My Thoughts When Someone Says "I Love You" Is Just

all I keep thinking is

fuck you

and

i hate you

introductions!

hi, first off, this is a major TW account. mainly sh and sui. if you're not comfortable, then please. get out. i do not encourage this behavior, im simply venting and screaming my thoughts and actions. i don't intend to get better. i am also not a good person, by any standards, morally and mentally.

I am 19 yrs

disc- decayed.forest

identity? no. | somehow I have two partners (A & Z) which I dont get how

i kin music so much -> aWannabe, Original God, Rivilin, Rebzyyx, Max Fry

bpd, depression, severe anxiety and social skill issues, adhd, idfk and idc. questioning aspd and szpd I don't know what's going on anymore

things I like -> classic and supercars, Minecraft, Skyrim, gore, blood, crp, cof

DNI: 13 and under - 40 and over. religious bs. ed/sh groups. generally free with anyone interacting

i wonder, does my friend actually think I have npd?

yeah so, I got got. I knew it would happen eventually but still feels like being hit by a semi

gonna try to tag everyone I can remember

@love-stuck @sewerslidalfaggot @grimnmm @pinkbunnieskill @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @emandcries @gruesomeghost-boy @ima-end-itt @soontobe-onlyamemory @aloneshecries @thebpdcrybaby (i cant remember some properly, I'm sorry)

failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure failure

i want him back i want him back i want him back i want him back i want him back i want him back i want him back

i feel like I'm losing my mind the more days that go by without a response from him

it's affecting how I'm treating our other partner

it's affecting me responding to others

i swear im losing my mind, I just want him to come back. I fucking hate his mom for grounding him for so long. why does she have to do that. fuck her. i just want my boyfriend back before I end up offing myself.

discovering my bf followed my Spotify. uh, well, okay. gotta set my settings so it doesn't show him when and that I'm listening to music.

high on anxiety my thoughts make no sense and too many too fast wanna find a way to get a gun and shoot myself or I'll just try od-ing when I get home

i hate this I hate this I hate this

I need someone to just talk anything and random nonsense to or I feel like I'll explode maybe im just overwhelmed but I'm also really pissed today

fuck people I hate them I hate them all

i don't know what I wanna do I don't know what to do I wanna just spill blood or random thoughts

brotha, shut up shut up quit telling your boyfriend you basically have a secret account

“So like you, I'll end my suffering

Cause you rape and you take it all away

Cause you rape and you take it all away

Fuck you”