In Love With My Teacher - Blog Posts

27/12/22

so i’m seeing her next week :)

she replied ???????????

“In my memory, it doesn’t end. We just stay there, looking at each other, forever.”

— John Green / Paper Towns

i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.

she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .

i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed

how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?

went to leave books back in to school today and she wasn’t there .

my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app

it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??

just did my last exam so i will ….. never see her again

unless i go in next week to return books so i can speak to her

what do i SAY tho she’s not here all summer and i’m too nervous too ask for her number

i literally hate when i go to talk to her and there’s someone in her room… it’s always the same guy too like LEAVE this is my time

she emailed me unprompted today WHAT

last class w her , got photos including a few of just us two🥺

first time seeing j back at school after easter and

i spent all lunch in her room and it just . felt like home

middle of easter holidays … i miss her sm

j recommended me some movies so . weekend plans x

tips for anxious tc'ers

having a tc is hard. eveyone knows the feeling of going blank when youre around your tc, or stumbling and choking on your words when you try to speak to them. so i decided to compile a list of tips that i have used that have worked for me (an extremely shy and awkward person) get close to my (extremely closed off/cold-ish) tc. if you're looking for ways to start a conversation with your tc and make that leap into a more casual relationship - read on.

these tips work well for when you're both online and on-campus :)

pets.

this is a very good way to talk to your tc when everyone is stuck at home during online school. how many times have you seen a dog running across the frame in your tc's class? or heard meows in the background? if this every happens, take the leap and ask your tc (preferably after class as not to derail) what their pets name is. when i did this my tc even she sent me some pictures! it's a great conversation starter and you can ask about the pet again in the future :)

casual segways.

this one is a little trickier and more nerve-wracking and it can be difficult depending on what class your tc teaches, but making the leap is really important. to do this, you have to first be having a class discussion in your tc's class. for example, one time we were learning about how different cultures celebrate christmas. so i casually asked L how she'd be celebrating and spending her holiday. this turned into a conversation and brought us slightly closer together. asking your tc personal questions related to what you're learning is great, it shows them you're interested in both them and the class and everybody loves talking about themselves.

joining/coming to class early for small talk.

i know everyone has sat and waited a couple minutes before joining a google meet so that they aren't alone with the teacher, but joining early when it's just the two of you can create some really good conversations. it's scary and you have to be quick, but joining quickly and giving a quick 'hi! how are you?' can create a friendly relationship between you. adding in a 'how was your weekend?' can create a great conversation as-well.

advice, questions, help.

this is an obvious one, but asking your tc for help or reaching out to them for guidance is a great way to talk to them. if you have assignments or assessments in their class, you can ask for advice or for them to check on your work. the worst part about this tip is actually coming up with a question to ask, lol. you can confirm due dates, clarify details, and ask a quedtion about what to do or how to do something.

compliments (within reason)

everyone likes getting complimented, and when we're online it can be a great way to lift up your tc's mood. i wouldn't go too far with compliments, i'd stick with things like 'i like your shirt' or "cool earrings!'. another great opportunity is complimenting your tc if they get a new haircut or change something about their appearance. one time, my tc got bangs and i complimented her. this became a conversation and that was one of the first times i really spoke to her! and if you're worried about being weird or obvious, there have been countless times when ive complimented other teachers on their jewelery or clothes. its alwayd been recieved well.

speak up!

keeping engaged and active during a class is really difficult to do, especially whenever we're online. a good way to create a good relationship with your tc is engaging in their class! obviously, dont be obnoxious or rude, but answering questions and making jokes can be a great way to liven up a lesson. if your tc asks 'how are you guys' in your class and nobody says anything, take the leap and answer! it can be awkward and really scary, but trust me it's worth it. don't let your tc's questions go unanswered.

1 Week left to easter, 2 weeks when we come back , then that is …. it for school . forever

we are off for exams from may but our final official day is june …. i’m going try and come in and see her frequently before this

it actually rips my heart up though because although i’ll probably ask her if we can stay in touch , i’m not guaranteed to see her ever again

i want to cook her dinner so bad

30/03

j recommended me a movie to watch called room in rome ?? and she was like oh it’s 18+ be careful and i replied IM 18 IM LEGAL so…. embarrassed 🫠🫠

but i looked this movie up and it’s literally just . lesbian sex WHAT DOES THIS MEAN

28/03

saw her for a chat today i think i disturbed her marking tho lol

I WANT TO POST PICS OF J AND THIRST BUT THAT IS SUCH A BAD IDEA

my sister just agreed w me that j is hot idk how to feel

no i do this all the time 😭i feel like such a creep but i literally plan my routes round school to see her lmao

Every time i try to bump into my tc i never see him but then he bumps into me every time I'm not even remotely trying to find him

I JUST TOLD HER I USED TO HAVE A CRUSH ON HER . AHAISIDKDJEJWKSKSKSJSNDND E

Franz Kafka, Letters to Felice‎

no i did NOt just stay up to midnight making cookies specifically to give to her

literally i walk past her room all the time and she’s . not there or teaching then when i’m hungover as fuck eating an entire meal while walking she sees me when she’s getting into her car 😐

Every time i try to bump into my tc i never see him but then he bumps into me every time I'm not even remotely trying to find him

j was driving out of school today as i was leaving because we had a short day and it was so sunny she was driving with the top down of her car . i love this woman

23/3/22

spent lunch with her today and she showed me a photo of her with blue hair and her family which was super cute <3

idk when i’m next going to see her though, don’t have her class to next week and i don’t want to see her too much in case she thinks i’m weird so probably will have to wait till next monday :,)

she is the most beautiful woman ever i genuinely can’t

and not to be nsfw but it’s getting warmer and she was just wearing her usual white shirt today without the suit jacket and ohmygod mommy

forever trapped in the cycle between “I want to talk to my tc because if I don’t I’ll feel like my day is ruined” and “oh fuck I feel like I’m being annoying because I talked to my tc again and he definitely knows that I like him and he thinks I’m weird”

every month or so i forget about this account for a few weeks

make it happen !! i’m really shy and literally never spoke to her outside much of class until this year, then one day i asked her for help with my university application and sat with her over lunch one day . this turned into me seeing her far more often over lunch , but i definitely had to make all the effort in initiating it . now we talk when we (rarely) pass each other in the corridor and she asks me how i am in class and we have conversations . next step is getting her number lol

i spent lunch w j today and OHMYGOD

we were talking about keeping in touch after i leave and she said it’s fairly common for people here to come back on their university holidays and say hi to their teachers , and she even said she is going for coffee with a former student this weekend . so. we will be doing that

she also said she’s free same time tm so it’s a date lol - should i bake something or bring anything ? ADVICE PLS