If I Actually Cry This Year It Might Be Because Of This Pain. Cause Holy Fuck. I Am In Pain.

current mood is wanting to fucking cry, scream, and rip my skin apart and hair out but actually I'm just sitting doom scrolling or watching youtube letting these feelings sit because you just don't have the will to do any of those things.

my head hurts (from being sick) and is also telling me to do certain things

can I really call this crying? when all that happens is my eyes well up with water and only one or two tears fall and they don't even make it far before it stops.

Fucking hate when others look at me.

Do not perceive me. I wasn’t made to be noticed. Im nothing to look at.

yeah so, I got got. I knew it would happen eventually but still feels like being hit by a semi

gonna try to tag everyone I can remember

@love-stuck @sewerslidalfaggot @grimnmm @pinkbunnieskill @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @emandcries @gruesomeghost-boy @ima-end-itt @soontobe-onlyamemory @aloneshecries @thebpdcrybaby (i cant remember some properly, I'm sorry)

dropping off the Internet again (not posting or responding to anyone for probably a week again) and debate suicide