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AUTISTIC ZEDEX SUPREMACY!!!!

Specifically:

1. Ex with evil autism /hj aka, resting bitch face bc he doesn't know how to do expressions properly, no empathy/ability to put oneself in another person's shoes, has rlyyy frequent meltdowns which basically look like anger outbursts, doesn't understand hierarchy or social norms (bc he only knows evil >:D)

And thus Ex can come of as rly mean and disrespectful

2. Zed with crazy scientist autism /hj aka, masks a LOT so he started observing ppls behaviors from a rlyyy young age + has autism made him feel alienated from other ppl and a bit nonhuman/different + really intense spin in psychology = he sees all human beings as his test subjects :3333 (season 8 zed my beloved <2222)

Zed's really high masking, but despite his efforts he doesn't understand social norms fully, so he still shows the wrong reactions to things sometimes. For example, he rants a lot about his spins n doesn't realize when ppl get bored of it, he misunderstands sarcadm, he has overly exaggerated expressions, etc.

And thus Zed like a rly excited and passionate, but also incredibly weird and lowkey menacing/off putting scientist.

The big differences between them is that Zed rly loves socializing (even tho he rly struggles with it) and ex hates it. Zed is constantly ranting about his spins (mainly psychology or engineering) meanwhile ex just stares at people menacingly bc he doesn't wanna talk to them.

They also have p diff coping mechanisms:

Zed is, as mentioned, high masking and uses his spins to cope. (cause psychology lets him understand ppl better and thus mask better)

Meanwhile Ex has been alienated and misunderstood his whole life and never rly managed to mask properly. Instead he internalized the abelism he faced and leaned into the whole 'evil' persona

[context: i have autism and im projecting onto zed and ex]

Also: join the evil x discord

"Ranboo probably has adhd" "Ranboo probably has autism"

No. Ranboo is an allistic/neurotipical person written by autistic people.

Yes. Some autistic people can pay taxes, write poems, live an independent life, etc.

But some of us cant. Some of us, like me, cant live independently. Cant be without someone. Cant be a member of society without extreme accommodation and help.

I need help in everyday life. I have a caregiver for gods sake. I need help in everyday life and will never be independent. It’s frustrating to constantly get comments about how autistic people can live independently. Cause some of us cant, and that needs to be talked about. I get sores from not showering enough. I get sores from my wheelchair. I have cavities from not brushing my teeth enough.

Life with higher support needs shouldn’t be something that is ignored and not talked about. My caregiver helps me live life as independently as possible. Independence looks different for everyone. Our caregivers are an extension of ourselves. Our caregivers are important and should be recognized. Stop throwing us under the bus for your “salvation”

We are all at risk, and throwing higher support needs people under the bus will not benefit you. You’re ruining years of advocacy by your words and videos.

YALL I JUST TOOK THOSE 4 LIKE AUTISM TESTS ON THAT ONE WEBSITE MOST PEOPLE GO TO SELF DIAGNOSE CAUSE OUR CURRENT SYSTEM IS KINDA ASS AT DIAGNOSING PEOPLE WHO ARE WHITE MEN AND I GOT THAT IM PRETTY MUCH CONFIRMED AUTISTIC ON ALL OF THEM????

I wanna format my infodumps into video essays but I know my ADHD would make me lose interest after 1 hour

oh god, absolutely constantly. it's always have you tried yoga, and i have to say "well, justvlike the first sixty times you asked, yes i have, and no, it didn't cure me. that's not how it works." im a lazy ingrate for having to take bed days, and im giving in to my weakness for using a cane. it's the most insulting, invalidating, hurtful bullshit ever. and when it comes from family it's so much more painful because they should be able to see how much you struggle to do the things they constantly recommend

is anyone else with chronic and mental illness constantly lectured by everyone in their life about what they need to be doing to "improve" their life?

I'm just so tired of it. Every doctor, every family member, even my in laws now I'm just constantly told what I need to do better and reminded how I'm not good enough/not doing enough

How do you calm down when excited? (asking for advice)

Okay, so, I figured I'd ask my fellow autistics for advice.

So I may be seeing my special interest irl at some point. But it's like... I physically cannot view content of the special interest without having to jump up and hand flap while running around my room. Even thinking about it triggers it. I just love it so much. It makes me that happy.

But I have no idea how I will manage it in public, while looking at my f***ing special interest right there in my face. I seriously think I'll have a heart attack for something. The happiness will just be... Aggghhhh I can't even explain it in words.

So, what can I do to try to calm myself so I don't explode when I see them? Preferably nothing too obvious because my family will be there and I don't want to embarrass or shock them by stimming. I know I'll be sweating and blushing like mad.

TLDR: I might be seeing something that makes me VERY happy and I need to know ways to calm down that would be somewhat socially acceptable.

I just broke the dish I eat out of. I feel awful. I want to find the exact same, but I know I won't be able to do so. I don't know what's I'm going to do without an eating plate.

I just tasted the nitro Pepsi I bought while in the USA and it was so good. It was just ever so slightly carbonated and it was perfect sensory-wise.

It is going to become my once in a while treat because it's too expensive. Especially compared to here in Mexico where I can buy a 2 liter bottle of regular Pepsi with the coast of one can of nitro Pepsi.

I feel that this reads like an ad, but I swear it's not I just have strong feelings towards the drink.

I'm going to dream about that soda.

Do any other autistic or adhd people relate to like, feeling scared of losing a hyperfixation or special interest? Like, its this thing that means so much to me and makes me so happy and the idea of not enjoying it anymore scares me in a way, i guess.

Saw a post and it really got me thinking.

The post was talking about why don’t lower support needs, higher masking individuals even believe that higher support needs, low masking, “severely autistic” people, exist. And that got me really thinking. Because, I do think they know we exist. I just don’t think they want too.

I don’t think they want to know we exist. They know we exist, but keep us on the back burner. They live in ignorance bliss of us. I have what some people would think of as severe autism. Im nonverbal (although nonverbal later in life. But outside people don’t care about that. They see nonverbal as nonverbal), I’m intellectually disabled, need help in everyday life, etc. but I’m in the middle. I’m moderate support needs. To me, I’m not severely autistic. But to society, I am considered and seen as severely autistic because society doesn’t have the understanding of moderate autism yet. They don’t understand it. And I’ve seen more times than I can count that severe autism doesn’t exist. Not because they don’t believe in severe autism the label itself because it’s “harmful” but because they don’t believe that it’s just caused by autism. They often believe that’s it’s caused by comorbidities. Like ID, or cerebral palsy, or apraxia/dyspraxia, or mobility issues, or genetic conditions, and so on. Although none of this is bad.

They believe that autism itself can’t create severe autism. Which…isn’t true. Before, it was believed that severe autism was the only type of autism. That it was the only type that existed and if you weren’t severely autistic then you weren’t autistic. Then more research happened, then social media happened, and now..white, lower support needs, high masking, late diagnosed individuals are the majority of what’s being centered. And, that isn’t bad. We need awareness of all autism. But when one type of autism gets centered, it becomes a problem. It becomes the new norm. It becomes what everyone expects out of autism now. Which, isn’t true. Autism all of all types and traits exists. Autism of all support needs exists.

When people say severe autism doesn’t exist, they’re ignoring and saying that a BIG percentage of autistic people don’t exist. They’re saying that we aren’t real. That we aren’t on the internet, or in the communities they live in, or in their schools, or whatever. We’re everywhere. Severe autism is still a thing. It isn’t a misdiagnosis. It isn’t from comorbities, although if someone’s autism is more severe from comorbidities then that isn’t bad.

I think a lot of people need to be more aware of severe autism. And not just severe autism like me or my mutuals, or the people you see here on tumblr. But the ones with even MORE severe autism. The ones who live in group homes, residentials, institutions, and so on. The ones who aren’t on the internet. The ones who aren’t here blogging about their lives. We need to be aware of them too. We need to believe they exist, and believe that their autism is real.

Don’t erase severe or profound autism.