it was so tempring to eat but i needed to steel myself. Been craving garlic cream soup tho all week ao far and maybe next week I will make some.

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➁ Plain black coffee - 0 cal

➁ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

Water - 2.3l/2l

Full - 0 cal

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Steps - 8284/10000 - 334 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 334 cal

I noticed yesterday that creame colored flare jeans were looser on me than last time and I am really happy.

Same with my mom fit kinda jeans and my fave pink sweater. It is exhilarating to notice these things.

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 3.

Fasting through the day didn't happen because I binged lmao. Not with some really tempting food but with fish and eggs because they are my safe food and I like them a lot LOT, so I just couldn't help myself. I also realized that I quite like carbonara too even though for long I just couldn't even eat it because of the "weird" (at least for me it was) taste. Kinda ashamed, but as long as I stay under 1200 cals in the end (with how much I burnt) I am content.

Today was a long ass day too and I am exhausted. I made a promise to myself that I am fasting through tomorrow and the day after, plus my best friend is coming home this weekend and I need to prepare to hang out and drink with her, so three day fast it is.

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➃ Fish and eggs sandwiches - 576 cal

➀ Hell energy drink (lemon & ginger) - 117 cal

➀ Choccochino (200ml) - 117 cal

➂ Pickwick green tea (250ml) (strawberry & lemongrass) - 0 cal

➀ Small bowl of carbonara (220g) - 437 cal

Water - 1.5l/2l

Full - 1247 cal

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Steps - 7868/10000 - 316cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 316 cal

૮ฅ・ﻌ・აฅ OCTOBER 1.

Weekends with family is always much harder than just normal weekdays because my mom likes to keep tab if I ate or not and she ususally wants us to eat together, which is fine because it was an OMAD day anyways.

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➁ Hell energy (ginger & lemon) - 117.5 ≈ 118 cal

➀ Sweet bun burger - approx. 524 cal

➀ Pickwick green tea (strawberry & lemon grass) - 0 cal

➀ Green apple (side to the burger) - 82 cal

Water - 2.4l/2l

Full - 842 cal

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Steps - 7190/10000 - 288 cal

Exercise - No - 0 cal

Burned - 288 cal

How can I trigger the honeymoon phase again😭😭

I wanna tear every fat part off of my body.