My First Ghibli Redraw!

Is it okay to want to die?

I’ve fucked up enough, it only seems fair

I don’t want to hurt anyone I love anymore

I thought I was doing okay

I thought things were okay

My mind makes it feel like everything is fine even when it’s obvious that things aren’t

I struggle so much with trying to survive

I focus too much on what makes me happy because keeping me happy keeps me here

But doing that hurts the ones I love

I neglect them

I hurt them

Over

And over again

I don’t want to do it anymore

I don’t want to hurt them

I don’t want to hurt me

If I die I won’t hurt them

I’ll only hurt them once more

One final time

And then it’ll be over and I’ll never hurt them again

It’s becoming a more welcoming thought

A thought I wish to indulge

Make it reality

But I’m afraid

I’m a fucking coward

Is it okay to want to die if it means I won’t hurt them anymore?

I don’t really have anywhere else I can confess this and I feel bad because I’m going to therapy but I’m still so goddamn sad. But what I wanna say is that I fucking hate who I am, I feel like my friends could easily move on if I died. And it’s got a lot to do with the fact that they don’t ever message them first. SB is being so off with me and it’s fucking hurtful because we were like closer than family and I don’t know what I did wrong. If I didn’t message my friends first they likely wouldn’t message me of their own volition, the only one I think who really puts in the same effort as me is Hakuna, she’s literally the only one who puts in effort to message me first and care. I know that my friends are adults and that they do care for me and they’re busy with their lives, but I can’t remember the last time someone (one of my friends) messaged me first or asked if I was okay or told me they loved me or that things would be okay. I’m such a pathetic mess and I hate who I’ve become. I used to have such a spark in myself, I was happy and bubbly both inside and out. Now I’m just bubbly outside and a fucking broken, ugly, disgusting mess on the inside. I’m not posting this to gain sympathy or attention or whatever the fuck, I’m posting this so that if I’m alive in a year I can look back and laugh at how low my life was and be thankful that it got better. Please please get better I can’t live like this anymore I’m fucking tired.

True #love #Jesus

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Wife: “I just got stung by a jellyfish. quick, pee on it!”

Husband: [peeing on jellyfish] “This is for stinging my wife.”

Just wanted to post my art on here☺️

It’s kind of scary how easy it is to tell people you’re okay and have them 100% believe you. It always makes me wonder, am I just that good at convincing people that I’m doing okay or do people just not care? Am I being pathetic in hoping someone will notice I’m screaming my head off while smiling at them? But how is telling them I’m not okay going to solve anything? It’s probably just a phase. It’ll go away. No need to bother anyone. Yeah, I didn’t bother anyone last year about it so I won’t do that now.

Crying is healthy and so is dreaming, but crying because of a dream isn't healthy....

Brannon Zamile tehini

That's one ugly baby #haha

Women of the Eternal (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/UiNb/tl5qMpMy1J 

 History. It's what shapes us, makes us who we are. We learn from it, we embrace it, and without it, we are nothing. It creates destinies for those who are yet to be born, forming their lives before their first breath. However, there are those who do not wish for their history to be known so they lock it away for no one to see, and soon it becomes forgotten. This can cause the many born of that generation to lose sight of who they could truly become, creating blank sheets for the darkness to stain. Nora was one such person, born of a generation whose history was hidden away for her own safety. A history so rich in mystery, and betrayal, that one mistake, made generations before her time, could fatally impact her entire existence and the past that she didn't even know existed. Now it is time for Nora to find her family's long-forgotten, hidden secrets and face the enemies that could potentially be her very own blood.