Also I'm Seeing My Husband This Sunday, So I Have To Stop Acting Like A P1g Or Im Going To Be F4tter

Helhest

The irony's a bitter pill, a twisted delight,

The less I have, the stronger I feel in the night. Empty echoes in a hollow frame,

A twisted victory in this hunger game.

Each rib, a bony crown, a badge of my fight,

Against a foe unseen, in the dead of the night.

The mirror, a canvas of decline and decay,

But in the fractures, a twisted kind of ballet.

Food, the enemy, a siren's sweet call,

But control, a triumph, that conquers them all.

The world fades to whispers, a distant refrain,

As the hunger consumes, a sweet, hollow pain.

The warmth of a fire, a distant dream's hold,

But the chills that wrack me feel strangely consoled.

For weakness is freedom, a fragile release,

From a world that demands, a body to appease.

The whispers grow louder, a chorus of fear,

But the silence within is strangely more clear.

A voice in the darkness, a chilling decree,

"Sicker is better, for that's how you'll be free."

But freedom's a cage, with bars made of bone,

A victory dance, a victory alone.

The depths I descend, a descent without end,

This twisted desire, a hunger that won't mend.

Oh, the tears that won't fall, the emotions all numb, Is this what it's worth, to finally become...

Not smaller, not thinner, but something far worse,

A hollow shell dancing, in a malnourished corpse.

- just a poem my sleep deprived mind came up with. I hope you all enjoy it cause I'm new to writing.🥴

Tips to distract yourself while fasting

🎀 Selfcare (body)

• Shower

• Body lotion

• Trimming your nails

• Doing a face mask

• Hair care

• Vitamins

• Plucking your eyebrows

• Painting your nails

• Shaving

• Exfoliate your body

• Do your lashes with clusters (they’re on amazon)

• Doing your skincare

🦢 Routine

• Make your bed

• Brush your teeth

• Floss!!

• Drink a lot of water

• Stretching

🎀 To do (important)

• Clean the home

• Do your dishes

• Do the laundry

• Read your emails

• Clean your phones (photos, etc…)

• Take out the trashes

• Wash your bed sheets

🦢 Activities

• Color/draw

• Shopping online

• Journaling

• Take a walk (bonus if u have a dog hehe)

• Organize ALL your house

• Make new playlist about your aesthetic

• Make new Pinterest board

• Organize your Pinterest

• Watch a movie

• Watch a new series

• Try new makeup styles

• Pilates workout

• Yoga workout

• Take a good nap

• Play your favourite video game

• Call your friends and go out with them!!

• Listen to a podcast

Waiting for everyone else to go to sleep so you can chew and sp!t>>>>>

Miso soup and muffins on rainy days>>

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

Just got my collarb0n3s visible again. ✊🏻😭

Literally all I'm wearing for now on, are tops that show them off. I can't wait to get rid of my h1deous th1ghs next.

IM SO FUCKING DUMB

WHy did I tell my psychiatrist I struggled with an €D...now she prescribed me meds that stop me from b1ng1ng and also make me gain weight. I literally asked her for any meds that DONT cause appetite/weight increase. I always snitch on myself. When will i learn? 😭

Can yall stop being so relatable? How am I supposed to feel qUiRkY and different when we keep going through the same things. (　ＴДＴ)

lately I’ve been binging my fucking crazy because like you ever have those thoughts where your like “it’s okay I love my body it’s okay to eat!!” Then once you finish that last bite ur like fuck why did I eat that this is why ur so big

just me?

This (but gender swapped)☝️

I hate seeing how many of us are in similar situations. It actually hurts because everyone here is so sweet and empathetic.

" i st4rv3 to have control " " i st4rv3 to look attractive " i st4rv3 myself to stop having the same body type as my abvs3r .

AHHHHH

I'm donating plasma rn and the woman who took my vitals kept talking about how tiny my hands are and then they had to use the CHILDREN'S blood pressure cuff. I'm so happy rn.