STUPID BMI CALCULATOR KEEPS TELLING ME IM HEALTHY

Update on the sushi situation from last night, I did end up eating it and something else which I deeply regret although if my calculations were right with the sushi I did stay under 500 cals. I hate how easily I gave into desire, I feel like I have no discipline whatsoever. To make up for breaking my fast early I’m going to fast for the entire weekend and maybe Monday, and work out even harder. God I hate myself.

I’m actually in disbelief of how much weight I’ve managed to put on in the past couple of days, I don’t think I’ve ever looked fatter in my life like even at my highest weight so I must have managed to gain at least 5-7kg since Monday night. I’m especially concerned because I’ve already purged and taken 20+ laxatives in the past couple hours and the bloating hasn’t gone down at all so it must be legitimate weight.

I’m hoping that my laxatives kick in soon and that I’m able to digest a large amount of the binge remnants in my sleep because if I look the same tomorrow I’m genuinely gonna cancel the dinner party plans and just rot in my room and fast.

Oh my god I binged so hard at that sleepover I feel sickly full, I’m sure I’ve gone straight back up to 53kg.

As of tomorrow I will be fasting until Wednesday, then going back to 400 max a day.

Feeling very fat and fake today, it’s 1pm and I’ve only taken 3,500 steps today when I would usually be at least at 6000 by now. I’ve had an energy drink and I look so bloated. I’m not good enough, not sick enough, and all I want to do is cry and fast but I have fucking work.

OMFG I KNEW I FORGOT SOMETHING AT THE SHOPS I’ve ran out of laxatives ☹️☹️

God I’m so disappointed in myself, I ate over my calorie limit. I mean to be fair I haven’t binged and I’m still under 1000 calories so it could be worse but I’m still upset I feel so fake and undisciplined.

GUYS I MADE IT INTO THE BMI 17’S LETS GOOO 💪💪

My prayers have been answered I lost a kilo overnight, laxatives what would I do without you🙏🙏

Now I’m only 0.7kg away from my pre binge weight, Im gonna work my ass off today and take even more laxatives so hopefully I can lose as much if not more than I did today and wake up at a new LW !!

I’ve consumed 250 calories of essentially liquid, burned 330 and have taken 15+ laxatives if I don’t shit absolutely everything out of my system and wake up a kilogram lighter istg I will jump into oncoming traffic.

My legs absolutely disgust me.

On another happier note though THE BINGE PASSED THROUGH ME AND IM DOWN TO 51kg AGAIN AMEN HALLELUJAH