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My tc told me off today in the middle of a corridor (not in lesson :/ ) and now I feel like shit. He was accusing me of skipping a lesson basically because he saw me walking around. He kept being like ‘Did you go?’ And I kept saying that I did and he was like then why did I see you walking around with E and I was repeatedly like ‘I still went though, I’m not lying’. I was literally about to cry like I think he could tell I was getting upset because he was like ‘you’ve got such a good thing going on here don’t let yourself down’ and then he left me alone. I felt like shit, if it was any other teacher I literally wouldn’t have cared but it’s because it was him. Tbh I hate being told off and the fact he was the one telling me off just made it worse, I couldn’t even laugh it off because I care about what he thinks. I kept saying I wanted to get in trouble with him I take it baaack, it’s horrible. Apparently his week’s been quite stressful though so maybe that’s what it was?? Because when I went to see him later to collect some work he was quite cold then as well siiigh, idk if I can do this whole having a tc thing. 🥺
Honestly things with my tc have been fine but nothing amazing to write about. I love that when I see him in corridors though we always talk, like the other day he asked me if I was alright and it just took my by surprise and I fucked up but like he’s so sweet, and he’s always smiling and saying hello to me siiiigh tbvh.
Anyway I’m in such a tiff rn because I think I’m crushing on someone else and omg, my heartbeat like fuuuuuck, I’ll talk about who it is in the next post (it’s lowkey still a tc)
If you don’t know how to start up a conversation with your tc, since Christmas is coming up, write them a Christmas card!!
If you don’t want people to get suspicious write Christmas cards for all your teachers (if you have too many, maybe your favourites other than tc) but just make your tcs really personalised.
If you want to seem even less suspicious get other people to sign it as well, like the rest of your class (just their names or maybe a little message with that) and after everyone has, you can write a personalised paragraph or two yourself without people finding out how personal you made it or how much you wrote.
If you’re not sure about when to give it to them, I’d suggest on like the last day or two days (in case they end up not coming in or something) before the Christmas break or at the end of your last lesson with them before the break. You can go to their office and hand it in and have a little chat or you can just do it after lesson and have a little chat. If it’s after lesson you probably want to wait behind a bit so it’s not awkward for you if people see you or end up listening in on your conversation and also so you don’t feel rushed. I’m telling you about it now so you have time to think about what you’re gonna write, what card you’re gonna get etc etc (if you don’t have the money to buy one, make one!!)
Good luck!!
P.S. this is a little disclaimer, please respect their privacy and don’t do anything reckless that’ll get them to lose their job.
P.S.S. This is also applicable to birthdays. If you know their birthday you can write one for then too.
I went to give in my essay today so we talk for a bit about it and then he goes ‘I wish everyone could be as proactive as you but don’t tell everyone about doing this because then it’d be too much for me to get through, if it’s just you it’s fine’ I was buzzing tbh. Later on I go ‘I just want to apologise as well because I probably should have given it in before the half term so you’d have the time to mark it, but that’s due to my own being unorganised’ he replies with ‘don’t ever apologise for giving in extra work, I’ll find the time’ he’s honestly so sweeeet like the way he said it makes me feel like I should never apologise for anything ever again to him, it was lowkey overwhelming. I then asked ‘Am I distracting??’ and he seemed to be thinking really hard about this and struggling to come up with an answer so I expanded and said ‘like in lesson would you say I’m disruptive, I just wanna know so I can be more self-aware’ he said that it wasn’t necessarily me but the girls on my table (E + J haha I mentioned them before) saying how he was going to implement a seating plan, obviously I don’t want to move because they’re my friends so I literally go ‘noooo pleaseeee don’t Sir’ begging like a fucking child, it worked though. He says he was going to give it one more week, now this wasn’t enough for me and I say ‘how about we make an agreement (he was very amused at this point) if we’re good next week we can stay in the same places’, ‘okay fine, fine’ he says and I’m just smiling uncontrollably because everything was in harmony again. We joked a bit more before I left but I realised that I’d gone without wishing him a good weekend so I quickly popped my head past the door and said ‘happy weekend!’ The confrontation was great tbh, if anything maybe this is a platonic infatuation I have for him, is that a thing?? (if not, I’m making it a thing now lmao) I can acknowledge he’s attractive but honestly I just want to be close to him (like close friends). Also I forgot to ask for his birthday, also also, it was easier to talk to him because he normally shares his office with other teachers but when I went to see him he was the only one there so that was a plus.
One day he was handing out sheets and I’m like ‘thank you’ and he whispers ‘that’s alright’ so so sweetly. He continued round (I sit right at the front) and I made sure to listen out as other people said thank you but he didn’t say anything back to them. Aaaah, this is literally fucking with my heart, because I’m probably, most likely overthinking it haha.
“You’re so art deco, out on the floor.”
- Lana Del Rey
“Love will fuck you up more than drugs ever will.”
- The Weeknd
Feeling his soft skin in my imagination.
Tasting his tongue in my daydream.
Smelling his scent and wanting more.
Hearing his deep voice and begging for satisfaction.
Watching his authority with lustful eyes.
so i’m seeing her next week :)
We need updates?! Did you meet her before going to uni?
ok so i know it’s been like 3 months sorry !!! but i did meet her and we just had a really long conversation , i don’t really remember the details of it
i’ve moved countries now but i’m coming home next week for a good while for christmas, i plan to see her at some point then
we have emailed pretty frequently since i moved and some of the stuff she sends me is so cute (also she’s started signing her emails with her first name and now her nickname 🥹)
what did she reply !!?!
she was just like !!! use my email also miss u come see me before u move to university
so
i’m seeing her on friday
crying screaming throwing up
she replied ???????????
i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.
she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .
i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed
how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?
went to leave books back in to school today and she wasn’t there .
exception by renforshort should be the tc community anthem tbh
i just listened to it there and it’s on repeat now
my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app
it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??
just did my last exam so i will ….. never see her again
unless i go in next week to return books so i can speak to her
what do i SAY tho she’s not here all summer and i’m too nervous too ask for her number
i literally hate when i go to talk to her and there’s someone in her room… it’s always the same guy too like LEAVE this is my time
she emailed me unprompted today WHAT
Did you talk with her again about THAT movie she proposed to you ? ( the lesbian one)
yes lmaooo she said maybe she needs to watch it again (?) and recommended me way more movies
last class w her , got photos including a few of just us two🥺