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i think our story just ended. made a reason to go into school today and she had left by the time i got there. tomorrow is the last day of term and there’s so little chance of seeing her and i have no reason to be there . but i wanted to apologise for the email and leave a way to get in touch but our last interaction is now just a normal conversation and that stupid email. i know it’s stupid to think that her leaving early today had anything to do with me but i can’t stop thinking that she wants to avoid me.
she’s not going to be here all summer as she’s going travelling so i can’t even dream about running into her some random day, and the next time i could see her is next year now if even .
i don’t want to email her again because i feel like she hates me but i feel so…. crushed
how does 7 years and all those chats and silly memories just end on a random week day and i didn’t even know it was the last one ?
re downloaded the app and thankfully no reply
but
what if i get in trouble or she hates me or won’t speak to me anymore ???
i already don’t know what to do because i am officially out of school. it’ll only be a few weeks before we lose our school email addresses , i have no reason to be in school anymore and to top it off she’ll be away all summer . it’s pretty common here to come back at christmas time after you have started uni to say hi to teachers , but i can’t wait that long . 7 years can’t be reduced to this .
and it hurts so so so much because no matter how strong my feelings are it won’t change anything for her and there is nothing i can do to change that and the email was . stupid . but here we are
my friends and i went out the other night and i got drunk and emailed her 😭😭😭😭😭so embarrassed i just deleted the whole email app
it wasn’t even bad , but i have to go in and give books back now so going to be very awkward. also mildly afraid she’ll hate me ??
literally i walk past her room all the time and she’s . not there or teaching then when i’m hungover as fuck eating an entire meal while walking she sees me when she’s getting into her car 😐
Every time i try to bump into my tc i never see him but then he bumps into me every time I'm not even remotely trying to find him
February TC Challenge Day 2
2) if they were here right now, and you could tell them absolutely anything, what would you say?
i mean given the fact i’m in my bed looking as crusty as possible it would not be the best scenario for a meaningful confession and if she was with me in my room i think i would have alluded to some feelings previously.
however if i was just with her at 23:51 regardless of location i would tell her everything i’ve ever felt about her and how she’s the only person who makes me excited to live
February TC Challenge Day 1
1.) What is one trait you found in your TC(s) that you find irreplacable, and why?
- the way she speaks and carries herself is so unlike anyone i have ever met or spoken to. She’s always in a suit and she dresses so much better and more formally than all the other teachers and the way she pronounces things (for example her slight lisp and the way she pronounces “s” sounds is so uniquely beautiful.) and her hair i love it sm she’s so blonde and amazing
28/01/22
i was the first person in her class today and she asked me how i was which is. not something she does to anyone else so i’m really happy
bc i was the first person she sent me on a bunch of messages which is rlly sweet bc i literally had to go deliver chocolate to another teacher lmao
when i came back she kept saying thank you. literally like 20 times🥰
she caught me staring at her tho (didn’t mention it thankfully)
she asked me if i was down today like do i really look that depressed lmao?? but we had an hour long conversation and i feel like i’ve really got to know her better . she said she always looks forward to seeing me and she doesn’t really talk to many other teachers in our school (there are reasons but if i posted it here anyone who looked at this account would instantly know who i was ) and it was so cute i almost died 🥰shes started telling me more personal stuff too i really love it- me 7 years ago would never have imagined this
A get to know me post!
i’m 17, shes 46
i’ve had feelings for her ever since my first year of school and had a tc blog like 5 years ago but now i’m back for my last year of school
i am probably going to tell her how i feel the last time i ever see her (i will be 18 and not coming back to school so hopefully it won’t be too weird for her)
she is the most beautiful person i’ve ever seen