Somehow, I Still Love You More.

Filled with rage

I have an upset stomach and little girls despondent laughter sounds louder on stage

Choke me just enough for me to breathe so I stay engaged

Ticking Tok on the clock, you're an ethereal timepiece in this age

Turn me over like a page do me like that when you’re offstage

While your fans fight to be front row in the barricade

I know they’d kill for this exchange

I'm off the rails some may call me deranged but I'm just off my meds

Living a teenage rampage drugged with your love

Will we last or be another short story?

You cry, outraged at the thought of me leaving estranged, so you keep me in range

Afraid I'll let go when the feeling subsides

I left my shoes in the street so you could carry me

Don't worry, darling, you have my heart in a cage

You're the lighthouse in the middle of this enraged storm

Filled with love

Oh, how badly I want to curse you for everything you’ve done to me. But I can’t… You were supposed to be someone who protected me and covered my ears and eyes from the evil in the world. Instead, you were my nightmares. I still cry myself to sleep. All my memories of you are clouded, dark, grey, and hazy, yet it feels like it happened yesterday. I hate you, but I so badly want to love you. It kills me to know that I'll never have that with you. I honestly believe you hated me ever since I was a child. I feel pathetic. I've just spent the whole night crying. I never know when to let go. A couple of months ago, I broke down crying in front of you while you sat there emotionless, and it looked honestly like you were forcing yourself to cry. Crocodile tears. You never fail to make it about you. I told you I almost ended myself, and you acted like I was telling a joke. You never deserved me. You never loved me.

I don't know what to do anymore

I'm crying day and night

Yet still somehow I have the will to wake up on the

Last third of the night

To pray for your health and safety

Please give me a sign

I'm lost please find me

I love him

Everytime I try to forget you, god brings me back to you everytime

I love you

It hurts

It won't stop

I've prayed

Instead, my heart yearns harder than before

I love you

It's you

It's always been you

Only you

Always you

Sometimes I don't know why I'm crying

I say i miss you but I've never met you

I don't know you

And you don't know me

But I can feel it in heart and soul

That one day we’ll meet

That we’re destined to be together before everything was written before the beginning of time

My angel

My love

I can't wait for hello

I can't wait to feel your touch

I can't wait to be in your warm embrace

One day instead of my poems or letter

Being written on here

I'll write to you

I only look for you

Only you

I only yearn for you

Only you

I only wait for you

Only you

I only pray for you

Only you

I only love you

Only you

I can't wait to met you

My Muse

My other half

I love you

Call out to me

When you’re ready I'll be there

Waiting for you

Till we meet again, my love.

I go to sleep to the thought of you. One day we will meet, and I will love you forever. My one and only. My other half. My Muse. My love.

Took you like a shot, thought that I could chase

You with a cold evening.

Let a couple years water down

how I'm feeling about you

You could break my heart in two

But when it heals it beats for you

I know it's forward but its true

I wanna hold you when I'm not supposed to

You're stuck in my head

and I can't get you out of it

If I could do it all again

I know I'd go back to you

You know my thoughts are

running loose

It's just a thing you make me do

And I could fight but what’s the use

Won't lie, I'd go back to you.

My moon.

My hairs stand tall from the thought of you

You fill the empty space once filled with tears

This burdened soul can not house another

My heart is heavy and stained with pain

You look at me with bleeding eyes, mine colder than ice

Emotionless but you make me feel alive

But I'm still distant in confined solitude

I want to see your point of view

Maybe then I could love me too

You're crescent moon eyes and crooked front teeth are my favourite

Never hide that beautiful smile

It brings light to my day

My Muse

However many cold winters and hot summers go by, I'll wait for you patiently. However many tears I cry, I'm reminded my love for you will never wither or dry. However many nights I cry myself to sleep, someday you'll replace them with smiles and endless laughter until we fall asleep in each other's arms. However, for now, until forever.

I can't stop crying. I cry, cry, cry and cry untill my eyes are sore but you're never a bore. So I'll cry till dawn and pray to god on my knees to answer my call. For you, my love. Please, be mine.

I fall in love with the little things, like the sound of your laugh; it makes me feel so warm inside.