This Made Me Cry - Blog Posts

happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!

I think it’s very painful for Shadow that, in the end, Maria didn’t even die from her illness, but from an accident. Perhaps he really could have been her salvation, could have freed her from her affliction. But fate was against them.

you are sam winchester and everyone you love ends up dead because of you. your mother burns on the ceiling. your girlfriend burns on the ceiling. your college friends were puppets planted there for you. the people underneath the demons are long gone. your brother stabs your childhood friend. you get reunited with an old flame. she chokes in front of you. a gift to you. a message to you. you are responsible for your loved ones dying. you meet a hunter and she gives you hope that you could build something real and lasting, but she is killed and you know it was your fault. she would have been fine if she hadn't met you. she comes back and gets taken away again. you're destined to kill the one person who's ever understood you in your entirety with no judgment. you still think about jessica. your hell is right here you are cursed to kill and kill and kill.

you are dean winchester and your loved ones keep killing themselves for you. they die and they die and they die and it's all for you. not just because of but for you. offerings of devotion that make you want to repay the favor but you keep springing back up like a grotesque clown in a box. your curse is to keep on living and living, carrying them within you. an altar stained with their sacrifice. an obscene fire sustained against your will by the corpses of your loved ones.

Lets talk about the Fellowship for a second. They’re all kinda outcasts, all very different from the rest of their races or family. Lets dig a little deeper into each one, looking at both their movie and book selves.

Frodo: Frodo’s an orphan, his parents drown and he went to live with Bilbo. Bilbo was already thought of as weirdo by the other hobbits because of his adventure, so Frodo, they thought, must be just as odd. Also movie Frodo is much to thin to be considered pretty by hobbit standers and both Frodos are a bit to adventurous.

Sam: Not much to say here, as Sam is an exemplary hobbit. His looks are hobbity enough and he enjoys gardening. The two things that set him apart are, his desire to meet the elves, and, of course, his association with the Baggins.

Merry: Merry is a Brandybuck, which are not all that respectable to the hobbits of Hobbiton, they go out in boats after all. Also he and Pippin definitely are a bit adventurous for hobbits.

Pippin: Pippin is very curious, and curiosity leads to adventure. He is a Took, an outcast from the hobbits of Hobbiton. Like I said befor, he and Merry are definitely a bit adventurous for hobbits.

Aragorn: Aragron is a ranger, lives on the outskirts of civilization. As we see in Bree, people are a bit afraid of him, he’s just too odd, too different. Aragorn also lived in Rivendell, but he was a man among elves, also too different. He’s too human for the elves, yet to elven for the humans.

Legolas: Legolas is the prince of Mirkwood. His father is Thranduil, who, after the death of his wife, turns cold and distant. Legolas also associates himself with humans, unlike the other Mirkwood elves.

Gimli: Gimli is entirely respectable before the quest. I can’t really think of any thing to say about him. (edit: Milkywhoreos is corenct, Gimli is to diplomatic and poetic.)

Boromir: Boromir is respected and loved by Gondor, but his family life? He probably had to raise his brother and loves him more than anything, but his father is a big jerk.

Gandalf: Do I even have to say anything here? Gandalf is completely bonkers (But, like, in a good way.)

So, in conclusion? Each member of the Fellowship was practically alone before they found each other. They had small, broken or non-existing families, and/or were un-liked by others. Then they found these other alone people, and said “I didn’t really have anyone, and they all didn’t ether. But now we got each other, and I don’t care if you’re an elf, or a dwarf, or a hobbit,or a wizard,or a human, we’re now family.” They didn’t have family, so they found one.

in the blackest of rooms

Laika's still up there. not her body, sure, but her soul is. i saw it through my telescope one night when i was looking for aliens. she was sniffing for table scraps under saturn's ring. she chases comets and bites down on satellites. i saw her napping by neptune, she was kicking her feet. passing through the oort cloud is like the stroke of a hand on her fur. eyes like marbles and four little paws like flames. she bobs through jupiter's moons like cold moscow streets. up there the stars are a great big field. and look, she's running so fast. god damn, look at her go.